yesterday was open day..flash back* so we-me,mum,bro n couz went around 11 sumting which was kinda late bcoz everybody was like so semangat to go so early and i dun get y.. anyway..my loveliest form teacher ever, pn.evelyn says im a gd girl..=) n that i can study..=) so mum moved along with it quite well..at least its not too bad..than later came my bro's turn..he's the opposite of me..lol.so..as expected, his teacher was complaining like shit.. lol..but he really deserves it la..mum was so pissed.. but she oni took like 5 mins to meet both of our form teachers and went back since she's running out of time again..got to work..

im starting to enjoy school again..? at least more than usual..this week had been spectacular and superb week! and to this i must thank all my wonderful and wild classmates..they make the class so alive that i became alive too.. make sense? lol .. i love em..and min remains as the best mate to gossip..lol..

today was seriously exhausted..i can barely feel my heart pounding anymore..its like im too tired till im dehydrated and eventually lack of everything n feel nothing..like a dead fish? the pj and cooking had dragged me into this..pain is gd..? but no doubt i had fun n feel so joyful.. im enjoyin it while i can..there i go again..tryin to be optimistic..lol..

so my group did the sardine roll..which in my opinion..erm..i'll just rate it a B! im not sure whether issit nice bcoz i din rellly have a chance to taste it! my very own food! that i had put in so much effort and time and sacrifice my energy and everything else..right frm the beginning where i did the dol..till the end..i feel so bad unable to bring even a tiny piece to let me mum haf a taste.. T_T i rmb i baked alot.. 3-4 trays full but sumhow its all gone in less than 5 mins! SMK USJ 12 students(particular directing it to my beloved classmates) r that starving like they havent been eating anything for the past few days.. u shld see they r all-excited n hungry looking face..so scary..!! lol.. anyway..im proud of myself..not only becoz of the cooking but sumting much meaingful and i feel like a better person..=) we learn as we grow each day rite..

the came maths tuition on such day..bad timing..anyway..had fun talking with lucas n zhongxian..more like gossipping and lots of giggling going on..they r nice to talk actually..n all bcoz of that stupid and lame chris..1 word to describe about him...UNGENTLEMEN! -the place we're sittin is hot actually..(no fan!) wanna fight with us wor..**** the hell of him la! luckily i had a great time chatting or else..he's so gonna get it frm jo n myself! we had a great laugh when we were talking about the movie..my all-time fav.. inst!!..the dialogues..words like"kanasai" lol..its irresistable and we simply laughed the hell out of it..well..just living in our own world at the corner..and lovin it..

later got sci to go..boring it is..haihz..might blog again if im havin the mood..=) u noe..this kinda thing..mood determines all..

today was fun..at least gd enough to be categorised under an ideal day! i had fun actually..last two periods were wasted having lots of fun..=) but not until were this mr.apple and jving came guiding me?..guarding me it was.. pushing me to finish the not-so-interesting bk, "the outsiders" the only thing that amazed me is that this bk is written by a girl when she was 16? well..find that amazing n almost impossible..?

and teacher anne actually made her write a journal-sumting like what im doing right now about the book..according her, we shld voice our opinion wor..so we did..got scolded..not really scolding its just some guidance frm her about the task..a real tough task which im totally clueless in the beginning but thanks to apple i got an idea of it ..n its getting better..i promised! it will be! i having confident..if anybody can do it..so can i?! n yes im stepping ahead to try and be an optimistic instead of a pessimist! im tired of ppl calling me that..and throwing questions like "why r u always moody?" or why r u such pessimist?" n so on..bla bla bla..but i cant deny i can b really blur at times n looked depressed? i dunno..thats what i usually get la.. just wanna remind.."dun judge a book by its cover" ok? i might looked pissed or upset but mayb i dun mean it..im expressionless..cant blame me for that bcoz i was born in such way..

back to my day in school..so me and minhui was laughing and giggling through the whole conversation esp when we came to cc-chiichang..our topico f the day..its so hilarious..i practically burst into tears actually..min is the best gurl to talk to !! so wild n hialrious.. just the way i love it..hehe..hugs n kisses* without her the class n my day in scholl will definately b bORING! N DULL...n i'll go all depressed again..lol..thanks gurl..(attn:minhui) =)

congratulations t0 the explorer-wy, keong n 1 more guy..(sry..i dunno his name) im so glad u guys beat the delphis flat..LOL.. great job ppl!! well done..n keep it up..=) n all the best in all the upcoming matches..

thats all for now..tilll then.. c ya.. n tomorrow is the open day!! =/

today was fun..at least gd enough to be categorised under an ideal day! i had fun actually..last two periods were wasted having lots of fun..=) but not until were this mr.apple and jving came guiding me?..guarding me it was.. pushing me to finish the not-so-interesting bk, "the outsiders" the only thing that amazed me is that this bk is written by a girl when she was 16? well..find that amazing n almost impossible..?

