I permed my hair again..its much curlier compared to the previous one..bcoz I requested for a curlier one so that the curl wont go off easily like wat happened! We learn frm lessons..Dad brought mum’s car for service n therefore, no transport for us..n since we were so desperate n no longer can wait..we called up 1 of my mum’s n aunt’s fren, buddy to pick us up n drop us at the saloon for sum serious treatment!! Im quite satisfy but I dun think my aunt is..she was grumbling about the hair is too curly n so on…….(goes on and on but no ending!) hope its not over curly though..im afraid ill look like sum aunty..reli old ones..hideous n awful it is! Anyway..my bro invited his best fren..tat shing for sleepover.. I heard he is super rich n only son! Woot~ he bought sum reli nice n expensive chocolates n I guess that really proves it all.. he is an ahlete too..very dark n tall one! My bro is a head shorter n I cant do anything but laugh bcoz he looks like a dwarf walking wit him..no offense but he shld eat more rice la..he is a guy y’know!! For me, its oni “qualify” if a guy is -more like must at least 175cm tall n muscular..but not too muscular..can see the body shape not too bad then can consider pass..n i hate those skinny skinny ones with no muscle o whatsoever at all..n tall!! Like a bamboo..i mean u r much better off a bamboo stick!! What is the diff anyway?? I really cant stand and hope to tell him u r so geli n not macho wei!!

I almost miss out the best part on that day..this should come under “malaysia” funniest video. This is really hilarious..me n koon was laughing our heads off while bouncing up and down like sum maniac..this was also the most embarrassing part of all..but I guess this happens all the time..n occur to most ppl b4..but still its so hilarious..my mum is a good bowler and there is no doubt about it..her scores r amazing..u couldn’t believe..an aunty like her scores 100 points each time! I gotta admit how proud I was n koon was like going “so cool”, “ur mum rawkzzz man” n kept screaming “u go auntie!!” n guess wat came nxt.. mum was acting like a pro(of coz)..with all the gestures..wait..she is one..anyway..thats no the point! Everybody was so curious n waited patiently to see what the mama’s got..n was expecting sumting really huge to happen.. strike o sumting..u noe that sort of thing in a bowling..wow..all the jaws were opened widely..n there she goes..n OOOPS! Sumting came to us..what was it..erm..ITS THE BOWL-the ball!! N what issit doing here.. wait..it s frm..MY MUM!! She was grinning at us..with her stunning posture..POINTING!...and when we finally realize that she bowled erm..backwards? we were..laughing like sum mad cows..n the lame boy juz ran away..im suppose to b hiddin myself as well coz most of them were WATCHIN but I juz couldn’t help it but laugh! This is sumting I sure wont forget..n i cant wait to tell every1!!! Ouch..my stomach hurts!! Teehee..

today was a waste of time..i seriously regretted for going out with that geek..he thinks he is so cool n mighty..XP.. but the rest r fine..wk n jus r steady n nice..juz the way i like it esp wk..but that fellow..sucks..i hate him.. so far he is the worst guy i have ever met..n he thinks ss is lame n noob..well..look who's talking now! pathetic ungentleman loser..n bcoz of this boring event..i skipped my piano class!!! dumb me! i will never allow this to repeat..luckily there is koon to back me up..she so sweet n adorable..u can spot ppl looking at her everywhere she goes..very proud to haf her as my best fren..hehe..n aso she is tall..n best part was when we met a cute~ guy..i bet that guy was obessed n stunned by her beauty..lol..coz she kept smiling at him..lol..sumhow we managed to dumped them a few times to haf sum personal time of our own..its nice to go shopping wit the best girlfren ever u noe.. n i realised my blog is seriously loong..but u juz cant stop once u start..get wat i mean? its hard to make it short..i mean..its a looong day y'know.. anyway..its my blog..so its up to me..=) watched da X-men..again, no comment..i dun wish to offend anybody..fantasy it is.. wat can i say?? mutants rox?..n thats all i can say..ZZzzZ..n i cant wait to reperm my hair again.. i seriously must go 2 da saloon wit my aunt 2mrw..i reli cant stand my hair anymore! i have no idea wat it is..its not straight nor curl anymore..its so WEIRD! anyway..im so glad my aunty will b perming as well..the duo..im still waiting endlessly for him to blog..n hopefully he will post up sum pics for my desires..oh yeah..i had two slices of da scrumptious brownies with ice-cream n chocolate indulgence frm secret recipe..since im not in the mood of havin sumting heavy but fattenin..lol..n now my bro r rewatching da inst again..he memorised the whole thing perfectly! lol..its kinda funny..but im very used too it anyway.. there was this line.."many monks n lil nun.."lol..n so on..n if i wanna tell..i can never finish it..not today at least..we juz couldnt get enough of the movie n im still going gaga over shawn..i noe its kinda stupid..well..oh no..i juz rmb there is only 2 more days to go b4 sm's b'day..n i still havent get her sumting nice..more like completely clueless to get her sumting..she has everything..i mean wat can u expect.. rich n oni child..hehe..juz hope she'll like watever i pick for her..haihz..y cant ppl juz b satisfy wit whatever they haf..wait..im not satisfy..ok..guess its enough for today..im so exhausted n cant wait to get a hot n steamy shower n continue reading the bk i bought..love & peace!!

