have been wondering whether have anyone actually read my blog?? im really curious..since i didnt expose nor advertise my blog to anybody anywhere-secret..i feel its kinda embarrassing letting sum1 u noe n always meet up with reading ur blog-feelings n all..its so WEIRD! i cant afford to let that happen..im gonna b myself-the real me..all this while..in reality..i've been hiding alot n im so tired of it! im not gonna write something that is not myself to hide things out just like what many ppl r currently doing..after all, what is a blog for??!-express ur self n share wit sum1-obviously sum readers i have no clue..(perhaps,shawn lee) im dreaming again! lol.. bout him..as usual been thinking about him day n night-nonstop..he is not blogging!! =( feel so frustrated-waiting n big disappointment! everyday i on9 aso 4 da shake of him..wondering if he had blogged..haihz..the only way to describe my condition for now will b..sadness in my eyes n pain in my broken heart..that is how im feeling now.. plus, mum nagging about everything, everytime..cant take it no more..im seriously sick of my mum n her big fat mouth! she is so unrasional..wondered what so divine about her..! she is such a pain in da ass..her frustrating n annoying attitude made me hate her even more!! uncilivilised mum!! n everybody is abandoning me! including my loveliest aunt who i love most..i guess i cant blame her..she deserves to have a wonderful life-unlike mine..everybody is just simply selfish..sad case...