i am suppose to b sleeping now but i sneaked out..who cares? its not like i've to wake up early in da morn to go to school anyway..yes..im skipping school again..no spirit for school..its a waste of time to celebrate the teacher's day n my least fav.."gotong-royong"-clean up the mess resulted of the canteen day..however,i bought sumthing for my fav teacher dee..i've no idea y sum ppl actually love the school so much..thats something weird that i'll never understand..but i hope to explore and understand..mayb im just too passive n pessimist all the time..that is the prob with me..i juz cant find a way to enjoy life-school life..schooling in m'sia sucks anyway..so boring n sickening..y cant v b a bit la da sporean or how perfect it will be if i was born n study there..they have so much space n freedom..unlike us..always stuck doing sumting completely useless..n all this rules r driving me nuts..y cant v hav remedial classes instead of tuitions..y cant my school haf sumting called the Leo club etc..i have so much to complain but so lil time n space..i dun think ive the strengh to change it anyway..so wats the point! im extremely not satisfy with all tis..im gonna do sumting to make sure i wont feel so unlikely in future..or at least come up with sum ideas to make myself feel good..im mentally n physically disturbed n the weird thing is..i dun even noe y?? sumbody pls gime sum guidance..proper ones..i feel like screaming my head off!! this is so frustrating!@$^!&* n where is my dad?? he is suppose to b home sleeping by now..still out clubbing..(shake head) i wanna do sumting extreme n fun..sumting out of the box..any ideas? looking forward for everybody's feed backs..=)