words to describe my day..tiring,boring,same, n etc.. haihz..i had been having bad feelings evrytime before i attend my tuitions..its like sumting bad its about to happen..n this occur every single time before my tuitions..n that makes me feel like skipping all the tuitions which i cant afford to do..just like today..i had my ballroom n latine dance class..im still not sure whether is this what i want..we'll c n i'll determine it myself after the test..if the result comes out not bad..i might consider continuing coz i reli dun wanna waste everybody's time n money..so 1stly was class as usual..wy n amelia couldnt make it bcoz they r out on holidays..everybody's going on a holiday anyway..later, at night was something like erm..rehearsal? i cant remember what its call..short term memory again..anyway its sumting like practicing to prepare for the upcoming test...ong is driving himself insane by tensing up like anythin else..juz hope he wont tense up n did terribly..lol..n now he is officially my "partner" wonder whether who could b worse..chhehh..its not dat bad afterall la..he can lead..n thats the most essential item in dancing..guys must reli noe how to lead n dance well..n help the partner -gurl out..if the guy sucks..everything will b ruined! how pathetic..anyway..i haf confident in him..i am suppose to b so..wish us luck! reli need 1! i shld call him up an make an "appointment" with him so that we can practice..not aiming for perfection..enough to pass will do..well..this holidays..i guess i'll juz spent my precious time practicing the dance n my piano..what a wonderful holiday..suprisingly..i cant find the holiday mood in me! reallly dunno wats got into me lately..im getting weirder n no sense of direction in everything..SENSES PLS COME BACK! i might "redo" my hair again..lol..=_=" n pamper myself with a nice skirt to go wit the dance..

first of all..i would like to explain myself about the www.youarelame.com website!! its suppose to b a prank..or whatsoever..i dun mean to create those things..ive no time for that..n i repeat..im completely hopeless in all this..so how can i haf da ability to create 1-website..even this blog had brought me so much trouble n till i gotta seek help! n tiff..pls dun misunderstood le..u r kinda harsh..T_T u can just easily get 1 buy typing...www.(type somebody's name-as in anybody).youarelame.com.. as simple as that..so what's the fuss?? anybody can do it..
p/s:i dun mean to offend anyone in any case at all..n if i did..im reli sry..i dun mind to apologise if i have to.. so chill..n compared wit wateve dat fellow did to me..this is nothing! the scars stay..the pain is unforgettable..n da humiliation remains..i hate to say this..but..this is too much! i had enough n all i wish to do is to stay away frm all this-"dangerous zone"! its all over..ill never wanna repeat about this anymore..n im not gonna allow all this to repeat..all i wanna do is to enjoy the remaining of my life..life is short! unwanted ppl is out of my way! nothing will stop me frm having my own sweet time..(i might sound lame n etc but guess what i dun giv a damn!)
again this is not directing to anyone at any sense..

