last sat was actually my dady's 44th birthday..729(in mandarin it means go drink beer) lol..we bought him a cake frm secret recipe and i took candles for age 45 instead of 44 n he was shocked! lol..i made him a card bcoz he just wouldnt wanna accept anything except a handmade card n cake bcoz he said y waste money..dads r dads..i love the cake real much..bsides that, i chatted with him again..this time was way better than the 1st time.. im on a mission..diet is the title! im on diet!! i hope it will work out the way i want it to be..bcoz im a food freak..i eat all sorts of rubbish without realising or even bothering how much calories, fats n such..so im more or less doom!

nxt, its sun..went to subang parade at 10 in the morn! just to check out hows my bro doing in his and1 n of coz..look around n c if i spot any "lengchai" ..conclusion: ya! n its the mega sales n so how could anybody ever miss the ooportunity to shop till drop..i bought many tops all though im not sure y..my mum said im lack of tops but im aso lack of bottoms..lol..we had gone to a stage where we had to put our stuff in the car n head back to the mall again..crazy mum n daughter..im very contented..the best part is i finally got a bag that has all the requirements..big, white n soft..its frm nike..=) later at night, dad brought us to a restaurant in puchong.."udang galah" yum..

longing for it..

im seriously not photogenic!! hate it hate it..i noe i look blah in real life so let me look ok in pic pls?( begging..buddha?) newy..im trying to enjoy my life all though im still far behind for the PMR.. so i gonna work hard..mug hard n still have fun! thats my mission of life for now.. its been awhile since i last feel grateful n gladful for some things still im not that contented so make me feel contented!..(im talking to god again) lol..

i just feel so silly n crazy sometimes..like out of my mind n do sumting unexpectedly..? mayb it bcoz of the hormones..(according to me aunt) unusual hormones its what she called it..speaking about her..i miss her so much! she is so busy with her school work n i guess she has forgotten about me..useless..

bah..i feel so weird recently..like im not sure if i feel like another person or its just been me all along..hidden for a long time n finally revealing the real, true self..lol..i lover crappin dont i..crappin is love..lol..

GONG IS LOVE..LOVE IS GONG!! <333

i still have the feeling i was experiencing during the car lost..n i hate that feeling so much! its driving me crazy and cant it just get out of my mind! it makes me feel depressed and miserable in the meantime esp when it comes to think about all the circumstances that will and had put US through .. i seriously cant understand what makes us deserve that?! we did nothing to harm any1 at any means..we r always on the charity and other nice stuff.. but why us?? this is no 1st time n im so sick of all this..its always us..

so im glad that we'll be moving hse..new environment and hoping for a better place and life.. so mum n dad went hunting for hses on sale recently..i got my eyes on the new area, usj 3A! not bad.. i love the area..its new n far awy frm everyone else..i mean at least far away frm sum ppl that left me with bad memories and also to leave all this bad experiences we had gone through behind n no turning back..but im definately gonna reach my room..is one of a kind n im lovin it so much that i feel like not selling my room in particular..lol..the rest of the hse r junks..so u can have it..

i've been staying in this hse for more than 10 yrs now and its really time to change! dad said he's gonna design it the best sand he got my trust since he's the part time interior designer and contractor.. he know what best to do and he got all..so im truly looking forward for a new hse..we've some ideas in our heads that might be putting to gd use..i want the dinning area to be like the korean style-in taipan that restaurant n dad agrees..how cool..

better start mugging later for the weird diagnostic test.. i've no idea at all..funny enough..one of my fren thought she got the wrong paper bcoz the questions r so "frightening"..lol..

i still have the feeling i was experiencing during the car lost..n i hate that feeling so much! its driving me crazy and cant it just get out of my mind! it makes me feel depressed and miserable in the meantime esp when it comes to think about all the circumstances that will and had put US through .. i seriously cant understand what makes us deserve that?! we did nothing to harm any1 at any means..we r always on the charity and other nice stuff.. but why us?? this is no 1st time n im so sick of all this..its always us..

so im glad that we'll be moving hse..new environment and hoping for a better place and life.. so mum n dad went hunting for hses on sale recently..i got my eyes on the new area, usj 3A! not bad.. i love the area..its new n far awy frm everyone else..i mean at least far away frm sum ppl that left me with bad memories and also to leave all this bad experiences we had gone through behind n no turning back..but im definately gonna reach my room..is one of a kind n im lovin it so much that i feel like not selling my room in particular..lol..the rest of the hse r junks..so u can have it..

i've been staying in this hse for more than 10 yrs now and its really time to change! dad said he's gonna design it the best sand he got my trust since he's the part time interior designer and contractor.. he know what best to do and he got all..so im truly looking forward for a new hse..we've some ideas in our heads that might be putting to gd use..i want the dinning area to be like the korean style-in taipan that restaurant n dad agrees..how cool..