and teacher anne actually made her write a journal-sumting like what im doing right now about the book..according her, we shld voice our opinion wor..so we did..got scolded..not really scolding its just some guidance frm her about the task..a real tough task which im totally clueless in the beginning but thanks to apple i got an idea of it ..n its getting better..i promised! it will be! i having confident..if anybody can do it..so can i?! n yes im stepping ahead to try and be an optimistic instead of a pessimist! im tired of ppl calling me that..and throwing questions like "why r u always moody?" or why r u such pessimist?" n so on..bla bla bla..but i cant deny i can b really blur at times n looked depressed? i dunno..thats what i usually get la.. just wanna remind.."dun judge a book by its cover" ok? i might looked pissed or upset but mayb i dun mean it..im expressionless..cant blame me for that bcoz i was born in such way..

back to my day in school..so me and minhui was laughing and giggling through the whole conversation esp when we came to cc-chiichang..our topic for the day..its so hilarious..i practically burst into tears actually..min is the best gurl to talk to !! so wild n hialrious.. just the way i love it..hehe..hugs n kisses* without her the class..my day in scholl will definately b bORING! N DULL...n i'll go all depressed again..lol..thanks gurl..(attn:minhui) =)

congratulations t0 the explorer-wy, keong n 1 more guy..(sry..i dunno his name) im so glad u guys beat the delphis flat..LOL.. great job ppl!! well done..n keep it up..=) n all the ebst in all the upcoming matches..

thats all for now..tilll then.. c ya.. n tomorrow is open day!! =/

i feel happier today compared to yesterday...but still as sleepy as usual..dozed off easily in class esp with the teacher talking in front of me..i am cansider daring esp with the open day just around the corner.. fine..i'll try my best to perform and behave well..i havent mention anything about it to my parents..call me coward bcoz i really dunno how to tell them my filthy results.i did terribly and i've no idea how to face them! T_T they expected me to do pretty well..and i hate to disappoint them..but i just did..im full of regrettions and depression right now!

arrgh..never wanna think about that anymore after this bcoz it makes me feel lousy and go all miserable and stressful..i feel so fall out! and with the the another boy sittin in front of me its not easy to deal with this..things got worst..he was teasing-insulting me lilke shit! i noe he's way better than me but he dun haf to made me feel any worse ok! sum ppl..

i hate admit this..but i want browser to beat delphi so badly!! although they defeated us in the 1st round..delphi is way out of my all this! =)

and i think im in love! lol..again..

seems like a long time since i last posted.i felt uneasy about it..damn..is this what we called a habit?i hope its not bcoz i cant adopt a life like this..struggling to go on9 n blog every single day..but its quite alrightIF i have an apple laptop waiting for me in my room everyday..that will be perfectly pleasant! anyhow..my weekend is always packed but can be very boring and exhausting which is not a life i wanna adopt! i prefer to go on my slow and peaceful pace while enjoyin myself without the feeling of rush! i didnt make it for the dance dinner yestersay.kinda regretted bcoz i m still clueless about my dance result..im so freaky nervous! ong n amelia got the highest in our batch n managed to get a trophy each..their marks r 98.8% over 100% which is like ulala.. meanwhile, ong n ai tert got 97.7%..lol..not bad!! like REALLY NOT BAD! i bet im the lowest among them! no doubt!

i heard they were having so much fun.and according to amelia wy looked hot! well..im..speechless..? while ong was a bit shy?@! i was like r u kidding me! ong? shy? lol..insane n unpredictable it was! oh n b4 that..we had our dance class n we were taught sum basic samba steps..since we're now officially living on earth..having the world cup going on..so its the football fever and so we're learning samba where its originated frm brazil and the song rawks the hell off..really having the mood..but as always..i cant really get it at the very beginning! all i noe its that the song sounds great..lol...n i saw the skinny gurl dancing - jo titled her as the "samba queen".. her dancing was amazing..hardly believe it..she is real gd! my new-found idol..lol..the dance-samba seems weird but jo said we'll get used to it and eventually love it..apparently its one of the hardest so far..

and aunt was freaking me out by telling me all the ghost stories and haunted areas this few days.. that women ah..she lightens up my day and brings rainbow colours to my life..im so glad to have such a cool aunt like her! love her so much! she's more like my sister or my best friend after all she is only 6yrs older..! we were planning for our future.had so much fun planning and gossiping with her..we talked abouteverything..i mean everything! including not so appropriate ones like..virginity..? lol..yup..thats us..we can go all wild n superb nuts..but we enjoyed every single of it like nobody's business..bleh..im gonna miss her so much!! hugs n kisses to her!

not to mention there r sum hidden bitch in my class with innocent stares with completely harmless-looking look!! i just noticed it lately and u noe what! fuck her! so much for a selfish bitch! i hate my class! mayb i shld consider min's advice on committing a crime n get out of the fucking class! lol..like most of the student with awful discpline records and hideous attitutes.. yeah!

all this stuff that had been happening in my life is really inspiring! i wanna achive my goal! i wanna shine! i want success! i want a life!

i hate S.A.M!! she is the main reason y i feel so awful and miserable in my life! she is the biggest bitch so far! i hate her frm the very bottom of my heart!( i think i mentioned about her in my blog b4!) anyway..bottom line is she sucks and she is the worst humen on earth!! no.universe!! anti S.A.M!! screw her! pathetic slut! thanks for ruining my life..so i guess its time for an extreme pay back?? take care! ;P

plotting for a revenge!
am i being a pessimist?
or its just like that?

