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2007-03-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

im quitting! im deleting this blog. so no point visiting! i might start a new one. i released this blog is not so me bla.i wanna be real and myself! wahhaa n this blog is sooo not. lol. thankyou.

2007-01-17T17:34:00.000+08:00

i tot of quiting this blog and abondon it but well..i'll just blog very seldomly then.. my streamyx got cut..moving soon..gd sign or bad? anyway erm..happy new yr?? its a bit too late but still a happy 2007 to every1! i tot its gonna be a blasting yr but im so wrong..the 1st week had been suckish..i wanted to change my stream but its-too-late! so im stucked in pure sci with all the geniuses..im better off dead la...and..actually its not that bad..at least i've all my besties in my class..thats rly lucky..i believe..and aso enemies..pros n cons..always have..(yk,jb,sm.<3 pure luck..) im in the-oh-4-browser fyi..

well..i hate sci! i rly do so lets witness me struggling miserable..=) and H/W!! everlasting h/w..bla..it makes me mutter..whats life?? h/w,tuition,study.........the list goes on..all the time..may me survive 2007! amitabha..i hope i made a right choice..

oh n about co-curiculum..im joining wushu.rofl..n got a pose! the rest well mistAKES.. HAIHZ..sometimes i rly hate myself..

oh n i got new glasses..its white! my power decreased..miracle does happens!

ta-da..
for those who had always been here and never stop visiting..a million thanks..n sry ya..trust me im in a bad condition now..no com,streamyx..n lotsa work..its killing..i miss f3..its way better! it does! so f3s treasure the moment! appreaciate it -my advice..sweet sixteen is bullshit!

2006-11-24T14:37:00.000+08:00

it feels good to be back! all though its only for awhile..i really couldnt remember how long was i away..from this tempting object..conclusion: real long.. and its my turn to borrow min's com this time..lol..im going home soon..so i'll make this quick..firstly i walked here..its my 1st time btw..n to make it more exciting with my parents acknowledgement..thay deserve it! always dump me in the hse just like that..without the computer summore..what am i? i am human that gets bored easily too ok..so i practically sneak? wait a min i did called my mum..just that she didnt wanna pick up the phone so i'll just assume she agrees of letting me go then =) im pissed with dad too as a matter of fact..i love him..but he is so bloody recently..i'll feel sorry for myself if i speak to him..im planning to be rebel for a lil so that i can get what i want..muahaha..n lastly just wanna say how much i hate my youngest, most annoying and idiotic bro ever, CHONG CHEE YONG! u sucks, stop acting like a pathetic loser! think twice the next time u r planning to mess with me!(he lied to my mum n dragged me into some serious trouble) one of the reason im "running away frm home"(for less than3 hrs) hah..its plain stupid..i feel stupid anyway!

2006-11-04T18:16:00.000+08:00

its been a blasting week!! i've two trips in a row and i actually attended the grease musical at seafield..lol..so back to the trips..the 1st trip was on wed towards seremban..its nearer than i thought but i had fun..we went to yakult's factory, the only factory in m'sia and later the best part was the ostrich park!! i tot its gonna suck but guess im wrong again..i got to ride on an ostrich for the 1st time in my life and i've a certificate for it..i got a not-so-active ostrich but it was ok..at least it was tame..bsides i gotta expand my knowledge on the huh? ostrich..they r one expensive creature..almost every part of them is worthy and they r d world's most expensice skin? yeah..thats right! unfortunately i didnt manage to get any souvenir so basically im just regretting..not forgetting the not-so-interesting one..at least i got plenty of things out of yakult n of coz a free sample..no offense but i prefer vitagen la..the machines r simply magnificient..

and the 2nd one happens to my all time fav-chocolates rulez..according to a survive..u live longer with chos..anyway..d point is i went to one! and actually witnessed myself how this miracle was processed n everything..a great experience! i bought lots of chos..hehe..n spent approximately over 50 for em..but its all worth it..its pretty cheap referring to the amount i bought..ok enough bout that..lol.yeah..obsessions..i bought souvenirs frm MINT..soem so called limited edition printed coins..i guess thats about it..oh n the migth prime minister's ex hse..huge!! i wanted to blog more..really..but again..time is running out..bro's nagging the big sis here to get her ass off b4 he jumps of the building n DIE! yeah..so i'll post more about my days n all real soon..I WANNA BLOG! =)

p/s:like my skin? took a loooong time...

2006-10-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

now that i've finally come to realised where do all the hotties come n go.. things r looking gd..at least i know where to "kap chai" d nxt time when im depesrate..subang jaya is pretty disappointing..places like summit, sunway pyramid r sure dull..but guess not anymore..ppl! i mean girls n gays!!! kl is the place to head for some satisfy sightings! they are practically everywhere! i met a guy who looks like shawn lee(jaws dropped) and this very cute looking guy i believe its a caucasian+asian!! (eye popping)

so..went around kl yesterday..had a great dinner at this diner "sakae" pretty good food they have..n its unique! not those same old boring chicken chop n such..i had hawaiian chicken! pineapple as toppping!! shld have taken a pic if it wasnt bcoz my camera was stolen along with the car..stil not over it-me/dad

n school was bored as usual..read this book "empress orchid" frm shuhmin to kill time..time seriously tick faster as i read n got addicted and find it hard to stop..this book is just amazing..u guys shld check it out..attn to cherie(esp) its about concubines n stuff like that during some Dynasty..blabla..hard to explain..just read it! can get it at kinokuniya at the price of 31.60 =)

i think im gonna take back my words about t.anne n the tuition! the whole thing sucks! =) im suffering so badly and for god sake i need a break! a huge part of me is extremely unsatisfy with everything about my ONLY tuition! aarrgghh..just a few more weeks of struggle n im so out of here! its not fun! not anymore! its torture..

2006-10-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

here r some kicking pics u might enjoy..

i had reached my 1ooth post!! this is my 100th post n therefore i'll try n post something nice just to keep the memory..=)

i dream alot!

2006-10-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

i've finished DEVIL BESIDE YOU! a total of 2o episodes!! best taiwanese drama ever!! erm wait..of coz including meteor garden 1! meteor garden 2 sucks! lol..im in loved with the drama..

here's a review that says it all for me..on behalf of me..i editted n added..

Coming from my Korean drama addiction, I was at first reluctant to watch any recent Taiwan Idol dramas, thinking that they would now be too silly or childish for my liking. But after seeing all the hype at various discussion forums, I decided to try out "Devil Beside You" with fairly low expectations. Much to my surprise, however, this series blew me away and went beyond my expectations. It was one of the sweetest, most enjoyable idol dramas (reminded me of the good ol' Meteor Garden days) that kept me pretty much glued to the screen for all twenty episodes.i cant get my eyes of mike! a good girl falling for a bad boy sure does sounds common..typical typical..the chemistry between them are just simply perfect and much of appealing..rainie yang made such a perfect couple with Mike, finally a female lead who I can sorta like and root for! all tho obviously her facial expressiona are over-exaggerated at times..i've a feeling they secretly couple in real life..lol..the chemistry between them is just unbelievable..real is the word.."we belong together" just sweet~

bang! i wanna have a devil beside me too!! for now on..ive a diff perspective.. i crave for a devil n not some angel..suprise suprise..no more angels..LOL..this is sure fairy tale!

oh went to pj n meet my dermatologist..words to describe my feelings:weird, uneasy,creepy..n freaking out! he is so scary..? i was actually panicking when i saw him..hate that feeling..

who knows i might even change my skin to dby..lol..im crazy!
currently listening to chou nan ren(jerk) by huang yida..lovin it..dby theme song!

2006-10-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

i think im caught under a spell..i've been so addicted to all these dramas until i dun need to get any rest or sleep..guess i really spent my hols doing something productive after all..all i need is the dvd player n a tv! n thats my dad..watching it for hours continuosly untill its time to eat n go to d bathroom! n thats it..the rest of day i'll be sitting at the couch..eye widening..smiling..laughing..crying alone..oh..im seriously lovin this life..n of coz dream on..i gotta admit reality sucks..n everything in dreams are just perfect..thats y i never like reality but love dreams..LOL! im hilarious!

1st was autumn in my heart..sleep at 5 just to wathced it..call me insane! bcoz i think i am..and now..devil bside u..something new bcoz this is no korean drama but taiwanese drama..im now in the tenth episode..im planning to finish it by 2mrw!! if i wasnt sneezing so much i'll be watching it right now and never stop! oh mum said she's gonna get "my girl" soon..that's a gd news! i'll just have to watch again! <3

원빈 is love in korean..lol.. ok i lied..is wonbin!!

kamsahamida for tagging..thanks..saranghaeyo!
im heard by my wonderful frens! lol..