better start mugging later for the weird diagnostic test.. i've no idea at all..funny enough..one of my fren thought she got the wrong paper bcoz the questions r so "frightening"..lol..

continue with my dreadful experience..so the car was gone..forever i assumed..there are sum valuable things n important documents in there..my beloved camera with its memory card was one of it..i felt horrible and im pretty sure my dad may looked "normal" on the outside but deep inside he must be heart broken..he loves the car..he took great care of it n always treating it with special care and etc..i even counted that left 2 weeks n 1 day only bfore its very 1st b'day!!

n my bros responded pretty well with it..i think they r "recovering" real fast..fast enough to continue with his maple and when i asked him about it he was like.."come on" "cheer" "its nothing..""its just a car""who cares""EVERYONE had gone through it" i shld have known..guys r always guys..

thank god there is the insurance to save the day..my dad settled eveything right after that..lodged a police report n stuff..he must be exhausted..plus the lack of sleep..just poor old dad..so now i've no idea what he had decided to do nxt..hope everything will be alright..a better tommorrow is my hope from today onwards! =)

n i had my braces done again today-changed it frm pink to purple..n managed to buy my fav mag..i was supposed to follow mum to temple since today was "kuan yin tan"n believe me i really wanted to go n ask for some blessings i mean with all this that had been happening around me..sure need that..

..but....im experiencing sumting in the meantime..i was suffering frm stomachache and my knees were weak..its the time of the month if u noe what i mean..its killing if u still want me to attend it..i mean with all the bending frm up to down and stuff..plus 1 more thing to worry about..-leakage! its just tough! so i finally decided not to go..and stayed at home with my youngest bro..mum was planning to bring us together n due to this last min change..we had no dinner n so we ordered pizza for the both of us..i guess mum must b not so happy about it..im sry mum i'll try n go the nxt time k..

rewatched "hot chick" again while eating the pizza..love that movie..its so hilarious and romantic in the same time~n frm now on my fav bk will be the V club also known as the virginity club..i hope im like one of the character, eva..lol..n my bro was cursing me bcoz i wouldnt let him play..so much for a bro! gotta go to bed..zzzzZZZZZZZ

depress took over me! i feel down...

yesterday was one of the worst day in my life and also my dad in particular.. the only lucky thing about it's that it doesnt involve any life! shld be grateful? yeah..perhaps.. i dunno..but this is no small matter..

it all happens early in the morn..i recalled back..i was lying on my bed n it was about 6 am n sumting unusual happened..i heard the unusual pace of steps and saw feets catching up with the first feet that walked passed unpredictably.. a bad feeling struck me..i feel the urge to get up on the spot n check out what on eath is happening till practically everybody was awake and in a rush..i was so suprised to hear my dad'voice calling WHAT?! ok..this is not gd bcoz my dad dun usually wakes up this early i mean he dun even have the ability to wake up since he's always staying up late at nite..

many not-so-pleasant- thoughts kept wondering in my mind n i was eager to find out what is all this about?! bad ideas took over my brain..n for once..i dun feel like finding out bcoz im afraid im about to pass out..but im choiceless..i've to face this reality..one of the reality nobody wish to face and experience..

so..i guessed everybody is as curious as i was when this 1st happened..k..as i was walking downstairs with my heart pounding so fast that im afraid it might come out? me mum was the nearest to the staircase so she was staring at me with suprise plus shocked! i hate the expression on her face..it makes me nervous..

"what r u doing here" she finally asked..
"erm..whats happening??" i replied nervously..(afraid im about to pass out to hear the news)
"the car is GONE"
"WHAT?!@@#" I gulped..

(to be continued)

i seriously gotta write sumting about the world cup all though it had officially ended few days ago..i must write sumting about it before feeling guilty and unsatisfied throughout my 4 yrs!! i mean its 4 FREAKING YRS ONCE! its a massive thing u noe..and i still havent get enough of it! i want more!


world cup finals..
france lost.-i like zidane
italy won.-but i want them to win so badly..n they won! lol..

well..i got this frm sum1's blog..lol..i've no time to write my own reveal and since her opinion is similiar with mine.myself just copy lo..hope she dun mind tho..:

henry got slightly injured in the first 2 minutes, zidane got sent off in the 111st minute (tat was cool man. altho ya lar very stupid of him lar, since this is his last match, but his headbutt si beh powerful wei!!)
n the french's second penalty shootout was so stupid...
aih.. zidane walk off like tat, ending his career wit a red card. so sad..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j1i_l0OeeMc (go check out the headbutt video... classic)
"But it's a shame. It's sad. He (Materazzi) did a lot of acting and for such a big man, a gust of wind made him fall over. It's regrettable. said coach Domenech.
hahahahhaha!!!! hahahah!! how funny can tat get? Players lose their cool in games all the time. They get too mad, too desperate or too determined to get revenge on the spot, and wind up doing something stupid. But Zidane? He was about control from the moment he left the tough streets of Marseilles to begin his professional career as a teenager. You only had to see his elegant touch with the ball a few times to know that. Zidane pulled the strings on every team he played for, always able to dictate tempo and the flow of play precisely because he was always in control. According to members of the French media, French players told them that Matterazi called Zidane a racial slur which prompted the headbutt.

