feeling so depressed right now due to the breakouts im currently facing.. i hate to admit and say this.but im one the unfortunate teenager that is suffering from all this miserable problems..but why me?? sickening shit! i once heard "they" said that once u r in bad luck condition..everything will eventually turn worse and worse and nothing goes right! well..this is what is applying to me right now! bad things r falling right on my face! so i guess this philosophy can b real and true enough for the helpless me to believe!

ok..here comes the most embarassed and worst day of my year! i hope it is actually so that i wont have to face anymore embarrassment in this year bcoz i really had enough! well..about the embarrassing moment of my life..its extremely embarrassed that it had come to a point where i have no courage to tell it in my very own blog itself! so i just hope anybody who is reading this can imagine how bad it was.. i'll help u out by giving u a clue..just imagine sumting truly embarrassing..and u feel like screaming ur head off..so u do the imagination!

therefore, this makes my mind wonders whether if this ever occurred to anyone before?? if yes, i'll be definately feel way better ..i mean having some one to accompany and share the same the same kind of moment is a valuable gift! it proves that u r not the only retarded 1!-well that makes me feel a whole lot better! but i bet nobody would wanna experience such thing not if like is concerned..terrible and awful it was! you feel lilke hiding frm everyone else or better just wear a mask for the rest of ur life..and why is it me again?? why picked me?-this is a question i've been asking since forever when sumting turns ugly..all this is reli putting me on the edge! im miserable enough so no worries!

all i am asking for its a good life and im not talking about perfect here..just enough for me to feel glad n grateful will do..why cant things just turn out the ideal way or at least nothing awful or pain! seems like nothing in my life pulled off! im totally in a horrible, feel like crap and sickenin situation where i dun find life interesting and where is the hapinness??

the only solution to make me feel any better is to take it not seriously? but..its about me here!! so how on earth can i take it easily! i just hope it wont spread out! thats all im asking for now! and please dun ask me wat it was bcoz im falling apart badly enough! advises and words of wisedom of course will be likely! im in a need of an iPod!! music do keeps me alive!! and dad practically promised me to get me one and i sure hope he holds on to it! "looking at the pitiful and helpless child!"-directing to myself..