my day was undescrible..so much had happened n i feel dizzy for some reasons..which im not in a mood to elaborate so just cut that out..i've been spending my time -this fri mastering the art of doing nothing beneficial or proper..but its too late to regret so i guess i'll just have to live with it and accept the fact and my fate?! naturally feeling dull as usual when things turned ugly and i feel miserable like any other day..

the inter-class thingy (netball) we didnt performed at our best! but we shld not be putting fault on each other either or whatsoever instead we shld praise n support each other to show the spirit!..i find it very frustrating when certain mates start screaming all over the place n throwing blames and pointing fingers on each and everyone..i dun think its the right thing to do and its so uncivilised.. our opponents r way stronger and tougher than us! they r true ahletes and school's representives in varies sport! they've got the skill and experience.. so u do the thinking logically and common sense.. we shld noe and understand that frm the very begining and just gotta except the fact and this fate! too much hopes and desires can kill..

so no party..no pizza and a depressed captain that expected too much and want it so badly tilll she's like out of control in the end..? but i feel that our class's football team deserves to win..they r real gd..they lost by a penalty which is like-sucks and wtf! admires kenny alot..i heard he was actually sick and in a bad shape but he still shines on..! thats what i call the real thing? bleh. sry..im crappin again..but the spirit and the love of football in him reveals all..he is gd!

and im proud to say i poured about 100ml of R.O water on the BOY siittin in front of me right on top of his head! he deserves it..LOL..yes im evil and so never mess with me! get that ppl! i wont be comin on9 2mrw due to sum lame reasons..therefore,im gonna miss my blog-here and my fav blogs too..btw try out the latest "windows live messenger"..i just dld and its quite ok..still tryin to figure out all the functions and stuff..anybody mind to teach? u noe..im like completely hopeless and useless when it comes to all this-computering and discovering some new stuff..

and i apologise for the mispress of a button, minhui im so sry..i noe it means alot to u and i feel really bad about it..y cant u haf a sony ericson which im used to and so i wont made that silly mistake! sry..shldn't put the blame on u la..its not ur fault..its all mine..my stupidity and blurness is way out of control and drive everybody wild and mad..im extremely sry minhui..let me noe if there' s anything i could possibly make up to u.. im happy to help out-feel free to accept my offer..=)

off to bed..zzZZZzz..
suffering frm this and that
pain is gd..?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile
Extroversion:You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."Conscientiousness:You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.Agreeableness:You have low agreeableness.Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all.In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted.And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently.Neuroticism:You have high neuroticism.It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.Openness to experience:Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

Your Blogging Type is Kind and Harmonious
You're an approachable blogger who tends to have many online friends.People new to your blogging circle know they can count on you for support.You tend to mediate fighting and drama. You set a cooperative tone.You have a great eye for design - and your blog tends to be the best looking on the block!

what sort of artist shld you be?
You Should Be a Dancer
You have a unique combination of grace and athleticism..Whether you become a salsa dancer or a ballerina, you need to get dancing!

Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others
You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.You should major in:CounselingEnvironmental studiesLawSocial workPolitical scienceNursing

Kelly Clarkson shares my taste in music!

You Are a Normal Girl
You are 60% Good and 40% BadSure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond!
You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring.A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition.Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you.And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...!

You Attract A Good Amount of Guys
While you may not get the most offers in the room,You've got a good thing going - dating wiseYou could flirt more and dress up a bit to attract more guysBut in general, you are doing just fine!

You are a Romantic Realist
Okay, so you fall in the middle.You know that love isn't like a greeting card...Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings.You are the best of both worldsGirly yet independent, dreamy yet serious.Almost any guy can find balance with you.

Your Style is Classy
You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfitYou're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebeFor you style is looking like a million bucks...And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

You Are a Boston Creme Donut
You have a tough exterior. No one wants to mess with you.But on the inside, you're a total pushover and completely soft.You're a traditionalist, and you don't change easily.You're likely to eat the same doughnut every morning, and pout if it's sold out.


You Belong in Amsterdam
A little old fashioned, a little modern - you're the best of both worlds. And so is Amsterdam.Whether you want to be a squatter graffiti artist or a great novelist, Amsterdam has all that you want in Europe (in one small city).


You Were a Deer (in past live)
Graceful and gentle, you appreciate beauty and balance.A giving soul, you are able to sacrifice for the greater good.

Slow and Steady
Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against


You Are Cherry Kiss Lip Gloss
You're a total girly girl who's every guy is sweet on.You take pleasure in the simple things in life, from cute t-shirts to stuffed animals.Any guy needs to match your romantic idealism to win your heart, which is why few have.No wonder Cherry your signature flavor. It's delicious, sugary, and fun - like you!

You Are Artemis!
Brave, and a natural born leader.You're willing to fight for what you believe in...And willing to make tough decisions.Don't forget - the people around you have ideas too!


You Attract A Good Amount of Guys
While you may not get the most offers in the room,You've got a good thing going - dating wiseYou could flirt more and dress up a bit to attract more guysBut in general, you are doing just fine!

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream
Sweet. Romanic. Genuine.