2006-10-25T17:47:00.000+08:00

im proud to annonce that im was staying up the whole night until 5 in the morn! a big round of applause! i broke my own record for staying up so late! and as a result i had fall sick again! wonderful..just perfect!!! XD i still need to go out this weekend tho..

to be continued...(bro's nagging =)

2006-10-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

just got myself a set of autumn in my heart/endless love to ease my boredom..this time is original..LOL..My 1st ever original korean drama..mum is on a mission..she clearly state that she is going to buy a set of a korean drama every month..as a collection thingy! i hope she means it coz i really wanna have all of them! each n every1! cant get enough of it! esp gong!! GOONG! My present 1 is a pirated copy n i hate it..no eng/malay subtitles how on earth can i understand those korean n chinese! i want gong!!! GONG! I CRAVE FOR GOOOOONG!!!!!!!! nvm....

i've been sneezing alot today..who on earth is cursing me??? mayb its him..lol..i think im gonna fall sick..great i'll just sit at the couch all day watching my endless love and tearing down..sobsob..i cried every episode..guess this is the power of love?? lol..

2006-10-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

i think i've a feeling sum1 hates me lately..ok..its not like nobody hates me..just that..i think he is gonna be adding to the "hate cf "list..great..im so unlikeable huh.. i shld have a sumting titles "everybody hates chinfong"..most probably a book..published my chinfong herself..

ok..i know i can be annoying n everything..but pls dont hate me..just tell me im wrong towards my premonition n instinct..but usually im gd at predicting this..ok he hates me..no doubt..

2006-10-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

T__T seems like nobody's tagging anymore..except for dear cherie..=)
>>pls tag<<thats if only u r visiting la..a single hi will do alot! just lemme noe ur presence so that i wont feel..erm lonely?

ok..i've a confession to make! i just did a huge mistake today..i just walk passed a fren of mine while he is working just like that..!! pretended i was blind at that moment and all i could c is my dad..talking with my dad about some chinese restaurant! im so mean..im such a jerk for passing by without waving/smiling or just a simple hi..slap me sum1! i deserves it..i feel bad..real bad..hope he forgives me all though d percentage of him reading this is like 0.01?

oh ya..i've watched autumn in my heart for countless times n still icry so hard when i watched it today.. all tho i knew d whole story n of coz d sad ending..so two funny looking women-me n mum staring at d tv crying so hard that we cant laugh at each other at all..how bad can it be? lol..just say its a really sweet n touching show that u cant afford to miss! =)

2006-10-22T12:43:00.000+08:00

im suffering frm serious headache this whole morn..i slept early..at least earlier than usual nites but still i get severe headache like this! so now im currently having burger frm mcdonalds for breakfast..just called for delivery since im home alone..yummmy..hehe..

oh yeah..dad's really cute..my bro was begging for a new phone n guess what he said?! show me ur gf 1st..bring her back home..i was like..he's only 11!

nvm..im just bored! im gonna go hunt for the ultimate skin/template!

2006-10-21T01:28:00.001+08:00

If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1...
If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2...
If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3...
If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4...
If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5...
If U were born on the 6th,15th,24th of any month then U r number 6...
If U were born on the 7th,16th,25th of any month then U r number 7...
If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8...
If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9...

Number 1-me!!
You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest,jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authoritive,famous person...always want to be and regarded as first on people position,they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people!You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the localshop to the heart of the parliament because you are possitive and well tallented in numerous issues!! But in yourlife you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behaviour you will be hated by some people too... Your family life is very cool,you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children... You are pioneer, independent & original...Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!

Number 2 -dad
No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the Moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. you are a person who day dream a lot, you have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, you are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication. Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home). If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you canfeel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time yourwords are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge you can predict the situation.. You will become poets, writers, any artistic business people!You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you getmarry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole family. If U r a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family orvice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake ofyour family...You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!

Number 3
You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious,loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problemswithin your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. so wherever you go always you have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something.. You will not get anything without hard work! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others. Generally you are not a cool person. It's not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone's attitud! e then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others. Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won't be long.. You will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it's over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you will be such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow. You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!! Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!

Number 4-chong huei
You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in importantmatters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough wordpower..Might put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost)at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don't know what to do.. So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!! Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing.. but you will be unemployed.. or will do very ordinary jobs. But you will take care of your family very well...All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too.. You are radical, patient, persistent, a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order... Your best Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!

Number 5-cheeyong
You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by justchatting..to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are aperson who does anything when your head thinks "lets do this". You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.. Very popular with sense of humour ,you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tendto go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times 'coz your popularity.. You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it's your best teacher!!! Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!

Number 6
Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You dont care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very good in either education or workwise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveble by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kinda looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are ! a caring person towards your family & friends . If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgement, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further...Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5!!!

Number 7
You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above. You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life. Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime. It's probably the Lord given you al! l sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok? You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!!Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!

Number 8
You are a very strong personality, there's no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say "this is what". You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life. The problems will not allow you to study further, but you willlearn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and alwaysprepared to help others. Well..once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and yo! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems such as : the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents. You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter! Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!

Number 9
Hey..you guys are the uncompatible people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally. You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life. But when you achieve what you have done, it's always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off. You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people a! lways trust you. Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children. Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice. You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration. Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2

2006-10-20T19:41:00.000+08:00

here's a recap of a great day out with my best fren-yikoon n my best cousin-shuhmin today! it was no doubt a blast!! its been along time since the three of us hanged out so we enjoy la! so it all started off by having shuhmin's dad to pick all 3 of us up n head to kelana jaya lrt station..we are taking lrt to klcc!!-a lil jakoon lthere..long time din take lrt la.. btw, thanks uncle for taking d trouble.. i know how troublesome we can be..anyway..so its kinda scary bcoz d 1st train couldnt work! we were like what??!! then d person said "this train is not functioning", pls get out!-ok he didnt say that but his body language did! so we were freaking out.. lil worry bout d nxt train..luckily it works..n its some mcdonalds train where d whole train is covered with mcdonalds posters..i feel so mcdonalds..n there have this announcement where every stop they will inform u how near u r 2 d nearest mcdonalds..blabla..its just plain silly n we cant help but laugh everytime they did d announcement..

so frm kelana jaya to klcc took approximately 1/2 hr and there we were..we head straight to get some food since i havent take my breakfast n my stomach is being grumpy! so grab some sandwiches n ready to shop..was once again being amazed by this 1st class mall..hehe..versace, chanel, gucci, marc jacobs, etc caught my eyes but oh well..i cant afford for now but im determine to in future..so we'll c..conclusion: get a rich husband n marry right after high school..ok that was a joke..

we'll work hard n get what we want all by ourselves-koon, thats d spirit-cf&smin..

so nxt we went n grab out tickets i booked the day b4 n tada kinokuniya..here i come!! ok here we come..i wanna stay there for the rest of my life if possible! bought a nice/thick notebook for school use..ahha..guess im ready for nxt yr..so were koon n smin n a book to read..the title of d book is sweet sixteen, i figured i shld just buy it since im turning sixteen in a few months time..to b exact its about 5 months.. n shuhmin bought this book called empress orchid! i am so gonna borrow it right after she finishes bcoz i read a few pages..so we stay there for as long as we could..b4 that we were actually window shopping..

then later we went for lunch n watched john tucker must die! after d movie we were definately in d mood to shop..so koon bought some accesories, min bought a roxy purse after seeing mine, but i feel its much nicer than mine and i bought..wait i dint buy anything??!!! ok..i bought a pencil case frm girls for nxt yr use too..we actually bought d same 1! how fanscinating..then i wanted to but everything in d grocery compartment where they offer snack imported frm japan! im regretting for not buying...but i bought dinner-japanese salad n a drumstick..

therefore, im gonna beg dad to bring me over by car so that i can get what i want wihout spending in horror! im actually penniless..so with parents around things r sure to be easier..after all..it hurts to see the money flying frm my very own hands to d cashier but if mum is paying i dont feel much..not as much as i feel if im paying..ok..the bottom line is..shopping with mum is d best! lol..all though it can be unpleasant at times..just say there have to be some sacrifices to gain something rite..

this is hilarious.. a stranger asked me what form m i and unconsciously typed f5..lol..dunno whats going on with me..i think its d haze + tired legs..im fatigue..

2006-10-19T22:30:00.000+08:00

love to indulge in a Romantic Rendezvous

Long walks on the beach and candlelit dinners are great, but a true romantic like you knows how to find love in the little, everyday things. A handwritten note slipped into a jacket, a surprise picnic at lunch — these fun indulgences are how you spoil yourself and those you adore.

And your caring personality isn't just for the object of your affection. Thoughtful and kind, you're the friend people come to when they need a sympathetic ear or a compassionate word. Putting others before yourself comes naturally to a sweetheart like you. Your optimism and love of life means you'll always find your happy ending. And that's no fairy tale.-here is the result of a s survey i took..just to know myself better..

2006-10-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

check out this website!! my future home sweet home!! www.ku.com.my (kemuning utama)

2006-10-18T01:44:00.000+08:00

YOU ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY??? WHY ARE YOU SO NICE?? WHY ARE YOU SO SWEET?? now i cant help but fall for u!!

p/s:stop being so nice! i'll like u alot!! so stop..!!!well..for a sec,i dun mind..=)

boy was this huge or what?!! massive it is!! humongeous!!-not sure d spelling la(paiseh),i just noe d spelling aint right..my bad..