+**say whatever u want..i am still wat i am+**

i am suppose to b sleeping now but i sneaked out..who cares? its not like i've to wake up early in da morn to go to school anyway..yes..im skipping school again..no spirit for school..its a waste of time to celebrate the teacher's day n my least fav.."gotong-royong"-clean up the mess resulted of the canteen day..however,i bought sumthing for my fav teacher dee..i've no idea y sum ppl actually love the school so much..thats something weird that i'll never understand..but i hope to explore and understand..mayb im just too passive n pessimist all the time..that is the prob with me..i juz cant find a way to enjoy life-school life..schooling in m'sia sucks anyway..so boring n sickening..y cant v b a bit la da sporean or how perfect it will be if i was born n study there..they have so much space n freedom..unlike us..always stuck doing sumting completely useless..n all this rules r driving me nuts..y cant v hav remedial classes instead of tuitions..y cant my school haf sumting called the Leo club etc..i have so much to complain but so lil time n space..i dun think ive the strengh to change it anyway..so wats the point! im extremely not satisfy with all tis..im gonna do sumting to make sure i wont feel so unlikely in future..or at least come up with sum ideas to make myself feel good..im mentally n physically disturbed n the weird thing is..i dun even noe y?? sumbody pls gime sum guidance..proper ones..i feel like screaming my head off!! this is so frustrating!@$^!&* n where is my dad?? he is suppose to b home sleeping by now..still out clubbing..(shake head) i wanna do sumting extreme n fun..sumting out of the box..any ideas? looking forward for everybody's feed backs..=)

its been an exhausting day..im afraid that my day on this canteen day is juz ok..nothing spectacular happened-as i expected..at least not like min's..i bet she had a blast with her crew..good thing to haf her n da wild gang with their superb ideas as our classmates..i heard we did pretty well..more like the best!! good job u guys!!we r tremendously proud of u guys!! we earned alot! despite that,the best part for me..ill have to say is when i finished selling the currypuff...100pieces in less that 3 hrs..its a valuable achievement..lol..i noe it might sound kinda lame though..lol..min doing table talk while im selling currypuff..but its still good..its for the class-us! i gotta admit i had fun forcing them u buy the currypuff..lol..but jess shld hav all da credit..well done again!! our class organised "the table talk"-main, currypuff, spaghetthi-extra cheese =).. n another game..came back home dead tired.. took 2hrs of nap..n rushed to tuition..manage to got there on time..but no biggie..sumbody is late again anyway..i hate dat tuition..worst in ma life..anyway..got to talked to koon but just a quick one..poor gal..everybody has their own troublesome prob..cant run away frm it..its juz simply a part of life..! but y????

today was boring..nothing much about school..everybody was busy doing last minute preparations..typical students of m'sia..runs in our blood ..no doubt i had a great time watching n its so funny..seeing them running around blindly..sum busy "pursueing" more like forcing to get ppl to put on orders for their products..one of them-no longer can stand my class..practically **** us all..he said"**** this class"(pss..u noe who u r) tuition at teacher anne's was ok..v had to do sum posing..like a statue..i did weirdly..as usual..n managed to get only an A-..its fine coz many of them got the same grade too..n i was so glad that teacher mentioned about the beneficial n cant-live-without internet..its a necessity in this century?? she said she'll help us to convince our parents..who doesnt agree with us stuck up with this tempting thing here..seriously..i did learn alot frm this..such an eye-opening experience..i'll get my dad to talk to her if i have to.. no problem..b my guest..btw..watched da vinci code in pyramid yesterday..using my aunt's fren's student card..lol..smartie idea frm me aunt..she always has the brightest n most brilliant idea..no comment on da movie..not in a position to comment..after all, its a tough piece that costed millions of dollars..

yesterday was amazing! of course..it was my" aunt"-she is only 6yrs older than me.. 21st b'day!! here..i repeat..read my lips: 21st..which means..she's finally old enough to practically do everything! well..at least she is old enough to get in to a club or pub without having to show any ids ..get married without the need of her parents approving it n so on..she can register right away without any parents approvement, signature o whatsoever..how "cool" is that!! cant deny..my lil aunt is older liao..wait..but..yet..no sign of her knight..i wonder what had gone wrong?? we are worried for her..lol..anywhere she had an awesome n blasting time..it was her most unforgettable 21st b'day ever!! she told me that..im not making it up..she was so touched that i can see tears rolling down frm her cheeks..she was on vacation with her frens-since young to sum island-but erm im not sure which island..n blew her candles in da middle of nite bside da beautiful beach..later, when she was back..had another round of party with another gang of her frens..altogether she had 3 cakes..2 frm secret recipes n 1 more frm berry's..so watelse can u ask for?eat all u want.. not to mention all her presents..i was shocked n was muttering NOT FAIR all the time..seeing all this somehow reminded me of how my frens r..(forgetful-dun bother to wish-not dat i can count on them for anythin) how can she has such a great life that is invisible in my life..mainly bcoz she has a bunch of trustworthy n crazy frens..went in to Uni..n so on..