You are Milk Chocolate
A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds.You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life.Also nostelgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

here r sum off my survey's results..cant get enough of it! its really interesting!! and sumhow i found it real!! way real than i expected!lastly.. i getta find more about myself! nice to noe myself!

lol..i just did sum surveys and according to it purple is the colour for my blog's layout! and not forgetting to say im a romantic kisser..woot..lol..there are more actually and its really fun and enjoyable..i'll post about it later since im running out of time again..my bro needa use the com for sum civic project which im feeling lucky of bcoz my badge has no civic this sort of thing..and i just did another survey a min ago and it says that my true love is a pisces! omg..i had a crush on a pisces y'know..so who noes..lol.. and i found my name in japanese,mexican,france and etc..

and tomorrow is the match!! im feeling a lil nervous and i cant deny i wanna beat them flat! im gonna have to go against my besties-2 of em' class.. but its just a match..friends forever! im gonna throw a big party if i win this!! so wish me luck!

and i love my grandma's cook..its reli delicious and satisfying!! yum yum yum.. but..im sure to grow- fatter every single time she is here.. just had a great dinner.. ive to reserve my energy for tomorrow morn..n shine! lol..yeah rite..

so guess thats all for today n THE-BOY-SITTIN-IN-FRONT-OF-Me!! HEHE..i feel good! XP..n todays justin's b'day? lol..and S.A.M pisses me off! again! screw her! =) adios..

i think i love u~

i feel so motivated and glad that i attended such great tuition..yes it is the ace ed-venture, the most inspiring and best tuition centre ever with its own unique way and style.. i admires teacher anne alot.. she is a really capable and knowlegable woman with her own wise perspectives and incredible skills.. i obtained alot frm her.. boy.. she is one of the most talented n wise human ive ever came across..and gosh she tenses me up with a high expectations..

i totally agree with her about the exam system in m'sia..they sucks..esp the 1 with 1,2,3 and 4 thingy.. its a test..u r suppose to be testing whether how much do u understand n not on what u dont! lets say u almost got correct for that particular question but bcoz of a stupid sentence that u dun understand u'll be penalised while u got correct for the rest..in the end its still a big 0! this is unfair! its ridiculous if u sit back n think about it..well..i am not sure how to express it out..sry i shld put teacher here and speak..the bottom line is m'sia..(shake head)

school was boring as usual..lol..that freak sitting in front of me messed with me-wrong person to messed with and so..he deserves what im about to do..more to come.. im hating u bcoz of u! so live with it..n this is a reminder to all not to mess wit me..lol.. i want U to feel miserable n depress with me..i'll drag u into it without a doubt!i hate to be lonely.. =)

overall i hate certain ppl's perfomance in my school today...so fake n lame! and today was the 1st time i actually stayed back in school..pretty lame huh.. but i had tremendous fun!! hanging out with yenwen,jess,yihui n etc.. gossipping and practicing netball of coz..=) great day..n b4 that had lunch with koon n all at fatty ho-the nearest kopitiam available..the food is not so clean according to my resources..so i shared a bowl of noodles with yenwen..since she's full and im penniless..? yeah..4got to ask me mum 4 sum $$ but luckly jbee is willing to spare some..RM5! better return to a.s.a.p b4 she start bugging and telling ever1 that im having a debt and all sorts..

exhausting day it was..stayed back n practice then later had to rushed home n take a quick shower before going tuition..its not polite to go there all soaked..sweaty n smelly..lol..im gonna start mugging later and complete all the damn h/w! having mild flu right now.hope its alright..i cant afford to fall sick right now! i've things to do and conmplete..ive straight As to accomplished and competitions to win! better take sum honey n lemon..n ressstSS!! im seriously lack of rest-sleep.. vitamin c pls..

well..i totally blown off my mid yearz..i feel like crap and a big failure now so sumbody pls do me a favour and shoot me! wait..nvm its ok coz the results itself had ruined me quite enough-not entirely! anyway.. life goes on.. still..its a disaster! a nightmare! so i guessed the reward for this its gonna be lots of study and a huge cut down on the computer! i seriously gotta study like a nerd! im choiceless..

i just got back frm school due to some dedicated training as the preparations for the upcomin inter-class match which will be happening..soon..nxt week..? i dunno..anyway.. guess what?! im just told that i'll be representing my class for the basketball as well..great..netball and later comes the basketball.. and im totally off and skillless but the only advantage i found in myself is gonna be my height..lol.. the only advantage! the rest r junks and craps..lol..

so the practice went ok..we had fun and our dedicated and tough captain just announced that if we won the netball she's gonna treat us pizza to act as a motivation to us..lol.. she is really putting her heart and soul in this.. so i hope we wont disappoint her and ourselves of course but our opponents r all "wakil sekolah".. so we can hardly promise anything.. its gonna be a tough game so wish us the best of luck.. obviously need that! cheers*

my day in school was not too long and not too short? lol.. i've no idea..and minhui was bz looking around and spying at every corner for her unknown and in my opinion-non existence bf entirely?..lol..sry..i've gotta say that coz im completely blur about her ???? bf..???? lots of question marks going on there.. she kept it tight like the belt around "sumbody" waist..(shake head) so tight for what..we wont bite ok!

also, gd news for kooon..the freak is finally getting his hands off her..a huge relief for her.."she said he freaks her out" lol..btw my class is competing against the browser-koon,jbee, amelia.. and so "a BIG OMG!" for that one! i've been sneezing alot today..bet sum1 is gossipping and criticising bout me me me me! after all, i major in antisocial..lol..