-how do i live without u-nice song, really!

lastly just wanna say how much i hate u! as huge as d ocean..toot...(btw this is a diff person)

2006-10-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

skipped school but luckily yihui got d form for me.. "what stream r u choosing"-ultimate ques..

when to s.parade with min n contributed 7000something points for the shop for school thing..i must say im proud..lol..guess thats the spirit? anyway..everything looks fine except for this thing..im so stupid! im really stupid!! y m i so stupid!!?? sometimes i really hate myself, my fate, my destiny n everything else..what is wrong with me?? that's how i felt at times..like now..? what was i thinking..well am i outta my mind?! just say..im not crazy, im just a little unwell..unwell....

nvm..my mood can really swifted real fast..a minute ago i was all happy n now..back to depressed..what am i made of???-mum, dad, pls answer this..

nvm..life moves on..i shld b contented..bla..i dun wanna go to school!!!! guess i'll not b going to school then..hehe..wait..i promised min..aiyak! but someone pursued me to break promise once in awhile..blah..

2006-10-16T17:13:00.000+08:00

new skin, might change it back to d previous 1 tho..it all depends..we'll c if this works out..love to noe what u guys think..n yeah im a gong freak..

anyway..school sucks unsuprisingly!! i seriously dun feel like going anymore if its not for......just say some kinda ridiculous talk..yeah speaking about talks.. school=talk talk talk(non-stop)

and i would like to take this opportunity to show my appreaciation to mr.chow jv(also known as cavin) for all the best korean theme songs ever..-i promised i'll tell d whole world(well,at least a few ppl) how generous n kind he actually is..im lovin music more..kamsahamida..

2006-10-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

yeah my bro is stupid..i cant blieve he used my account while im away by sayin "hi"s to ppl..anyway thats not d point..

if anybody havent noticed..tomorrow's school for me! i hate school..i never like school..not this school at least! its gonna b a dull day..so unrock on..

today was quite a long tiring day for me..oh..i love blogging..so i went to ikea to do some reseach/survey just to get d idea n ok i dont think im gonna be able to wake up d nxt morn bcoz i've intention to..lol..pathetic..bad memories..

i love one tree hill..cute guys..hot girls..lots of fun n drama..just d way i like it..it would be best if nathan n haley get together again..they'r totally meant for each other..well..look who's talking now..boy was i feeling like a failure..just when to min's hse for a lil hangout..guess what?! she's right! we've no talent or whatsoever..in another word..we suck! ok at least i am! hate toa dmit that but do i sound like i've a choice? somethings r getting better but many of it aint going my way..screwed! somebody once said"i fell like dying"..its like i've no passion or anything in life and this practically kills everything..such a sweet episode..

2006-10-14T14:49:00.000+08:00

im back!!! for good..its been a long time since i last stepped in.. I MISS U BLOGGIE!!!

dear blog,
i miss u tremendously..how r u? poor thing..has everybody forgot about u? dont worry i wont! lol..ok cut the crap..

ok..its been more than a month.i think im out of ideas or sumting..i cant think n write like im used too..but i'll try n get it back..so much had happened..frm pmr to the end of pmr n beginning of a life..lol..yeah..incase u didnt notice..i cut n straightened my hair..yeah..curly hair doesnt work for me anymore..had a great rest..a week of hols is nothing but heaven..i miss every single thng here..all the cool blogs..cant imagine how much i had missed so much..anyway..this week's routine:eat,sleep, play..lol..plenty of entertainments everyday..start frm the fri-right after pmr-yamcha with koon-its her b'day..went pyramid(cousin's day out)-catch a movie n eat!! later that nite-lantern festival..sat erm.cant rmb..sun..family day out..mon-hair!tues-facial n some exercise at 3K with fellow classmates..wed-my oni tuition..thurs-kenneths bbq party..rocks..lol..i like his hse..fri-s.parade..i think im gonna contribute a lil for the shop for school thing..i've 3ooo n when its doubled up it'll be 6000 n more..=) SMK USJ 12!! WE R GONNA WIN!! LOL..

oops..gotta go..in couz's hse..sharing is caring..=)

p/s:misss talking ot u lotss...n therefore, im gonna call d streamyx n give a great scream to whoever incharged..

2006-08-26T01:46:00.000+08:00

ok..first of all i had a great conversation with aitert..im truthfully sorry for what i did at the past..u r an awesomely nice person n a gd advisor..im really regretting on all the things i said.. n i've come to realised all this mistakes i had done n im ready to correct it..she is right! she is totally right!! i'll try n keep every single thing she said in my mind.. frm now on..there'll be no more depressing posts over some ppl who is not bothered anymore..i've made a promised to be the best out of myself and just enjoy life.. life has gotta be way more than that..i feel so silly over all this..im depressed n was so dull bcoz of them while they r just simply making fun of me having a blast saying stuff i wouldnt wanna noe at all..its time to put an end to all the miserability n depressions..im all over it..i had a long tough time n im tired of it..past is past..its not worth it..hypocrites r outta my life..

again, i really salute and admire aitert..she speaks like a really experienced and educated person..she earns my total respect! n im gonna feel a huge lost when she's moving to aussie nxt yr..keep in touch ya..i still have to come to u for more..winks* thanks for teaching me those things..really treasures it..

im on a mission..start a new joyful and contenting life!! "nothing u saids its gonna bring me down" i have new perspective about life..n im such a dork for actually felt n had the impact of what they said on me!its the worst thing i've ever done to myself.. not gonna along that to happen..im just gonna move along and say whatever as much as they want bcoz i really dont care..just say we have different perspectives..u might laugh at me or u'll just understand it..u might think its silly n dumb while im thinking look at urself b4 u said anything..n i might be thinking the same thing ur thinking about me..so no worries im not gonna jugde anybody anymore..bcoz judging is not fun n pleasant at all.. mayb u havent been through it but what comes around goes around..-did i said it correctly? anyway..u shld get my point..if u know what i mean..

anyway..it feels like a burden is out of my chest..i feel lighter n of coz better..live happily is all i want..im contented..

cheers* happy days everyone!! *huge smiles* im feeling like a bird spreading my winds to fly up in the sky..free and relaxation..or chocolate melting on the taste buds..satisfaction and melting the sorrows..

n i noe y'all love pictures.i'll try n get more pictures ya..brighten the atmosphere around! 1 more gd news..me n him..ok adi..i feel much relief now!

2006-08-21T23:38:00.000+08:00

finally im back to blogging..n actually get to go on9..blame the mouse n streamyx! well..i wanna have a recap about yesterday..a sweet sunday it was..other than skipping my dance class..im all gd..so 1st we woke up at an extraordinary time on a sun..8.30 in the morn on a sun..=) n went down to pj to have dimsuns..its been a long time..i love dimsuns..it makes me feel energetic after that to start my day..as soon as we finished..dad had an appointment therefore he dropped us back to prepare..later at lunch hour..he came back n brought me, youngest bro n mum to have a gd look at our future home sweet home..my the other bro couldnt come with us n went for a lil trip to sunway lagoon with his mates..

when we were on the way..while mum convincing dad to call grand ma which he did n then grandma, youngest aunt n everybody else went with us..hehe..im so excited..so we went with that special pass..very strict security guards they have..they have everything..guards, CCTVs, dog-one big one! i feel extremely safe staying there..there are fencing too..lol..no need to worry about car stealing again n everything else!! Don’t get the wrong idea its not like the prison tho..u’ll understand if u see it for urself..looks like a nice, peaceful area..all nicely done..i love the guard hse(entrance)..looks like the one in KLIA..lol.. looks like some expensive, richie rich area all tho its not that expensive..i mean where can u get all this with affordable price?? (hehe, promoting)

omg! I finally saw the hse!! The one!! I have my own bathroom as promised!! Well..so is my bro! I got my own toilet at the age of 15 n he? at 11? Anyway.. im grateful! N 2 hses away-near.. I ve a jogging track..muahaha..its so nice..with pondok n stuff..im gonna go jogging every morn..ive been meaning to do that for a long time n thanks for the opportunity..dad really made a right choice by choosing that place..its time to change.. I mean ive been stuck in usj for quite some time..does 13yrs sound long to u? well..it sure does sounds long to me!! Desperately need to move! Byebye subang jaya! Lol..

I heard mel’s mving there too..who knows she might be my neighbour..oh..n about school..i wanna move but mum kinda disagree bcoz she said kota kemuning’s school sucks..? I mean..my present school sucks too..i’ve made so many enemies in my present school..5 of them in mind so far..3 guys n 2 girls..but other than that its all gd n fine! I’ll definitely miss yk, jb, my couz,sm, min, n everybody nice there..so im still considering actually..im not sure if I can do that-let go of my loveliest frens..i don’t wanna make any mistake..n regret after that..so I have a few months to decide..

But for now I wanna decide what colour to paint my future room n everything else..L-shaped sofa it’s a must! Muahaha..2nd place to sleep..n im begging dad to get me a hifi to place it in my room..i think its kinda imposible tho..too many things to buy so I don’t think the money will go to me n my hifi! Maybe later..a few yrs? Lol..i wanna get nice lightings..i wanna have something vintage in my room..i’ve been bz with interior design mags to pick some ideas..if possible I wanna hired somebody real gd in interior designs so that he/she can make my hse looks so gd to resist bcoz I’ll b stuck in it most of the time since its sort of “pedalaman”? I want it to have a modern look but also with some Korean feel like the Korean bbq in taipan..and practically everything nice n gives a cozy feeling..lovely..