however..i had a great time too..1stly..my lunch was with da japan..sushis-king..later..at dinner..i was havin a meal with korea..n personally..im happy to do a gd deed..that is advertising for the benefits of others.. n so its highly recommended to everyone to haf a try at the korean restaurant at taipan! opposite McD..(2nd floor) i must admit the mouth-watering food..overwhelmed service..comfortable setting..its priceless-its really worth the price..such an honour to have them as near as Taipan! u must definately neet to give a try or you'll definately regret..lol..m i overdoing it? ok..guess its enough bout the food..n i really cant stand da annoyin DESPERATE jerk who has no self-conscious at all.. its so obvious he's extremely desperate for sum love..juz too bad he aint gonna haf even a tiny bit..n yes im cursing him..all the worst to him..n i dun give a damn! freaky jerk..get a life! -im not tryin to sound cool o wat..(pls dun get me wrong) its just i really cant bare with his "lame" attitude..(hehe..im good at picking sum lines frm my all time fav movie i discovered this yr..) currently feeling so stressed out..watelse-exam results..

mum is seriously getting on my nerves!! i cant believe it!! she lied n guess what! this is not the 1st time!! always never hold on to her promise! wat a role model!! dumped us n went out to dunno where! get ur ass back here! im so pissed!! i waiting endlessly..worst part is im starving..i can hear my stomach roaring! where is everyone!! i still need to grab something for ahmin and yee le..im so gonna bash them up when they return..torture my stomach more la..

i am suppose to be sleeping now..but..cant help it..im just too disobedient..i pity my dad lo..watching tv alone in the middle of nite..hm..mayb i shld accompany him later..after all..im still daddy's gal..=) well..before this..my brother practically attacked me n ended up hurt..fatal ending..the both of us..he got bruises everywhere while i cut my elbow..my mummy was screaming at us like the end of the world.."ok, i got it, u may stop now"-reacted me..oops..n there she goes again..even louder n more powerful..so..me n my bro..mainly im da victim la..juz haf to listen lilke "tom n jerry" in da inst lo..ok..dad's here..he finished he show..meaning..its time for me to get to bed!!..ill just haf to continue with this 2mrw..nitez..ZZZzzz

part2
ill just make it short..so v fought..n my bro was to b said guilty..so he treated me like a princess..of course..i have to make good use of it..anyway..i woke up at 1pm! n had an awful brunch..frankly, i spent my whole sat either sleeping o watchin tv and stay here..kinda wasted..

its been awhile since my last post..ive been longing to blog forever..n now i finally did.. (sigh of relief) im back! feel the energy??..lol..n now may i have the honour.. to declare that the mid-year examination is finally over!! its all over..wait thats not the end..more to come..*(bare in mind)*-the results.. i really hope i could turn back time..that way..i might reduce my mistakes(which is quite a no. of it)so for now..all i can afford to do is to pray hard n wait 4 a miracle to happen..hopefully i wont flunk my science..geo..n etc..well..let's face it..im not reli a happy-go-lucky gal..no luck sia..haihz..this is so sickenin..n very exhausting..feel so tensed..i feel like a failure rite now..i was wanting to blog like anything else..but suddenly im totally moodless n dun feel like doing anything at all..except hiding myself under my loveliest, most soft n comforting blanket ever..hide frm everybody forever..lol..not so terrible la.. sounded as if its the end of my life..i still wanna marry shawn lee le..lol..bleh..neway im so glad he blogged..=) i must admit he is 1 lucky man..no doubt he rocks in his studies-EM1..aiming for the top scores in his O levels..n now.. a promising career n brighter than the shining sun future.. awaits him..! wonder whatelse to ask for?? if only i have sum luck..bleh..crapping again..never in my entire life i can b like him nor marry him..but sumtimes its not bad to fantasize a little..living in the lala-land..ok..there i go again..back to reality..hehe..neway..da bottom line is im havin a bad feeling bout da exam..so stressful..i wanna go jogging later..a gd way to release my pressure n everything else that hurts my mind..im so mentallly disturbed by this freaky exam..gosh..wat had got into me..what is wrong wit me..issh..i wanna( more like desperately) need to talk to koon!! she makes me feel good..lol..my most..best..true..nice..sweet fren.lol..divine koon~lets do sumting fun..after all exam is over!!! ;)