k..gtg..got sum serious work to be polished up..=)

i'll just make this short since time is running out..my weekend had been both busy and hectic..my day was packed with lots of stuff going on.. i had my dance exam yesterday..n im just glad that its over..i really hope i can make it through..bsides that, my partner had been a pain in the eye! if i failed my exam the blame will straight away direct to him..! he is such an asshole..i dun care and im gonna spill everything out here..first of all, he was just too busy flirting with those pretty ones n left me rejected as usual and didnt wanna practice with me! till wy had to practically direct or more like order him to practise with me!! what could be worst! he is such a pathetic loser and failure..however there's no doubt that he is a gd dancer and its possible that he will passed with great marks too and all but in my heart and soul..he will always b the pathetic fucking jerk and worst freak ive ever met! i dun care if he's reading this i couldnt care less..he sucks! i dun give a single damn! hell. he makes me lose my appetite! so i guess its enough about him..

on the brighter note..i had so much fun shopping with my mum and aunt..managed to get sum really satisfying tops.. mum said she's gonna buy me a bag..hehe.a nice bag..ive no idea where to choose..roxy? mcky? well..any suggestions or recommendations do feel free to contact me..lol..i really need a proper bag..

of course not forgetting..today is father's day! so a "Happy father's day!!" to all the great father out there.. and i love you daddy!! you are the best!! with lots of love i managed to made a handmade card by me..specially and only for him..he is the best man ever! it took me 3 hrs tho..lol.. and i had a great dinner!! yumyum..met clement there and its weird..lol..then later pass by yong tau foo caught a glimpse of wooi keong..lol.. had dinner at the korean bbq restaurant in taipan again.. the feast costed RM200 sumting but i guess its worth it.. the place inspired us to renovate our new hse.. and best part of all.. we had fun!

lastly..treasure ur parents as much as they treasured u!!! =)

school was boring but fun..lol..i've no idea what does that mean.. anyway fri is the best! shorter hour of school and also my nice lil satisfying timetable..but take note: only fri..the rest of the weeek are just a bunch of shitzz..firstly, 2 periods of PE!! we do practically nothing..just listen to teacher about the inter-class competition that wil b going on soon..later, nilam..no idea where is the teacher.. so we just enjoy while we can and then comes the recess!! ate tomyam and it sucked! never gonna buy that again..after that, apparently i've 3 periods of kh-living skills..but 2 periods of it were more like relief..so free got nothing to do so i wanted to put my mind back to my reading..but there were these two bloody annoying assholes that simply cant stop irritating me by kicking my legs and feet and dirty my white shoes! i reminded them a couple of times not to mess with me but they juz wont listen so i have no choice but to use MY WAY! i was so pissed that ive no idea how i did it but i twisted their foot and the nxt thing i noe they were screaming pain..LOL..i had warned them frm the very beginning but humans-guys just dun listen so i have no guilty or anything to feel but great..and they were told by me personally that.."i repeat; dun ever mess with me again! or you'll definately b sorry" and "rememmber the name: chong chin fong"! lol.. n yeap..i can b..heartless..? lol.. ok..better prepare for the last practice..feel the heart beat? its beating 100X faster!! hope im not gonna pass out..arrgh..feel like bashing up sum butts!

ok..so i just got back frm my english tuition and managed to write this before i continue doing what i am supposed to do-not to mention piles of h/w waiting on the line..i do enjoy teacher anne's class..especially when she is doing some serious talking about some really interesting topics and issues..im not been sarcastic ya..in case anybody got the wrong msg..i am saying bcoz..she is real good! in fact no matter what it is..she can just pulls it off by sounding perfectly interesting and entertaining like always..well..thats wat i called a teacher..she totally gained my respect and salution..i feel real comfortable in this particular class like no other tuition..but it can b pretty demanding due to the high expectations and requirements and makes me go all depressed again..unfortunately..but i still like it very much..i wanna achieve all the skills she offers..i bet i wont have a tough time in australia..lol..(in future, if possible, further my studies there) if i complete this perfect program..it'll all just b a bar of chocolate..=)

she was talking about human rights..women's right to b exact..lol..guys shld reli show some respect to the ladies man! and also about rape..?lol..i noe..sound weird rite..firstly..she got so emo when the publicity n almost everyone else thinks that is our-girl's fault and she went like "hello" ?? we?? typical humans.. everything she said is just so real n true! based on some research and observations too..such a wise lady..lol..thumbs up!

in the meantime, i really hope nothing turns ugly at this particular moment..with my dance exam coming around the corner!! n its confirmed that its this sat!! omg..i cant feel myself breathing..did i just passed out??? aikz..i can feel my heart beating real fast tho.. i really hope to pull it off..i mean..i really havent been pulling anything off all year long..its time to shine! or at least make it through..

o/20-blame u noe who!

ok..so yesterday was the "1st" day of school..guess what's the first thing that came out frm my mouth when i reached there at the usual spot..** "i hate school!"** and ditched my bag at the side feeling down down down..i just hate it when it comes to the doing work part where there r all the scary n pushy teachers' faces around period by period.. n also a mind full of work to do!! as in homework!! i dun mind to do all the work in school with teacher around giving us some spare time-sitting on the desk but i seriously hate it when i've gotta bring it home to do it..so frustrating.. anyway..i dun not feel anything..at least not like what i though it would..its just two weeks of hols..so what can i feel..nothing..no sense of missing school or anything else..seems like just yesterday..just a blink of eye and here i am..back to the boring old sickenin school..