In the meantime, I wanna change things that had been in my closet..more funky cool outfits? Bags?? Told ya.. I wanna change everything!! We r all gonna hav3 a new life soon..muahahaaaaaaaaaaa~~n of coz I want a personal com!! My bros will be sharing my old, now com while im a using a new one!! Sweet~

One more gd news to come!! Im finally taking off my braces!! Nxt month is what the dentist told me!! Hope there will be no additional month! This hideous thing had caused so many OUCH-SERS! Right now im having 3!! Can hardly bite!

2006-08-16T14:18:00.000+08:00

=) im having gd news for now to myself..lol..hope this is the start of something real gd bcoz im so fed up with my present lifestyle n stuf like that..its time to put an end to all this miserability..i've did my part n tried my best..so its up to u..say what u want?! but nothing u say its gonna bring me down!(shut up-song) lol..a very gd news to myself(afetr all this blog is mine) i'm finally moving!! yay! triple yays! figured its time to upgrade my lifestyle since its abysmally tragic.. make a change is gd rite..new environment..new hse..new ppl..its all i ever wanted right now.. god is fair! he makes me feel depressed n miserable 1st b4 giving me something really sweet..=) thank god! ;) new room here i come..

hope my neighbours r some hunky hottie dudes..=) they make my days!! lol..laughing can help in burning fats..? cavin just told me so i practically "forced" him to slim-kan me..i love laughing..lol..lol..lol..lol..LOL.LOL..

i seriously cant wait for end of this yr..im so excited!! if possible i wanna change my everything..i mean it!! every single thing! bcoz im not happy with everything i've.. well if 2006 cant be my yr then 2007 can be it..i'll totally be flattered since there's not much of 2006 left!! MUAHAHAHA..

get rid of all this scums and all this those memories.. i'll definately leave all this bhind! lalalalala..i wanna sing my lungs out..but.......still got a few more months to suffer..so i'll shall be patient..yoga n meditation can give a lil hand..i just wanna live n be able to actually breath..

muax..happy b'day mum!! <3 u..n thanks for everything..i mean the goods..=) secretly bought her a cake..its frm secret recipe again..since she loves the mango delight so much..but unfortunately there aint any..there are not allowed to sell it? i wonder y..mangos is m'sias all gone rotten? anyhow..bought her the chocolate indulgence instead..-turnd out to be my favourite! LOL!!

nerve-racking..tada..

2006-08-11T17:24:00.000+08:00

well..i guess everybody hates me now? mainly for the best thing ive ever had..my blog..ppl get mad n starts spilling everything out..is that wrong? why must they make such a big fuss over a small thing which is practically nothing..since when they cared so much about my stuff n what i was about to said n say..seriously..whats ur problem? so now r u trying to tell me im all wrong n trying to take the best thing out of me..!

this is not it....now ppl will be thinking n talking stuff about me! U DO NOT KNOW ME! SO STOP JUDGING ME! U HAVE NO RIGHTS TO JUGDE ME BCOZ U DONT EVEN NOE ME!bsides do u think u r qualified to judge me..only god can do that..-am i making myself clear? so stop saying things about me would u..its ok to keep it to urself..dun worry u can have a blog n spill everything out.. it feels gd..n no worries..i'll never visit it.bcoz i totally couldnt careless..n have no intention to find out about u n ur stuff at all..

the most frustrating part is..im very very disappointed in a particular someone..i thought he is diff frm others..i thought he is different and unique in his own way! i seriously do..but now that i know..he had completely changed my mind n my gd perspectives about him! i serious thought he might be able to understand me-the only one perhaps? i dont care what others think about me..! but him..i care! alot too! i dunno y..but as far as life is concern..i seriously do care about what he thinks about me..-in case ppl get the wrong idea..its not THE HIM! its the other him! a him that i once loved? n i thought he was the best gentleman ever ive met in my whole damn life! thinking about what he might say n think about me makes me feel totally miserable and sick..i suddenly felt tears rolling down my cheeks! this is close to the end of the world..

i really hope he understands..or maybe he is just influenced by his fellow frens..i dunno..thats not like him tho..not the him that i thought i know..now all that im asking for is peace..laugh at the back of me..stab me at my back..just dont lemme noe..it feels terrible..im trying to take over the hatred i have in myself..so..its very nice of u to help out by stopping it all..dont worry i'll never blog about u ppl again..as i was saying..im not perfect..im 15..i made mistakes..i noe its really not really nice of me to say those things n mentioned about u ppl..i tremendously sorry..-this time i really mean it..so i hope YOU-s can get over it n move along? i dont hate u..i just dislike u..ok..i cant deny it..but i'll do whtever it takes to clear it off..living in a hatred feel is no gd..im not born to hate..love to live, live to love-motive of life frm this point onwards! just get over n dont find a thing with me..n it'll be all ok..

2006-08-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

its really late right now for me..i usually sleep at the most late also 11.30pm or so..but today is..i dont think i'll be getting my gd nite sleep today..im still busy helping dad with his quotation..last min again! n in the meantime i thought i'll just brief a short one about my recent stuff that had been going on..

firstly im so gonna flunk my trials!! just hope this doesnt occur in my PMR! i am determine to study after this..not last min like now..slow n steady n understand every single word n memorise it frm the bottom of my soul.. all though there have been some stuff that had been occuring in my mind and crossed my mind..but i shall never neglect my studies!

bsides my trials..PMr! i guess im pretty fine..im still trying to get used to my new pair of contacts..n as usual..im enjoying my time in teacher's ane class..she is so right!! if only everybody has the same opinion like her..life would be way better than expected!

n kong minhui is freaking me out with her lill stories.. thank god im not sleepin alone in my room right now..she made me recalled the worst nightmare i once had..ok..better stop there..my goosebumps r rising..

i gave up..its over..he is outta my mind..well..its easy to say but..i have determination as the recipe..so lets just hope he will soon be forgotten! bad memories.. at least its easier than i thought..it took me a real long time to forget about the other him! im very used to not having anything i hope for or whatsoever come true..-never had a dream come true...

im starving! kit kat on hand! love it!
practically thats about it..im out..

oh i realised how boring n dull my blog is..compared to others..but..who cares..fake a smile*

2006-08-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

is voicing out my own lil opinion in my own lil blog a sin? thanks for visitin..to those that visited invisibly..guess u noe who u r..n do tag..totally welcome! dare to visit darent to show ur wonderful presence? thats so not u-the u that i noe!
well..i guess i better apologise before i got sue frm some1! sorry!! extremely sorry for writing down in black n white! so i shld learn frm u guys by just saying it n not dropping it down then ;P

im not gonna allow anybody unwanted to ruin my life! so back off! i'll definately appreaciate that!

have a wonderful day, ppl! cheers!

2006-08-07T14:27:00.000+08:00

hmm..its nice to get a passerby? yeah..i noe i might offend sum1..but bare in mind that they offended me 1st..so y must i consider their feelings when they dont even care about me at all..im just returning whats right in my opinion..well..i guess they couldnt careless also so i just do what makes me feel gd..spil it all out without bothering the consequences..its tough to keep everything to one self..sooner or later it'll explode n die! i dont wanna die in such way.. anyhow..thanks for visiting..whoever u r..-who knows i might offended u b4..just dont messed with me n bring peace..=) i still cant find a person who actually knows the real me..

bsides that, my day today was..ok..pros n cons..cavin seriously made me laugh like anything else..im so glad he was bhind there or i shall be bored to death or stay depress n moody the whole time..thanks for "saving me"! im really glad to have a fren that can talk and joke like nothing else..i love laughing!! =) and there goes the girl again..shld really look at the way she flirted..did she just had a short term memory that she couldnt rmb she is currently in a relationship..well..same to goes to the bf too actually..seriously meant to be together.."we belong together"-sing that to each other..totally suitable..

on top of that, i was having my trials..n i dont feel anything..weirdly..maybe im just too used to ujian bcoz i was having the "latih tubi" the whole time..so how can i not get used to it..hmm..im gonna get my contact lens..ive been meaning to change my appearance and lifestyle..not too mention some ppl too..dont wanna have anything to do with them anymore..im still lack of 1 person to start a new class for my bm..still hunting for that saviour right now..anybody who needs a bm tuition?? pls contact me A.S.A.P..thank u..may buddha bless u..=)

S.O.S=short of sleep..zzZZZ..so tired le..hope everything will go smoothly as in my trials n later my pmr!! hm..i shall start mugging again.. gambateh! lets all work hard together! n break free! i sense..positive thinking and happy life!! smiles*

say byebye to depress for now!

pain is what im afraid of..

