well..i guess everybody hates me now? mainly for the best thing ive ever had..my blog..ppl get mad n starts spilling everything out..is that wrong? why must they make such a big fuss over a small thing which is practically nothing..since when they cared so much about my stuff n what i was about to said n say..seriously..whats ur problem? so now r u trying to tell me im all wrong n trying to take the best thing out of me..!

this is not it....now ppl will be thinking n talking stuff about me! U DO NOT KNOW ME! SO STOP JUDGING ME! U HAVE NO RIGHTS TO JUGDE ME BCOZ U DONT EVEN NOE ME!bsides do u think u r qualified to judge me..only god can do that..-am i making myself clear? so stop saying things about me would u..its ok to keep it to urself..dun worry u can have a blog n spill everything out.. it feels gd..n no worries..i'll never visit it.bcoz i totally couldnt careless..n have no intention to find out about u n ur stuff at all..

the most frustrating part is..im very very disappointed in a particular someone..i thought he is diff frm others..i thought he is different and unique in his own way! i seriously do..but now that i know..he had completely changed my mind n my gd perspectives about him! i serious thought he might be able to understand me-the only one perhaps? i dont care what others think about me..! but him..i care! alot too! i dunno y..but as far as life is concern..i seriously do care about what he thinks about me..-in case ppl get the wrong idea..its not THE HIM! its the other him! a him that i once loved? n i thought he was the best gentleman ever ive met in my whole damn life! thinking about what he might say n think about me makes me feel totally miserable and sick..i suddenly felt tears rolling down my cheeks! this is close to the end of the world..

i really hope he understands..or maybe he is just influenced by his fellow frens..i dunno..thats not like him tho..not the him that i thought i know..now all that im asking for is peace..laugh at the back of me..stab me at my back..just dont lemme noe..it feels terrible..im trying to take over the hatred i have in myself..so..its very nice of u to help out by stopping it all..dont worry i'll never blog about u ppl again..as i was saying..im not perfect..im 15..i made mistakes..i noe its really not really nice of me to say those things n mentioned about u ppl..i tremendously sorry..-this time i really mean it..so i hope YOU-s can get over it n move along? i dont hate u..i just dislike u..ok..i cant deny it..but i'll do whtever it takes to clear it off..living in a hatred feel is no gd..im not born to hate..love to live, live to love-motive of life frm this point onwards! just get over n dont find a thing with me..n it'll be all ok..