conclusion-->2 weeks is fast! just a blink..

better complete my h/w..i dun wanna b screwed.. homework sucks!!
need to do some clever research about environment and wildlife..(sighed)

tomorrow is school!! so its back to the boring and hectic school life again..also..end of the semester and i now declare the war of PMR is eventually starting in no time! so grab ur gadgets and whatever needed and b well- prepared for the battle!

and i just realised how near my dance test is! next week! n im still clueless about the date!blurrrrr me! i really hope i can pull this off!! i havent been pulling anything off recently and i feel like a huge failure.. so hope this will work out..IT BETTER BE!! cost me quite alot just to take this latine american test all though i noe frm the very beginning that im not a very gd dancer..in fact im the worst in the class-i mean all the girls r highly experienced,they learn ballet and stuff..i mean they got the base! so..that explains y..

im gonna practice later again..n im gonna wear the outfit i bought specially for this event..really hope it pays off..with all the perseverance and practices i attented! and lots of sour faces i got! im such an anti-social when im in my dance class..lol.. i've no idea why and where did it went wrong..but i bet they think im lame and such an anti social which i dun really care..as long as ppl who noe me and as well as myself noe the real me! which is of course love makin new frens like everybody else..and have a good laugh together..

back to the dance..its latino~.. so we'll try and look as latine as possible..by wearing short skirt..(latine=sexy) and etc..lol..
unfortunately im just not the sexy one..therefore..i'll just close my eyes and hope it wont look funny or anything like that when its on me! not talking about stunning and outreageous here..

really need some luck! i havent got any lately..so can u spare me some for this time pls?

feeling so depressed right now due to the breakouts im currently facing.. i hate to admit and say this.but im one the unfortunate teenager that is suffering from all this miserable problems..but why me?? sickening shit! i once heard "they" said that once u r in bad luck condition..everything will eventually turn worse and worse and nothing goes right! well..this is what is applying to me right now! bad things r falling right on my face! so i guess this philosophy can b real and true enough for the helpless me to believe!

ok..here comes the most embarassed and worst day of my year! i hope it is actually so that i wont have to face anymore embarrassment in this year bcoz i really had enough! well..about the embarrassing moment of my life..its extremely embarrassed that it had come to a point where i have no courage to tell it in my very own blog itself! so i just hope anybody who is reading this can imagine how bad it was.. i'll help u out by giving u a clue..just imagine sumting truly embarrassing..and u feel like screaming ur head off..so u do the imagination!

therefore, this makes my mind wonders whether if this ever occurred to anyone before?? if yes, i'll be definately feel way better ..i mean having some one to accompany and share the same the same kind of moment is a valuable gift! it proves that u r not the only retarded 1!-well that makes me feel a whole lot better! but i bet nobody would wanna experience such thing not if like is concerned..terrible and awful it was! you feel lilke hiding frm everyone else or better just wear a mask for the rest of ur life..and why is it me again?? why picked me?-this is a question i've been asking since forever when sumting turns ugly..all this is reli putting me on the edge! im miserable enough so no worries!

all i am asking for its a good life and im not talking about perfect here..just enough for me to feel glad n grateful will do..why cant things just turn out the ideal way or at least nothing awful or pain! seems like nothing in my life pulled off! im totally in a horrible, feel like crap and sickenin situation where i dun find life interesting and where is the hapinness??

the only solution to make me feel any better is to take it not seriously? but..its about me here!! so how on earth can i take it easily! i just hope it wont spread out! thats all im asking for now! and please dun ask me wat it was bcoz im falling apart badly enough! advises and words of wisedom of course will be likely! im in a need of an iPod!! music do keeps me alive!! and dad practically promised me to get me one and i sure hope he holds on to it! "looking at the pitiful and helpless child!"-directing to myself..

I'm tryin n writing this using my fone.. I discovered how to use the internet on my fone after so long.. Will continue later.. The nxt post will b about the true bad n most embarrassing day ever..

this is interesting..

The rules:
1. The tagged victim have to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time.There is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING

gender wanted: a male pls

1.) physical look-doesnt have to b extremely gd looking like leehom or edison..not too bad,ok ok..gives me appetite
2.) physical body-gd built up body..muscular but not over-muscular(look gross) must have a nice chest for me to lean..
3.) ONLY loves me more than anything else in this universe-more than himself(willing to die for me)
4.) accept my everything-my weakness n so on
5.) rich..?.. will b perfect but average will do..(as long as he can afford a condo at least, car,nice diamong ring etc.) in another word..as long as he doesnt faces financial prob..bcoz ill ended up as the victim eventually..well this is reality ok..
6.) easy to communicate with
7.) must have at least a talent to amaze me-piano,drum,guitar, art anything will do..
8.) must be awesomely romantic and sweet

can i write more points?? lol..yes..i m pretty greedy..ok..nvm..fair enough..

ok..ill tag everybody in my list plus one more person.. perhaps..yumi-chan ? since my list has 7 persons only..ok..that makes it 8 den.. cheers*