wesak day..a boring and raing day..i shall start mugging again later...mug mug mug mug n more mugging..but lets haf a break n a mug of scrumptious hot chocolate 1st lor..well..today was sick! 1stly..its suppose to be a "holiday" but..my schedule was simply filled with TWO tuitions..wat can b worse..its maths n science!! i love this two subjects..it makes me feel good and energetic~yeah~so y issit worse..?? guess i was influenced by sum ppl again..anyway later..went to temple with jo due to wesak day..im a true buddhist..duh..n thank buddha she was there with me..or else..i shall b bored to death! oh..n mum was pampering me by showering me n da car with her meaningful n priceless nagging again..frm summit to my hse..plus traffic jam..erm..so i guess its about half an hour or so..~sweet~ just the way i like it! "hot n steamy"..

ok..frankly.. today definately wasnt my day..i embarrassed myself!! again.. believe it onot..i feel like crap n wanting to commit suicide n get far way frm everybody forever!! or like wat my mum always say..-let's juz dig a hole n hide ur face in there..ha-ha-ha.. n guess wat..my mummy n da "loveliest" aunt ever was talking about da past again..our past-me n my bros to b exact..u shld take a look at them..how happy n goofy they looked..well..let me give u a short brief of mainly what they were talking..1stly they were saying how beautiful n gorgeous i looked when i was small n young..~wowh~BUT..more to come..nxt they were saying "how come you had changed so much".. added aunt-"two completely different faces".."geez..u reli haf grown up" =S so to make me feel any better..i guess i'll just take it as a compliment..n live with it by comforting myself with phrases like "everybody is beautiful in their own way" or "past is past..?" never noe..lol..

here r sum pics i tot might cheer up the atmosphere around in a bit..~pink~

i guess its time for me to get all mug up..im determine that frm today onwards..my life will be three quater occupied by mugging..mug..mug mug mug..no end..great..after all..i seriously needa b well-prepared 4 da battle of PMR!!-koon is a perfectly gd example..im gonna take her as my role model..my inspiration..lol..im gonna start off for my mid-year exam 1st..n kick off with a perfect end in my PMR results..lol..(talk big) but im serious about mugging everyday..to complete my h/w n do sum serious revisions without any interuption frm anybody..im not gonna allow anybody to disturb my mind..! i've learned how to meditate n master my own mind..nothing can stop me..if im determine!!I AM determine!! no doubt about it!!(i sure hope so) i must stay away frm all this temptations..this thing here..handphone..gossips..
TELEVISIONS!yeap..thats rite..no more entertainment till this battle ends..-im still hoping hard i can resist all this desires..im gonna b like shawn lee-my another role model..study hard like shit(oops.. but its the truth)he is reli good!! therefore, i cant go online everyday..to chat or even blog-im gonna miss this..knowledge is an asset ritez..so i beg to differ..pls get me out of all this crap n my laziness n my draggy attitude..i reli wanna score n this is gonna be a step closer to A PROMISING successful and bright life that i always dream of!! life sure is difficult..

i cant wait to come home and scream out here(da oni place i can think of to haf a gd n contenting scream!!)
AAAARRGGGHHHHHHHHHH
AAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGG
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Hmm..feel MUCH BETTER!!
i hate my class-not my class in school ya(dun misunderstand)..everybody in there is so not nice!
especially O the lame freak is so mean! i was planning to buy him a present actually..but too bad..he spoilt my mood..no present for u..bleh..Xp..i was trying to forget wat mean n bad stuff many of them did to me bfore n forgive them wit all i hav..but they're obnoxious actions juz stop me frm being nice..ive my limitations too ok! anyhow since its one of the item stated in my Life changes mission..i'll try my best to pursue it..its not nice to be not nice..get me? guess im crapping again..oh ya..n thanks to all...who visited my blog..highly appreaciated..im reli looking 4ward to hear frm u guys again..=) aikz..gotta stop now..my bro keeps bugging me for da com! how i wish i haf my own lil com~everybody juz cant stop irritating me..(sighed hard) hmm..one day ill destroy them..LOL