2006-07-31T16:29:00.000+08:00

last sat was actually my dady's 44th birthday..729(in mandarin it means go drink beer) lol..we bought him a cake frm secret recipe and i took candles for age 45 instead of 44 n he was shocked! lol..i made him a card bcoz he just wouldnt wanna accept anything except a handmade card n cake bcoz he said y waste money..dads r dads..i love the cake real much..bsides that, i chatted with him again..this time was way better than the 1st time.. im on a mission..diet is the title! im on diet!! i hope it will work out the way i want it to be..bcoz im a food freak..i eat all sorts of rubbish without realising or even bothering how much calories, fats n such..so im more or less doom!

nxt, its sun..went to subang parade at 10 in the morn! just to check out hows my bro doing in his and1 n of coz..look around n c if i spot any "lengchai" ..conclusion: ya! n its the mega sales n so how could anybody ever miss the ooportunity to shop till drop..i bought many tops all though im not sure y..my mum said im lack of tops but im aso lack of bottoms..lol..we had gone to a stage where we had to put our stuff in the car n head back to the mall again..crazy mum n daughter..im very contented..the best part is i finally got a bag that has all the requirements..big, white n soft..its frm nike..=) later at night, dad brought us to a restaurant in puchong.."udang galah" yum..

longing for it..

2006-07-24T16:41:00.000+08:00

im seriously not photogenic!! hate it hate it..i noe i look blah in real life so let me look ok in pic pls?( begging..buddha?) newy..im trying to enjoy my life all though im still far behind for the PMR.. so i gonna work hard..mug hard n still have fun! thats my mission of life for now.. its been awhile since i last feel grateful n gladful for some things still im not that contented so make me feel contented!..(im talking to god again) lol..

i just feel so silly n crazy sometimes..like out of my mind n do sumting unexpectedly..? mayb it bcoz of the hormones..(according to me aunt) unusual hormones its what she called it..speaking about her..i miss her so much! she is so busy with her school work n i guess she has forgotten about me..useless..

bah..i feel so weird recently..like im not sure if i feel like another person or its just been me all along..hidden for a long time n finally revealing the real, true self..lol..i lover crappin dont i..crappin is love..lol..

GONG IS LOVE..LOVE IS GONG!! <333

2006-07-17T18:47:00.001+08:00

i still have the feeling i was experiencing during the car lost..n i hate that feeling so much! its driving me crazy and cant it just get out of my mind! it makes me feel depressed and miserable in the meantime esp when it comes to think about all the circumstances that will and had put US through .. i seriously cant understand what makes us deserve that?! we did nothing to harm any1 at any means..we r always on the charity and other nice stuff.. but why us?? this is no 1st time n im so sick of all this..its always us..

so im glad that we'll be moving hse..new environment and hoping for a better place and life.. so mum n dad went hunting for hses on sale recently..i got my eyes on the new area, usj 3A! not bad.. i love the area..its new n far awy frm everyone else..i mean at least far away frm sum ppl that left me with bad memories and also to leave all this bad experiences we had gone through behind n no turning back..but im definately gonna reach my room..is one of a kind n im lovin it so much that i feel like not selling my room in particular..lol..the rest of the hse r junks..so u can have it..

i've been staying in this hse for more than 10 yrs now and its really time to change! dad said he's gonna design it the best sand he got my trust since he's the part time interior designer and contractor.. he know what best to do and he got all..so im truly looking forward for a new hse..we've some ideas in our heads that might be putting to gd use..i want the dinning area to be like the korean style-in taipan that restaurant n dad agrees..how cool..

better start mugging later for the weird diagnostic test.. i've no idea at all..funny enough..one of my fren thought she got the wrong paper bcoz the questions r so "frightening"..lol..

2006-07-17T18:47:00.000+08:00

2006-07-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

continue with my dreadful experience..so the car was gone..forever i assumed..there are sum valuable things n important documents in there..my beloved camera with its memory card was one of it..i felt horrible and im pretty sure my dad may looked "normal" on the outside but deep inside he must be heart broken..he loves the car..he took great care of it n always treating it with special care and etc..i even counted that left 2 weeks n 1 day only bfore its very 1st b'day!!

n my bros responded pretty well with it..i think they r "recovering" real fast..fast enough to continue with his maple and when i asked him about it he was like.."come on" "cheer" "its nothing..""its just a car""who cares""EVERYONE had gone through it" i shld have known..guys r always guys..

thank god there is the insurance to save the day..my dad settled eveything right after that..lodged a police report n stuff..he must be exhausted..plus the lack of sleep..just poor old dad..so now i've no idea what he had decided to do nxt..hope everything will be alright..a better tommorrow is my hope from today onwards! =)

n i had my braces done again today-changed it frm pink to purple..n managed to buy my fav mag..i was supposed to follow mum to temple since today was "kuan yin tan"n believe me i really wanted to go n ask for some blessings i mean with all this that had been happening around me..sure need that..

..but....im experiencing sumting in the meantime..i was suffering frm stomachache and my knees were weak..its the time of the month if u noe what i mean..its killing if u still want me to attend it..i mean with all the bending frm up to down and stuff..plus 1 more thing to worry about..-leakage! its just tough! so i finally decided not to go..and stayed at home with my youngest bro..mum was planning to bring us together n due to this last min change..we had no dinner n so we ordered pizza for the both of us..i guess mum must b not so happy about it..im sry mum i'll try n go the nxt time k..

rewatched "hot chick" again while eating the pizza..love that movie..its so hilarious and romantic in the same time~n frm now on my fav bk will be the V club also known as the virginity club..i hope im like one of the character, eva..lol..n my bro was cursing me bcoz i wouldnt let him play..so much for a bro! gotta go to bed..zzzzZZZZZZZ

depress took over me! i feel down...

2006-07-15T18:46:00.000+08:00

yesterday was one of the worst day in my life and also my dad in particular.. the only lucky thing about it's that it doesnt involve any life! shld be grateful? yeah..perhaps.. i dunno..but this is no small matter..

it all happens early in the morn..i recalled back..i was lying on my bed n it was about 6 am n sumting unusual happened..i heard the unusual pace of steps and saw feets catching up with the first feet that walked passed unpredictably.. a bad feeling struck me..i feel the urge to get up on the spot n check out what on eath is happening till practically everybody was awake and in a rush..i was so suprised to hear my dad'voice calling WHAT?! ok..this is not gd bcoz my dad dun usually wakes up this early i mean he dun even have the ability to wake up since he's always staying up late at nite..

many not-so-pleasant- thoughts kept wondering in my mind n i was eager to find out what is all this about?! bad ideas took over my brain..n for once..i dun feel like finding out bcoz im afraid im about to pass out..but im choiceless..i've to face this reality..one of the reality nobody wish to face and experience..

so..i guessed everybody is as curious as i was when this 1st happened..k..as i was walking downstairs with my heart pounding so fast that im afraid it might come out? me mum was the nearest to the staircase so she was staring at me with suprise plus shocked! i hate the expression on her face..it makes me nervous..

"what r u doing here" she finally asked..
"erm..whats happening??" i replied nervously..(afraid im about to pass out to hear the news)
"the car is GONE"
"WHAT?!@@#" I gulped..

(to be continued)

2006-07-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

i seriously gotta write sumting about the world cup all though it had officially ended few days ago..i must write sumting about it before feeling guilty and unsatisfied throughout my 4 yrs!! i mean its 4 FREAKING YRS ONCE! its a massive thing u noe..and i still havent get enough of it! i want more!

world cup finals..
france lost.-i like zidane
italy won.-but i want them to win so badly..n they won! lol..

well..i got this frm sum1's blog..lol..i've no time to write my own reveal and since her opinion is similiar with mine.myself just copy lo..hope she dun mind tho..:

henry got slightly injured in the first 2 minutes, zidane got sent off in the 111st minute (tat was cool man. altho ya lar very stupid of him lar, since this is his last match, but his headbutt si beh powerful wei!!)
n the french's second penalty shootout was so stupid...
aih.. zidane walk off like tat, ending his career wit a red card. so sad..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j1i_l0OeeMc (go check out the headbutt video... classic)
"But it's a shame. It's sad. He (Materazzi) did a lot of acting and for such a big man, a gust of wind made him fall over. It's regrettable. said coach Domenech.
hahahahhaha!!!! hahahah!! how funny can tat get? Players lose their cool in games all the time. They get too mad, too desperate or too determined to get revenge on the spot, and wind up doing something stupid. But Zidane? He was about control from the moment he left the tough streets of Marseilles to begin his professional career as a teenager. You only had to see his elegant touch with the ball a few times to know that. Zidane pulled the strings on every team he played for, always able to dictate tempo and the flow of play precisely because he was always in control. According to members of the French media, French players told them that Matterazi called Zidane a racial slur which prompted the headbutt.

