i can feel my heart breaking like da glass.. im falling apart!i miss him everyday, every minute, every second!! i just cant take my mind off him every single time! i can feel his existence..which is sumting to do physcologically..haihz..y do i feel this way!! y do i haf to feel this way! i cant suffer anymore!! i cant take it!! i can feel my stomach aching!! oush!! IT HURTS!! its so hard to love sum1!! esp sum1 u cant really keep in touch with-not at all..as far as im concerned..i am so desperate n depressed!! get me out of this!! i feel so sick!! if only sum miracle ought to happen!! ive always been day n night-dreaming about him..plus da lil fantasy i haf in my mind-me n him! how perfect n sensational if he could appears infront of me! well.. again..im not making any sense..i tried my best 2 erase him out of my memory..but how can i! he's too..lovable..?

heres a song-lyric i wanna dedicate 2 him..

look into my eyes-you'll see
what u mean to me
search ur heart, search ur soul
and when u find me there, u'll search no more
dont tell me its not worth tryin for
you know its true
everything i do-i do for you

look into my heart-you will find
there's nothing there to hide
take me as i am-take my life
i would give it all i would sacrifice
dont tell me its not worth fighthing for
i cant help it there's nothing i want more
ya know its true
everything i do-i do for you

there is no love-like ur love
n no other-could give more love
there's nowhere-unless u r there
all the time-all the way

dont tell me its not worth tryin for
i cant help it there's nothing i want more
i would fight for you..i'd lie for you
walk the wire for you, ya i'll die for you