***mission accomplished**

ok..so back to the bbq..it was fine..ok..maybe more than fine..it was actually fun! yeah..i had a great meal..and sum games..its not as bad as i expected..honestly..hope they'll organise more of this then..im looking forward for it..lol..it'll definately b better if.........anyway..still good..

im craving for sum soft drinks rite now..lol..mayb bcoz the thirst after having sum teebits-not sure how to spell tho..chips la..makes me feel dry..while watching the world cup..germany vs costa rica it was..its 4 yrs once..so cant afford to miss it..i cant wait for the finale all though this is just the beginning..1st match..n im already talking about the final..lol..im fast and impatient..

and i bet tomorrow its just another one of those boring day..i'm promising myself to complete all my h/w and juz remind there is the dance rehearsal at night..better not forget about it like last week..i've enough prob with him..dun wanna create more hate between us..n i juz realised how gd sum ppl can b..seriously esp the sporeans..they r extraordinary gd..here i go again getting all excited over singaporeans??lol..i juz cant help but to admire and salute them..! they r just so divine and no doubt they all have great minds-perfect educations..

i wish to study there b4 i further my studies anywhere else..australia is my main pick for the future! speaking about future im completely clueless over it..i have no idea what i want..again, i just hope sum1 can come up to me n guide me properly in the best way possible so that i wont make the slightest mistake in my future, my life. i want things to work out! i hate to admit this, but things do not seems to worked out the way i wanted it! its almost like nothing worked out in my life..sad case..

well..i guess its an obvious that i made sum changes to my blog..lol..yeah..i've notice something familiar and its juz so me..all my blog skins i chose have butterflies in it! yes..i love butterflies..goes with the theme~ metamorphosis..and this time around..purple is the colour! while pink is the colour for my previous one..still i love this two colours equally much!

ok..no yes..i've make up mind n decided to go for the bbq thingy..so wish me luck..(rmb the annoyin freak i was saying-he is going!) anyway..yeah..i had a tough time convincing n pursueing sm to go..n its tiring bcoz she is so studborn at times..its quite an achievement/accomplishment to be able to get her into it..koon..u better thank me! ok..read tiff'blog about her confessions.. n realised i haf so many confessions to make too..(i experieced sum of it too) well..she is gd..anyway but the laziness in me juz put me on the edge..i havent finsh my h/w n all the other stuff..how am i gonna survive living in this hectic n boring world!

i'll try n continue with this later about the bbq..it better b nice..(yeah..i can b very demanding!)
n no longer can wait anymore for THE WORLD CUP!! ive waited for 4 damn yrs n its more than enough!! yes..havin the world cup fever like everyone else.. =)

it seems like a long time i last updated..so much had been happening...so many changes occurred lately and im just trying to get used of all this..its tough..i must be persevere..anyway..many ppl had been reminding me about school..i have no idea whether i shld b thanking them for reminding or the other way around..no doubt i hate school..n everything in there..(nice complaining it to cherie-share the same interest,lol..) well.had my bm tuition today..had been sucky as usual..never anjoy any bit of it..mayb only the part where cc was crappin casually..ppl juz love camwhoring but unfortunately i never enjoyed it..lol..i was thinking mayb bcoz i looked ugly all da time..lol..well..gurls r gurls..never get enough of complaining about everything.. i hate my days.its so boring n miserable..why???and 2mrw.. koon's youth group is havin a bbq..im still considering whether shld i attend..i hate to see 1 particular person in there!! aikz..this will b much much much easier if sm can confirm it now! i cant make up my mind! i hate it when i actually haf to crack my head deciding! choices and decisions make me feel sick! pls send sum1 over to choose for me..tq! n if possible pls change everything in ma life..coz im sick of this hell life n i juz wanna start it all over again..perhaps like a game..? n that all im wishing for rite now..so may i know where is the best wishing well u can find on earth??

i noe its kinda late..but i juz feel the urge to blog..its been a long n tiring day..im worned out..anyway..im planning to go straight to bed after this..what a day~ my legs r sore! resulted of the dance lesson n aso rehearsal later at night..this is driving me..tired? but its still nice..i am starting to love it and not dislike it or anything like that..the main reason i dont enjoy is not the dance and definately not my instructor..she is a sweet n capable lady i adores..she is sumbody i look up to..my role model! its just that.the ppl there and aso i feel kinda left out..why cant ppl just b frenly and considerable all the time..ok maybe not all the time..what about sometimes?? instead of having a great time while ignoring sum other ppl y cant they just b more socialize?? wait im not sure who to blame on the not sociable bcoz i dont think im but i tried..haihz..nvm..n i have been doing some thinking and wondering..n there is this thng that can came across my mind..why sum ppl juzt simply haf a wonderful, luxurious and close to the perfect life..there is this girl i noe..she is hot..such a babe that is love by everyone..n she is rich-omg u cant imagine how rich she is! she has what a girl wants! i mean she has everything it takes n frankly..im jealous..lol..i mean she really has it all-the look,money,fame,friends,talents and etc..the list goes on...a few hundred pages is possible..aikz..so i have make up my mind..im not gonna sit there n look at how drop dead gorgeous and perfect her life is.. i m gonna wok hard to earn it myself-its gd to think positively n make urself feel gd rite..lol.i mean its gd to dream! dream BIG! oh yeah..after the dance..at 9pm! me and my family managed to pay a visit at bukit jalil, the stadium to admire some really good suff-lightings..its the ASIAN LANTERN FESTIVAL..RM5 per entry..im not sure if its worth it..but i haf a great time with my family..a family day out.. we were amzed by the dragon that is made up of plates and bowls..seriously..u gotta see it urself..such an eye-opening experience..most of te stuff there are created n made in china..china ppl rocks~! that was wat i concluded..n yes..i was half way dead? i mean i juz had my dancing n now walking around like? i dunno..i was witing for my hair to dry n it is dried so..i guess its time for a good nite sleep..ZzzzZZz..i havin piano 2mrw..better complete my h/w n practice..before my teacher murders me..im afraid im getting on her nerves..she is way out of control dealing with me and my dilemmas..lol..i am not an easy going student esp when it comes to things like..piano? n etc.. =)