woke up at 11.30 today! was planning to wake up early n help out at the charity sales but couldnt wake up so mum n da rest went without me(they dun even bother) n reached home the minute i got up.. my whole body is seriously aching! seems like my body is responding pretty well due to yesterday-sum pj thingy that made me run 1500 km!! plus situps n pushups!! im never gd at sports when i reached secondary..i used to love running..but not anymore..hardly exercise nowadays..therefore im adding this to my Life Changes mission! no.31-exercise more and stay healthy! =_= im planning to jog every weekend morn..well..will c if it works..but my parents n my aunt haf no confident in me at all! they said it will never happen..not if my name is Chong Chin FOng!! im reli well known as the lazy bum after all.. anyway im determine to convince n prove it to them that there's nothing i cant do! ;) im tough..lol..(im actually very fragile-u can push me n i can straight away fall flat on da face!) any how..i went to subang parade today..its on renovation..finally they realised how lame n lousy the place looked..went to visit dentist n do a lil shopping..n yamcha at secret recipe before going home..cakes..milkshakes..(my fav part-all chocolates) oh yeah..if im not wrong..i met O..but both of us have no intention to say hi nor smile at all..its kinda sad to think about it..i mean at one time v were such gd fren n den..soon..da nxt thing i noe.. v became complete strangers to each other..things r sure to fall apart! haihz...hope it wont b the end of our frenship..i cant eat 4 da nxt 6 hrs..im starving!! stupid braces! reli cant wait to get rid of this hideous thing a.s.a.p!!

da lil apply boy.. recommended me to display sum pics..
here it goes...


variety of choices...


yummy yummy.....


watcha think??


tempting...


irresistable??

p/s:i told ya i love chocolates!!

at first i was dying to edit the profile n then comes the dropdead gorgeous tiffany to save my life!!im so grateful n thankful to noe her-u dunno how much it means to me..(gonna cry soon..t00 touched) tiffany! if u r reading this..unlimited thank you only for you! i really own u 1! let me noe wat shld i do to repay back ur kindness ya..=) n im so sry if i troubled u..juz to let u noe..there's gonna b more to come..b well prepared..im very mah fang 1 lo..lol..i guess one day u must really teach me ya..cant possibly depend on u all da time rite..oh yeah..n thanks to tiffany again! for advertising my blog..although im not quite sure about it.. its kinda weird..neway she's juz too nice..lol..ok.n now that i noe someone is actually reading my blog..i shld start off with a warm welcome.."welcome all, esp to eujin..lol..(he told me he read my blog) im new in this..so if there's any mistake..pls let me noe..n i shall try my very best to improve it..but try not to make fun of me la..(i can b very blur at times) instead feel free to gimme advice n suggestion oh..emmm..my blog can b very crappy n boring..so..hope u'll still support n support tiffany always! =)

i rewatched "i not stupid too" again! i m seriously in love with this show..( im still going gaga over shawn lee!!) no one can haf an excuse to miss it! im saying it because this movie really is very real.it totally reflects the life of children in this society.all stressed up and parents who dont care about them.to put it in another way, it reflects my life too.my life is just like the life of the characters played by joshua and shawn.only differences i see between me and them are that i dont smoke, dont resort to joining gangs, stealing or robbing.and that my mum is always home most of the time-not my dearest dad though..i mean like so what if my parents dont understand or care about me? i wont go do stuff that'll get me in trouble or whatsoever.and seriously, i truly hope they wouldnt be home at all.then, i wouldnt have to see them and i wouldnt have to feel like shit everyday.i've learnt to stand on my own and not care what they want from me or how they treat me.to me whether i have parents like mine and those in the movie or no parents at all, it makes no difference.but anyhow, im really touched by the whole thing.because, FINALLY there's someone out there in the world who understands how we children feel.even though that someone is one who i dont exactly like.haah, the irony of the world.