2006-07-10T13:04:00.000+08:00

damn..actually i typed the whole thing about my weekend but sumhow the tagboard showed out instead of the whole damn thing i was typing this whole morn! all my effort r gone in just a blink! ='( and my heart was tearing apart..anyway..i'll just have to retype it before i feel sorry for myself..so* flash back*

firstly..it was jeremy's farewell party on sat at 6pm! before that i had a nap n guess that explains y im late.. one very valuable lesson learnt! never ever fool around with the flour anymore! it kills.. bad enough to ruined my entire hair and it took me at least one an a half hour just to clean the mess on my hair! i guess thats the result of havin "too much fun"..u gotta pay for it at the end of the day! so we had dominos and kfc for dinner..credit :thanks aunty and uncle..they r reli nice ppl..im gonna miss the big one! lol..i prefer the part where water is involved..water is way better than the flour! no doubt! n i saw the pics taken on that day through minhui's my space..i looked ugly as expected! i hate taking pics! i never like to be around with the cameras bcoz sumhow the camera dislike me..lol..crappy me..

the nxt day..i woke up at 10 just to get ready for the trip to the mighty "mv doulos" organised by the C.O.O.L- koon's church..before meeting up with the rest at mcdonalds me and sm had lunch at big boy! delicious dory fish they have..great food..reasonable price..nice place..warm service..n u just gotta try it..its located at taipan.. opposite mcd and its in same row as the old time kopitiam..=)

we headed to our destination at 3pm if im not mistaken by bus..n we were treated like VIPs with special backstage entrance n so on..the crowd n especially the queue is crazy and frightening..so just feeling extremely lucky to have such privilege..hehe..n managed to buy two novels that costed me RM24 alltogether..i mean one of their highlights r the bookfair..n u just gotta to get sumting out of it rite..? so there it went..two books in hand! also, managed to try their ice-cream and a bite of their cookie..it was ok tho and kinda cheap..

anyway..later at night..had a@w for dinner since they dropped us all there..n went to PASar malam for awhile..n get to bed as soon as possible TO GET SUM REST BEFORE THE FINAL MATCH!! FIFA WORLD CUP GERMANY 2006!! and couldnt get up n so skipped school..my whole family excluding my 2nd bro watched it!

2006-07-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

just though of posting a short one before having the sleepover with my aunt for the last time..not really thelalst time but its the end of the semester and the beginning of her 3rd yr..? in uni..so she's going back 2mrw..n we will never see each other that often anymore n im so gonna miss her! im missing her alr n thats y i shall make this quick to accompany her later..

bout school..its ok..fun actully..we gotta go on9 with the guys after all the beggngs n stuff..lol..our gurl;s kh teacher cant stand us anymore..pity her actually..n so she send us to go with the guys to the com lab..lol..managed to tag n do sum stuff..n its so silly..we were actually chattin with each other all though we're in the same room n a few feet away..min was sitting exactly bside me and i was chattin with her through msn..how sweet~lol..n so were the others.. its fun n crazy at the same time but i enjoyed it..hope there'll b more of this..

n tuition was ok..ideal..

CRAVIngs!

>>sushis
>>more chocolates
>>CAkEs!-mango delighht frm secret recipe would b perfect!!

2006-07-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

i heard so much about blogging today and that makes me proud bcoz i do blog oftenly and enjoy it..its the therapy =) so tomorow is the silly test.."keselamatan" blabla..n havent start "studying" yet..all this never make my life less miserable..

im always stucked in this situation..one after another and its not fun at all..i feel sick and im really tired..can longer take it anymore..more than half of my time is spent worrying and freaking out with everything that r going on around me..its sucking the energy n the essential oxygen away frm me! many unpleasant stuff have been occupying my brain recently and formed sily thoughts..i tried not to think about it so much and all i need is focus..n sum confidence coz t.anne said im lack of it..lol..

n i just had my worst tuition ever..its terrible as usual..i dun get it..one did they accepted him in the first place..he only bring noise and eventually distraction and we just cant focus and concentrate on our subject and how can his be happening?? who allow this to happen?? whoever who did..yes offense..r u out of ur mind?? for god sake! i hope this will never repeat agin bcoz i cant bare with this anymore! seriously feel like quiting but i just can afford to bcoz..1st i can find any better tuition with such a pro teacher..2nd i dun have the time to search for one and time is running out pretty fast..in just a blink u'll find urself in the weekend..reasonable enough?

speaking about weekend..my weekend..as usual..pack like sardines it is.. on sat they'll b throwing a farewell party for jeremy..he's migrating to china end of this month and skip the PMR! =) perfect! wondering shld i get him sumting..for the last time..?

nxt..its the subday..going the the doulos ship..=) organised by koon's church and according to sm its only 2 yrs younger than the titanic and it has book fair in it..here i come,books!!i cant wait for this lil trip with koon, sm n thats it..the rest..once i hear their names..i immediately feel like cancelling it but i take gd control of myself..i wont let them spoil my sunday! not this coming sunday! im gonna have a great time exploring this marvellous and spectacular ship..with books!! this is one in a life time experience and im so gonna open my eyes hugely..=)

i hate S.A.M!! i hate her so damn much..fucking slut! arrgghh.get her off my life..never wanna speak to her! if possible..geez.. she gets on my nerves easily..!

u love me u love me noe..u love me u love me not..
u love me...................

2006-07-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

just came back frm dance class a few hours again..we're still on samba..n i got my result..i passed!! not as high as my classmates but still its ok..i got 88! lol..while they r almost perfect with just a few marks diff..well its quite alright bcoz im kinda used to be the lousy 1 already..=) so that mkes me an optimistic? lol..everybody says i looked depress n mayb bcoz i din smile enough? well.thats the feedbacks i got..i'll just try and smile more n focus by showing my alertness n expand my eyes as big as possible to show that im aware although im lilke blur most of the time..its gd to hide sum stuff out rite..lol..

anyhow..i heard sum 1 saying that no matter what everybody has their very own talent..n it means at least 1! but how come i dun find myself havin even a tiny talent..not in half a talent! n my bro is distracting me..again! ok..he's gone..so back to that..i seriously sucks in everything la..
I MEAN EVERY SINGLE TINY THINGS! i do have no talent at all! i wish im more like the almost-perfect guy that i noe..he's superb talented..no doubt and question about it..one of a kind..he's gd in everything=art,music,sports,studies n etc! i wish im the gurl's version of him..he is so successful and evrybody esp the teachers like him so much..he is simply..perfect? ok..almost perfect sounds better or else he might sound so goddess..yeah i really admires him..n guess what?! teacher just complimented about him again.."suprise, suprise"

school was ok..as usual..boring n sleepy..dozing of without fear..lol..n we-twelveans r forced to take sum silly test about safety and that we must pass or we'll have to retake over n over again until the day we passed..how great! n no sweets r allowed in the school compound..make sense? we are sum typical teenagers who juz wanna have sum SOME Fun..we aint prisoners i bet the prisoner has a better life than us..more freesdom i guess..but i still prefer to study at overseas..coz here..just simply sucks..preferable s'pore or those western countries lie australia just rocks..lol..there seems fun enough..i totally cant wait to find out who will be in the finals..italy versus.....................???? ;)

say no to bully! =)
peace out..

2006-07-03T19:33:00.000+08:00

upon min's request.. cheh..n aso my own desire.bleh..im back to post again..=) as usual..weekend=busy! so i'll just have another flash back..saturday..i cant remember what i was up to..sumting not so fun i guess..otherwise i'll definatelyy rmb..and sunday was seafield's canteen day..its cool..way better than my school i gotta admit it.. my school shld b embarrassed regarding how well cfield's canteen pulled it off..i bet they earned a great amount of $$ too..lol..spotted quite a no. of quite gd looking guys around..glad that i came..LOL..of course..met tiff,cherie, lilbrat n so many more..glad to met them..all looking gd =)

so after that..since we couldnt make it to pyramid..mum dropped us to the nearest shopping mall possible to ease our boredom and desire.? lol.. well..if u still dunno..the place is summit..so lame n lau ya.. but i had fun watchin the movie.."too fast too furious; tokyo drift" well..me aunt.. apparently 21st this yr..brought me in..lol..its 18blabla.. n im 15..so..just feeing slight lucky..n this kinda movie u really gotta watch it in the cinema to have a better view and feel..-the sound effects brought everything to alive! lol.. and im seriously loving it..its so cool n "yeng"..n that makes me wanna marry sum drift freak sumday..lol.. they looked so cool and of course irresisitable la..HAHA..unfortunatately there was no any particular cute guy showing up..feeling disappointed? YES!

school was fun..cement is seriously silly n funny..lol..brighten up my day in class..had my piano..it was ok..my teacher said i gotta really work on my practical..lack of practice..and she said my theory was ok..? way better than ok..lol.. what to do..sumhow i prefer theory more than practically..PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT!