damn..actually i typed the whole thing about my weekend but sumhow the tagboard showed out instead of the whole damn thing i was typing this whole morn! all my effort r gone in just a blink! ='( and my heart was tearing apart..anyway..i'll just have to retype it before i feel sorry for myself..so* flash back*

firstly..it was jeremy's farewell party on sat at 6pm! before that i had a nap n guess that explains y im late.. one very valuable lesson learnt! never ever fool around with the flour anymore! it kills.. bad enough to ruined my entire hair and it took me at least one an a half hour just to clean the mess on my hair! i guess thats the result of havin "too much fun"..u gotta pay for it at the end of the day! so we had dominos and kfc for dinner..credit :thanks aunty and uncle..they r reli nice ppl..im gonna miss the big one! lol..i prefer the part where water is involved..water is way better than the flour! no doubt! n i saw the pics taken on that day through minhui's my space..i looked ugly as expected! i hate taking pics! i never like to be around with the cameras bcoz sumhow the camera dislike me..lol..crappy me..

the nxt day..i woke up at 10 just to get ready for the trip to the mighty "mv doulos" organised by the C.O.O.L- koon's church..before meeting up with the rest at mcdonalds me and sm had lunch at big boy! delicious dory fish they have..great food..reasonable price..nice place..warm service..n u just gotta try it..its located at taipan.. opposite mcd and its in same row as the old time kopitiam..=)

we headed to our destination at 3pm if im not mistaken by bus..n we were treated like VIPs with special backstage entrance n so on..the crowd n especially the queue is crazy and frightening..so just feeling extremely lucky to have such privilege..hehe..n managed to buy two novels that costed me RM24 alltogether..i mean one of their highlights r the bookfair..n u just gotta to get sumting out of it rite..? so there it went..two books in hand! also, managed to try their ice-cream and a bite of their cookie..it was ok tho and kinda cheap..

anyway..later at night..had a@w for dinner since they dropped us all there..n went to PASar malam for awhile..n get to bed as soon as possible TO GET SUM REST BEFORE THE FINAL MATCH!! FIFA WORLD CUP GERMANY 2006!! and couldnt get up n so skipped school..my whole family excluding my 2nd bro watched it!

just though of posting a short one before having the sleepover with my aunt for the last time..not really thelalst time but its the end of the semester and the beginning of her 3rd yr..? in uni..so she's going back 2mrw..n we will never see each other that often anymore n im so gonna miss her! im missing her alr n thats y i shall make this quick to accompany her later..

bout school..its ok..fun actully..we gotta go on9 with the guys after all the beggngs n stuff..lol..our gurl;s kh teacher cant stand us anymore..pity her actually..n so she send us to go with the guys to the com lab..lol..managed to tag n do sum stuff..n its so silly..we were actually chattin with each other all though we're in the same room n a few feet away..min was sitting exactly bside me and i was chattin with her through msn..how sweet~lol..n so were the others.. its fun n crazy at the same time but i enjoyed it..hope there'll b more of this..

n tuition was ok..ideal..

CRAVIngs!

>>sushis
>>more chocolates
>>CAkEs!-mango delighht frm secret recipe would b perfect!!

i heard so much about blogging today and that makes me proud bcoz i do blog oftenly and enjoy it..its the therapy =) so tomorow is the silly test.."keselamatan" blabla..n havent start "studying" yet..all this never make my life less miserable..

im always stucked in this situation..one after another and its not fun at all..i feel sick and im really tired..can longer take it anymore..more than half of my time is spent worrying and freaking out with everything that r going on around me..its sucking the energy n the essential oxygen away frm me! many unpleasant stuff have been occupying my brain recently and formed sily thoughts..i tried not to think about it so much and all i need is focus..n sum confidence coz t.anne said im lack of it..lol..

n i just had my worst tuition ever..its terrible as usual..i dun get it..one did they accepted him in the first place..he only bring noise and eventually distraction and we just cant focus and concentrate on our subject and how can his be happening?? who allow this to happen?? whoever who did..yes offense..r u out of ur mind?? for god sake! i hope this will never repeat agin bcoz i cant bare with this anymore! seriously feel like quiting but i just can afford to bcoz..1st i can find any better tuition with such a pro teacher..2nd i dun have the time to search for one and time is running out pretty fast..in just a blink u'll find urself in the weekend..reasonable enough?