good grief! i noe there r many gals sfter shawn lee but i din noe they were SO FREAKING MANY of them..reli creeps me off knowing how many gals r after him n actually got a chance to met him accidentally!(i read alot of blogs sayin they met shawn n how cute he looked n all) haihzz..how i wish im a singaporean..that way the chances of me meeting him will definately increase..unlike now..im super sure im not gonna get him la..T_T but still im must admit he is really incredible..he is everywhere!!-blogs n all..n i still cant haf enough of him! ok..enough about him for today..its time to fly back to reality! been busy..i cant blieve i can pay fully attntion when teacher is teaching-maths..miracle! well this is a gd start 4 my life changes plan..but not all r working out as i wished to..do i look like a simple n normal looking gal that seems easy to bullies?? well..! get the hell off !-i wish to say to HER..n fuck u! what so nice about making stupid rumours n fooling around-splashing water everywhere TO ME!how dare u?! can u imagine when u r peeing n sum nutcase silly gal splashed water frm outside to u! like..ermm..rain? so annoyed! not funny! no wonder mh hates her! n im so not suprised if all the guys in this universe r running far away frm dis slutty bitch! all the worst to her..i cant want for her to move out of this school!! SHE'S SO UNWANTED-gone for gd! n so is my lil nerdy-n-sickenin-looked brother! i can tell he really doesnt wanna live anymore! try messing with me again n i can assure u ur life will b ruined! no one messes wit me!-(unfortunately,everyone loves to) things arent working out lately..esp among humans..seems like i cant really socialise anymore! really dunno wats got into me! i somehow prefer to stay alone rather then join da gang of ppl n hav a gd laugh! im weird..i really m! i dun even noe wat was i thinking..i guess ill juz wait for things to work out by itself.. hopefully some "weird" things will pop up n brighten up my day..(cute guys.?) im currently tryin to improve myself in many ways..(regarding my Life Changes thingy..) right now..my theory for life is gonna b---->> life is so hectic n boring!(agree?) i still cant n dunno how to edit the profile..so sickening! im hunting for sum professional help..anyone?? mind to give a hand? desperately need that!

notice any different..? yes..i do..(syok sendiri-to myself) im really wondering if anyone actually read my blogs right now..ill b thrown with juz 1 reader..loyal reader who reads my blogs..that's all i asked for..nothing more..only one will do..i dun wanna b unappreaciated..get me? anyway..there happened to be a few changes occured lately..(bsides this brand new skin) i realised that im no longer me! i mean da old me..obviously im happier-i guess..more cheerful looking too..well..thats my opinion la..im determine to make some big changes in my life..-life changes..which i'll proceed in no time! in order to achieve my no.1 goal in life-get a life! im gonna make myself clear about all that soon..ok..cut that out..i talked to koon today..on da phone..she's so sweet as always..im so glad n grateful she comes to me every now and then n shares all her problems and happiness too with me..i must say..its such an honour-divine koon..n im so glad she's the place i can afford to go for a complain too...she gives the best advices..i love her! my true n best fren..lol..hmm..im still on about shawn..keep thinking about him like forever..i guess ill just let the time determine all..im exhausted! no sign of him 2 b heard at all..he aint updating his blog still! i noe..its his tough time-exams...but its been weeks..poor us! oh yeah..my funny lil bro..he's insane..juz like today..when i was eating sum mouth-watering pineapples n he said.."r u tryin 2 drop ur foetus?"-i not stupid too..lol..i can only say.."i not stupid rocks to the max!"

have been wondering whether have anyone actually read my blog?? im really curious..since i didnt expose nor advertise my blog to anybody anywhere-secret..i feel its kinda embarrassing letting sum1 u noe n always meet up with reading ur blog-feelings n all..its so WEIRD! i cant afford to let that happen..im gonna b myself-the real me..all this while..in reality..i've been hiding alot n im so tired of it! im not gonna write something that is not myself to hide things out just like what many ppl r currently doing..after all, what is a blog for??!-express ur self n share wit sum1-obviously sum readers i have no clue..(perhaps,shawn lee) im dreaming again! lol.. bout him..as usual been thinking about him day n night-nonstop..he is not blogging!! =( feel so frustrated-waiting n big disappointment! everyday i on9 aso 4 da shake of him..wondering if he had blogged..haihz..the only way to describe my condition for now will b..sadness in my eyes n pain in my broken heart..that is how im feeling now.. plus, mum nagging about everything, everytime..cant take it no more..im seriously sick of my mum n her big fat mouth! she is so unrasional..wondered what so divine about her..! she is such a pain in da ass..her frustrating n annoying attitude made me hate her even more!! uncilivilised mum!! n everybody is abandoning me! including my loveliest aunt who i love most..i guess i cant blame her..she deserves to have a wonderful life-unlike mine..everybody is just simply selfish..sad case...