**** character.hideous nooby face.annoyin attitude. such freaking freak personality. 2 BIG Ls= lame n loser! (im describing sumbody here..min..u might noe)
!@#$%^&*!$%&*^^%^$$^$

2006-06-30T16:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday was open day..flash back* so we-me,mum,bro n couz went around 11 sumting which was kinda late bcoz everybody was like so semangat to go so early and i dun get y.. anyway..my loveliest form teacher ever, pn.evelyn says im a gd girl..=) n that i can study..=) so mum moved along with it quite well..at least its not too bad..than later came my bro's turn..he's the opposite of me..lol.so..as expected, his teacher was complaining like shit.. lol..but he really deserves it la..mum was so pissed.. but she oni took like 5 mins to meet both of our form teachers and went back since she's running out of time again..got to work..

im starting to enjoy school again..? at least more than usual..this week had been spectacular and superb week! and to this i must thank all my wonderful and wild classmates..they make the class so alive that i became alive too.. make sense? lol .. i love em..and min remains as the best mate to gossip..lol..

today was seriously exhausted..i can barely feel my heart pounding anymore..its like im too tired till im dehydrated and eventually lack of everything n feel nothing..like a dead fish? the pj and cooking had dragged me into this..pain is gd..? but no doubt i had fun n feel so joyful.. im enjoyin it while i can..there i go again..tryin to be optimistic..lol..

so my group did the sardine roll..which in my opinion..erm..i'll just rate it a B! im not sure whether issit nice bcoz i din rellly have a chance to taste it! my very own food! that i had put in so much effort and time and sacrifice my energy and everything else..right frm the beginning where i did the dol..till the end..i feel so bad unable to bring even a tiny piece to let me mum haf a taste.. T_T i rmb i baked alot.. 3-4 trays full but sumhow its all gone in less than 5 mins! SMK USJ 12 students(particular directing it to my beloved classmates) r that starving like they havent been eating anything for the past few days.. u shld see they r all-excited n hungry looking face..so scary..!! lol.. anyway..im proud of myself..not only becoz of the cooking but sumting much meaingful and i feel like a better person..=) we learn as we grow each day rite..

the came maths tuition on such day..bad timing..anyway..had fun talking with lucas n zhongxian..more like gossipping and lots of giggling going on..they r nice to talk actually..n all bcoz of that stupid and lame chris..1 word to describe about him...UNGENTLEMEN! -the place we're sittin is hot actually..(no fan!) wanna fight with us wor..**** the hell of him la! luckily i had a great time chatting or else..he's so gonna get it frm jo n myself! we had a great laugh when we were talking about the movie..my all-time fav.. inst!!..the dialogues..words like"kanasai" lol..its irresistable and we simply laughed the hell out of it..well..just living in our own world at the corner..and lovin it..

later got sci to go..boring it is..haihz..might blog again if im havin the mood..=) u noe..this kinda thing..mood determines all..

2006-06-28T18:57:00.001+08:00

today was fun..at least gd enough to be categorised under an ideal day! i had fun actually..last two periods were wasted having lots of fun..=) but not until were this mr.apple and jving came guiding me?..guarding me it was.. pushing me to finish the not-so-interesting bk, "the outsiders" the only thing that amazed me is that this bk is written by a girl when she was 16? well..find that amazing n almost impossible..?

and teacher anne actually made her write a journal-sumting like what im doing right now about the book..according her, we shld voice our opinion wor..so we did..got scolded..not really scolding its just some guidance frm her about the task..a real tough task which im totally clueless in the beginning but thanks to apple i got an idea of it ..n its getting better..i promised! it will be! i having confident..if anybody can do it..so can i?! n yes im stepping ahead to try and be an optimistic instead of a pessimist! im tired of ppl calling me that..and throwing questions like "why r u always moody?" or why r u such pessimist?" n so on..bla bla bla..but i cant deny i can b really blur at times n looked depressed? i dunno..thats what i usually get la.. just wanna remind.."dun judge a book by its cover" ok? i might looked pissed or upset but mayb i dun mean it..im expressionless..cant blame me for that bcoz i was born in such way..

back to my day in school..so me and minhui was laughing and giggling through the whole conversation esp when we came to cc-chiichang..our topico f the day..its so hilarious..i practically burst into tears actually..min is the best gurl to talk to !! so wild n hialrious.. just the way i love it..hehe..hugs n kisses* without her the class n my day in scholl will definately b bORING! N DULL...n i'll go all depressed again..lol..thanks gurl..(attn:minhui) =)

congratulations t0 the explorer-wy, keong n 1 more guy..(sry..i dunno his name) im so glad u guys beat the delphis flat..LOL.. great job ppl!! well done..n keep it up..=) n all the best in all the upcoming matches..

thats all for now..tilll then.. c ya.. n tomorrow is the open day!! =/

2006-06-28T18:57:00.000+08:00

today was fun..at least gd enough to be categorised under an ideal day! i had fun actually..last two periods were wasted having lots of fun..=) but not until were this mr.apple and jving came guiding me?..guarding me it was.. pushing me to finish the not-so-interesting bk, "the outsiders" the only thing that amazed me is that this bk is written by a girl when she was 16? well..find that amazing n almost impossible..?

and teacher anne actually made her write a journal-sumting like what im doing right now about the book..according her, we shld voice our opinion wor..so we did..got scolded..not really scolding its just some guidance frm her about the task..a real tough task which im totally clueless in the beginning but thanks to apple i got an idea of it ..n its getting better..i promised! it will be! i having confident..if anybody can do it..so can i?! n yes im stepping ahead to try and be an optimistic instead of a pessimist! im tired of ppl calling me that..and throwing questions like "why r u always moody?" or why r u such pessimist?" n so on..bla bla bla..but i cant deny i can b really blur at times n looked depressed? i dunno..thats what i usually get la.. just wanna remind.."dun judge a book by its cover" ok? i might looked pissed or upset but mayb i dun mean it..im expressionless..cant blame me for that bcoz i was born in such way..

back to my day in school..so me and minhui was laughing and giggling through the whole conversation esp when we came to cc-chiichang..our topic for the day..its so hilarious..i practically burst into tears actually..min is the best gurl to talk to !! so wild n hialrious.. just the way i love it..hehe..hugs n kisses* without her the class..my day in scholl will definately b bORING! N DULL...n i'll go all depressed again..lol..thanks gurl..(attn:minhui) =)

congratulations t0 the explorer-wy, keong n 1 more guy..(sry..i dunno his name) im so glad u guys beat the delphis flat..LOL.. great job ppl!! well done..n keep it up..=) n all the ebst in all the upcoming matches..

thats all for now..tilll then.. c ya.. n tomorrow is open day!! =/

2006-06-27T16:15:00.000+08:00

i feel happier today compared to yesterday...but still as sleepy as usual..dozed off easily in class esp with the teacher talking in front of me..i am cansider daring esp with the open day just around the corner.. fine..i'll try my best to perform and behave well..i havent mention anything about it to my parents..call me coward bcoz i really dunno how to tell them my filthy results.i did terribly and i've no idea how to face them! T_T they expected me to do pretty well..and i hate to disappoint them..but i just did..im full of regrettions and depression right now!

arrgh..never wanna think about that anymore after this bcoz it makes me feel lousy and go all miserable and stressful..i feel so fall out! and with the the another boy sittin in front of me its not easy to deal with this..things got worst..he was teasing-insulting me lilke shit! i noe he's way better than me but he dun haf to made me feel any worse ok! sum ppl..

i hate admit this..but i want browser to beat delphi so badly!! although they defeated us in the 1st round..delphi is way out of my all this! =)

and i think im in love! lol..again..

2006-06-26T19:00:00.000+08:00

seems like a long time since i last posted.i felt uneasy about it..damn..is this what we called a habit?i hope its not bcoz i cant adopt a life like this..struggling to go on9 n blog every single day..but its quite alrightIF i have an apple laptop waiting for me in my room everyday..that will be perfectly pleasant! anyhow..my weekend is always packed but can be very boring and exhausting which is not a life i wanna adopt! i prefer to go on my slow and peaceful pace while enjoyin myself without the feeling of rush! i didnt make it for the dance dinner yestersay.kinda regretted bcoz i m still clueless about my dance result..im so freaky nervous! ong n amelia got the highest in our batch n managed to get a trophy each..their marks r 98.8% over 100% which is like ulala.. meanwhile, ong n ai tert got 97.7%..lol..not bad!! like REALLY NOT BAD! i bet im the lowest among them! no doubt!

i heard they were having so much fun.and according to amelia wy looked hot! well..im..speechless..? while ong was a bit shy?@! i was like r u kidding me! ong? shy? lol..insane n unpredictable it was! oh n b4 that..we had our dance class n we were taught sum basic samba steps..since we're now officially living on earth..having the world cup going on..so its the football fever and so we're learning samba where its originated frm brazil and the song rawks the hell off..really having the mood..but as always..i cant really get it at the very beginning! all i noe its that the song sounds great..lol...n i saw the skinny gurl dancing - jo titled her as the "samba queen".. her dancing was amazing..hardly believe it..she is real gd! my new-found idol..lol..the dance-samba seems weird but jo said we'll get used to it and eventually love it..apparently its one of the hardest so far..

and aunt was freaking me out by telling me all the ghost stories and haunted areas this few days.. that women ah..she lightens up my day and brings rainbow colours to my life..im so glad to have such a cool aunt like her! love her so much! she's more like my sister or my best friend after all she is only 6yrs older..! we were planning for our future.had so much fun planning and gossiping with her..we talked abouteverything..i mean everything! including not so appropriate ones like..virginity..? lol..yup..thats us..we can go all wild n superb nuts..but we enjoyed every single of it like nobody's business..bleh..im gonna miss her so much!! hugs n kisses to her!

not to mention there r sum hidden bitch in my class with innocent stares with completely harmless-looking look!! i just noticed it lately and u noe what! fuck her! so much for a selfish bitch! i hate my class! mayb i shld consider min's advice on committing a crime n get out of the fucking class! lol..like most of the student with awful discpline records and hideous attitutes.. yeah!

all this stuff that had been happening in my life is really inspiring! i wanna achive my goal! i wanna shine! i want success! i want a life!

i hate S.A.M!! she is the main reason y i feel so awful and miserable in my life! she is the biggest bitch so far! i hate her frm the very bottom of my heart!( i think i mentioned about her in my blog b4!) anyway..bottom line is she sucks and she is the worst humen on earth!! no.universe!! anti S.A.M!! screw her! pathetic slut! thanks for ruining my life..so i guess its time for an extreme pay back?? take care! ;P

plotting for a revenge!
am i being a pessimist?
or its just like that?