I had learnt my lesson.. never intake 4 cups of coke in a day..it makes you feel so miserable n such torture!! U can hardly feel urself breathing..its like as if everything its stuck/jammed..n u r short of oxygen but is simply filled with carbon dioxide and u never wanna experience it..bcoz as far as im concerned it sucks! Haihz..only stupid n insensible ppl like me will b drag to this kinda situation unconsciously..i hate to admit this but sometimes I I just lost my direction n go my way..my stupid dumb way..har..well..thats juz so me! Bleh..i feel like crap now..>.< the stupid streamyx still cant work!! Almost the whole day except morning coz im pretty sure my bro had a great time playin maple..n now I seriously cant feel any oxygen inhaling into me lung..n its so suffocating! So hard to breath!! Im weak myself n plus this..my life MIGHT b shorten..life sure is difficult..so many problems to face but worst of all now im currently facing sum health problem here..so can u imagine wat its like in future..oh no..im really running out of oxygen!!! Help!! Im drowning!!! Geez..i better haf sum rest n lay down..im breaking down!! Wait..i still wanna meet shawn n express my love to him…(guai..guai..guai..) boy, im really out of my mind but cant blame me coz im basically unconscious.

I hate streamyx!! stupid streamyx!I pay the same amount as everybody else but just can’t use the facility provided well!! This is so frustrating!! Lousy service!! Wat the hell!! And according to them..This only occur at klang valley area!! Crap! I guess I shld juz move them!- I wrote this using the Microsoft n I shall cut n paste later to upload my entry in no time..Arrgh..perfect! awesome! Wonderful! its the holiday n I cant go online!! Worst thing..i hate sam!! She’s ruining my life and not to mention my appetite!! She makes me sick!! I hate her frm the very bottom of my heart!! I hate her!! I hate her!! I hate her!! She is the worst person I’ve ever met in my 15yrs of life!! Bitch and slut r the perf3ct words to describe her!! I hate her!! I never like her but now I finally realized how much I hated her!! Nothing can cure this!! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!i hate her n I will continue to hate her!! She has the worst characteristic and personality..she is definitely not someone u shld look upon..she is the worst arsh **** ****** ****** ***** ***** **** ****** beeyatch!! she is such a pain in the butt!! Full of crap n bullshit!! Horrible, hideous, miserable n pathetic she is!! Good gracious..she only brings embarrassment n humiliation to us and the whole nation..no..i shld say the entire universe!!!! So ashamed of her..i bet the aliens will b laughing at us of such bloody human! This completely hopeless creature brings pain to my eyes..n i never wish to lay my eyes on her!! Not at all..no thank you!

today was a tough day for me! i quarrelled with practically everybody in da hse! well..they just cant live with the fact that im not very patient and hot tempered!! i can b very "hardgoing" person.so stop messing with me! n lucky enough the whole usj 11/3 blackout..=tuition is off..yippee..but we still have to replace anyway..still..i feel good since im not in the mood for any tuiton at this moment-holidays..well..before that..we had 1 hr or so of tuition before we decided to call it off..so at that time..its getting darker u see..so..we had no choice but to continue on da ringkasan b4 we end this..cc was using wy's cell to erm..make gd use of the backlight? yeah..according to him..he cant see..so..later on O cant stand anymore but to pass him a real torchligh..a big one..that can zoom..obvioulsy he had fun using it..lol..i mean he is chii chang ok! lol..so i bet those who knows him will noe la..we are so dedicated till we decided to end the tuition when its so dark n HAWT!! sweatzz r drippin!! anyway..i juz realised how much i love blogging n how it gives me a sense of belonging..also, noticing how much i love reading others' blogs..i've been visitin many blogs but sry to say..i did not tag coz im da stranger..lol..(never speak to a stranger) so...at least sumbody is reading rite..lol..i always bare that in mind just to feel appreaciated n etc.. all though i noe frm the very beginning that my blog is dull n that there are so many other blogs out there that r way better than mine..im missing some of my frens adi..but luckily i juz met up with jess yesterday..it was a pleasure to c her..i mean she is the closest one with me in class..hmm..bout class..im kinda left out in class sometimes..due to the fact that everybody actually haf their own gang n dun wish to haf any1 other their own lovely gang members..its kinda sad and pathetic to think about it..where is the unity?? we are suppose to get along TOGETHER!! not in separate ways..well..this is humans we are talking about..but i cant blame them for everything..i guess im just not good enough..(sigh)-btw if u realised..that line was frm tom(inst)teeheehee..