speaking about weekend..my weekend..as usual..pack like sardines it is.. on sat they'll b throwing a farewell party for jeremy..he's migrating to china end of this month and skip the PMR! =) perfect! wondering shld i get him sumting..for the last time..?

nxt..its the subday..going the the doulos ship..=) organised by koon's church and according to sm its only 2 yrs younger than the titanic and it has book fair in it..here i come,books!!i cant wait for this lil trip with koon, sm n thats it..the rest..once i hear their names..i immediately feel like cancelling it but i take gd control of myself..i wont let them spoil my sunday! not this coming sunday! im gonna have a great time exploring this marvellous and spectacular ship..with books!! this is one in a life time experience and im so gonna open my eyes hugely..=)

i hate S.A.M!! i hate her so damn much..fucking slut! arrgghh.get her off my life..never wanna speak to her! if possible..geez.. she gets on my nerves easily..!

u love me u love me noe..u love me u love me not..
u love me...................

just came back frm dance class a few hours again..we're still on samba..n i got my result..i passed!! not as high as my classmates but still its ok..i got 88! lol..while they r almost perfect with just a few marks diff..well its quite alright bcoz im kinda used to be the lousy 1 already..=) so that mkes me an optimistic? lol..everybody says i looked depress n mayb bcoz i din smile enough? well.thats the feedbacks i got..i'll just try and smile more n focus by showing my alertness n expand my eyes as big as possible to show that im aware although im lilke blur most of the time..its gd to hide sum stuff out rite..lol..

anyhow..i heard sum 1 saying that no matter what everybody has their very own talent..n it means at least 1! but how come i dun find myself havin even a tiny talent..not in half a talent! n my bro is distracting me..again! ok..he's gone..so back to that..i seriously sucks in everything la..
I MEAN EVERY SINGLE TINY THINGS! i do have no talent at all! i wish im more like the almost-perfect guy that i noe..he's superb talented..no doubt and question about it..one of a kind..he's gd in everything=art,music,sports,studies n etc! i wish im the gurl's version of him..he is so successful and evrybody esp the teachers like him so much..he is simply..perfect? ok..almost perfect sounds better or else he might sound so goddess..yeah i really admires him..n guess what?! teacher just complimented about him again.."suprise, suprise"

school was ok..as usual..boring n sleepy..dozing of without fear..lol..n we-twelveans r forced to take sum silly test about safety and that we must pass or we'll have to retake over n over again until the day we passed..how great! n no sweets r allowed in the school compound..make sense? we are sum typical teenagers who juz wanna have sum SOME Fun..we aint prisoners i bet the prisoner has a better life than us..more freesdom i guess..but i still prefer to study at overseas..coz here..just simply sucks..preferable s'pore or those western countries lie australia just rocks..lol..there seems fun enough..i totally cant wait to find out who will be in the finals..italy versus.....................???? ;)

say no to bully! =)
peace out..

upon min's request.. cheh..n aso my own desire.bleh..im back to post again..=) as usual..weekend=busy! so i'll just have another flash back..saturday..i cant remember what i was up to..sumting not so fun i guess..otherwise i'll definatelyy rmb..and sunday was seafield's canteen day..its cool..way better than my school i gotta admit it.. my school shld b embarrassed regarding how well cfield's canteen pulled it off..i bet they earned a great amount of $$ too..lol..spotted quite a no. of quite gd looking guys around..glad that i came..LOL..of course..met tiff,cherie, lilbrat n so many more..glad to met them..all looking gd =)

so after that..since we couldnt make it to pyramid..mum dropped us to the nearest shopping mall possible to ease our boredom and desire.? lol.. well..if u still dunno..the place is summit..so lame n lau ya.. but i had fun watchin the movie.."too fast too furious; tokyo drift" well..me aunt.. apparently 21st this yr..brought me in..lol..its 18blabla.. n im 15..so..just feeing slight lucky..n this kinda movie u really gotta watch it in the cinema to have a better view and feel..-the sound effects brought everything to alive! lol.. and im seriously loving it..its so cool n "yeng"..n that makes me wanna marry sum drift freak sumday..lol.. they looked so cool and of course irresisitable la..HAHA..unfortunatately there was no any particular cute guy showing up..feeling disappointed? YES!

school was fun..cement is seriously silly n funny..lol..brighten up my day in class..had my piano..it was ok..my teacher said i gotta really work on my practical..lack of practice..and she said my theory was ok..? way better than ok..lol.. what to do..sumhow i prefer theory more than practically..PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT!

**** character.hideous nooby face.annoyin attitude. such freaking freak personality. 2 BIG Ls= lame n loser! (im describing sumbody here..min..u might noe)
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