2006-06-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

my day was undescrible..so much had happened n i feel dizzy for some reasons..which im not in a mood to elaborate so just cut that out..i've been spending my time -this fri mastering the art of doing nothing beneficial or proper..but its too late to regret so i guess i'll just have to live with it and accept the fact and my fate?! naturally feeling dull as usual when things turned ugly and i feel miserable like any other day..

the inter-class thingy (netball) we didnt performed at our best! but we shld not be putting fault on each other either or whatsoever instead we shld praise n support each other to show the spirit!..i find it very frustrating when certain mates start screaming all over the place n throwing blames and pointing fingers on each and everyone..i dun think its the right thing to do and its so uncivilised.. our opponents r way stronger and tougher than us! they r true ahletes and school's representives in varies sport! they've got the skill and experience.. so u do the thinking logically and common sense.. we shld noe and understand that frm the very begining and just gotta except the fact and this fate! too much hopes and desires can kill..

so no party..no pizza and a depressed captain that expected too much and want it so badly tilll she's like out of control in the end..? but i feel that our class's football team deserves to win..they r real gd..they lost by a penalty which is like-sucks and wtf! admires kenny alot..i heard he was actually sick and in a bad shape but he still shines on..! thats what i call the real thing? bleh. sry..im crappin again..but the spirit and the love of football in him reveals all..he is gd!

and im proud to say i poured about 100ml of R.O water on the BOY siittin in front of me right on top of his head! he deserves it..LOL..yes im evil and so never mess with me! get that ppl! i wont be comin on9 2mrw due to sum lame reasons..therefore,im gonna miss my blog-here and my fav blogs too..btw try out the latest "windows live messenger"..i just dld and its quite ok..still tryin to figure out all the functions and stuff..anybody mind to teach? u noe..im like completely hopeless and useless when it comes to all this-computering and discovering some new stuff..

and i apologise for the mispress of a button, minhui im so sry..i noe it means alot to u and i feel really bad about it..y cant u haf a sony ericson which im used to and so i wont made that silly mistake! sry..shldn't put the blame on u la..its not ur fault..its all mine..my stupidity and blurness is way out of control and drive everybody wild and mad..im extremely sry minhui..let me noe if there' s anything i could possibly make up to u.. im happy to help out-feel free to accept my offer..=)

off to bed..zzZZZzz..
suffering frm this and that
pain is gd..?

2006-06-23T13:30:00.000+08:00

Your Five Factor Personality Profile
Extroversion:You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."Conscientiousness:You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.Agreeableness:You have low agreeableness.Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all.In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted.And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently.Neuroticism:You have high neuroticism.It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.Openness to experience:Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

Your Blogging Type is Kind and Harmonious
You're an approachable blogger who tends to have many online friends.People new to your blogging circle know they can count on you for support.You tend to mediate fighting and drama. You set a cooperative tone.You have a great eye for design - and your blog tends to be the best looking on the block!

what sort of artist shld you be?
You Should Be a Dancer
You have a unique combination of grace and athleticism..Whether you become a salsa dancer or a ballerina, you need to get dancing!

Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others
You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.You should major in:CounselingEnvironmental studiesLawSocial workPolitical scienceNursing

Kelly Clarkson shares my taste in music!

You Are a Normal Girl
You are 60% Good and 40% BadSure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond!
You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring.A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition.Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you.And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...!

You Attract A Good Amount of Guys
While you may not get the most offers in the room,You've got a good thing going - dating wiseYou could flirt more and dress up a bit to attract more guysBut in general, you are doing just fine!

You are a Romantic Realist
Okay, so you fall in the middle.You know that love isn't like a greeting card...Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings.You are the best of both worldsGirly yet independent, dreamy yet serious.Almost any guy can find balance with you.

Your Style is Classy
You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfitYou're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebeFor you style is looking like a million bucks...And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

2006-06-22T20:58:00.000+08:00

You Are a Boston Creme Donut
You have a tough exterior. No one wants to mess with you.But on the inside, you're a total pushover and completely soft.You're a traditionalist, and you don't change easily.You're likely to eat the same doughnut every morning, and pout if it's sold out.

You Belong in Amsterdam
A little old fashioned, a little modern - you're the best of both worlds. And so is Amsterdam.Whether you want to be a squatter graffiti artist or a great novelist, Amsterdam has all that you want in Europe (in one small city).

You Were a Deer (in past live)
Graceful and gentle, you appreciate beauty and balance.A giving soul, you are able to sacrifice for the greater good.

Slow and Steady
Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against

You Are Cherry Kiss Lip Gloss
You're a total girly girl who's every guy is sweet on.You take pleasure in the simple things in life, from cute t-shirts to stuffed animals.Any guy needs to match your romantic idealism to win your heart, which is why few have.No wonder Cherry your signature flavor. It's delicious, sugary, and fun - like you!

You Are Artemis!
Brave, and a natural born leader.You're willing to fight for what you believe in...And willing to make tough decisions.Don't forget - the people around you have ideas too!

You Attract A Good Amount of Guys
While you may not get the most offers in the room,You've got a good thing going - dating wiseYou could flirt more and dress up a bit to attract more guysBut in general, you are doing just fine!

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream
Sweet. Romanic. Genuine.

You are Milk Chocolate
A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds.You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life.Also nostelgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

here r sum off my survey's results..cant get enough of it! its really interesting!! and sumhow i found it real!! way real than i expected!lastly.. i getta find more about myself! nice to noe myself!

2006-06-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

lol..i just did sum surveys and according to it purple is the colour for my blog's layout! and not forgetting to say im a romantic kisser..woot..lol..there are more actually and its really fun and enjoyable..i'll post about it later since im running out of time again..my bro needa use the com for sum civic project which im feeling lucky of bcoz my badge has no civic this sort of thing..and i just did another survey a min ago and it says that my true love is a pisces! omg..i had a crush on a pisces y'know..so who noes..lol.. and i found my name in japanese,mexican,france and etc..

and tomorrow is the match!! im feeling a lil nervous and i cant deny i wanna beat them flat! im gonna have to go against my besties-2 of em' class.. but its just a match..friends forever! im gonna throw a big party if i win this!! so wish me luck!

and i love my grandma's cook..its reli delicious and satisfying!! yum yum yum.. but..im sure to grow- fatter every single time she is here.. just had a great dinner.. ive to reserve my energy for tomorrow morn..n shine! lol..yeah rite..

so guess thats all for today n THE-BOY-SITTIN-IN-FRONT-OF-Me!! HEHE..i feel good! XP..n todays justin's b'day? lol..and S.A.M pisses me off! again! screw her! =) adios..

i think i love u~

2006-06-21T19:02:00.000+08:00

i feel so motivated and glad that i attended such great tuition..yes it is the ace ed-venture, the most inspiring and best tuition centre ever with its own unique way and style.. i admires teacher anne alot.. she is a really capable and knowlegable woman with her own wise perspectives and incredible skills.. i obtained alot frm her.. boy.. she is one of the most talented n wise human ive ever came across..and gosh she tenses me up with a high expectations..

i totally agree with her about the exam system in m'sia..they sucks..esp the 1 with 1,2,3 and 4 thingy.. its a test..u r suppose to be testing whether how much do u understand n not on what u dont! lets say u almost got correct for that particular question but bcoz of a stupid sentence that u dun understand u'll be penalised while u got correct for the rest..in the end its still a big 0! this is unfair! its ridiculous if u sit back n think about it..well..i am not sure how to express it out..sry i shld put teacher here and speak..the bottom line is m'sia..(shake head)

school was boring as usual..lol..that freak sitting in front of me messed with me-wrong person to messed with and so..he deserves what im about to do..more to come.. im hating u bcoz of u! so live with it..n this is a reminder to all not to mess wit me..lol.. i want U to feel miserable n depress with me..i'll drag u into it without a doubt!i hate to be lonely.. =)

overall i hate certain ppl's perfomance in my school today...so fake n lame! and today was the 1st time i actually stayed back in school..pretty lame huh.. but i had tremendous fun!! hanging out with yenwen,jess,yihui n etc.. gossipping and practicing netball of coz..=) great day..n b4 that had lunch with koon n all at fatty ho-the nearest kopitiam available..the food is not so clean according to my resources..so i shared a bowl of noodles with yenwen..since she's full and im penniless..? yeah..4got to ask me mum 4 sum $$ but luckly jbee is willing to spare some..RM5! better return to a.s.a.p b4 she start bugging and telling ever1 that im having a debt and all sorts..

exhausting day it was..stayed back n practice then later had to rushed home n take a quick shower before going tuition..its not polite to go there all soaked..sweaty n smelly..lol..im gonna start mugging later and complete all the damn h/w! having mild flu right now.hope its alright..i cant afford to fall sick right now! i've things to do and conmplete..ive straight As to accomplished and competitions to win! better take sum honey n lemon..n ressstSS!! im seriously lack of rest-sleep.. vitamin c pls..

2006-06-19T19:05:00.000+08:00

well..i totally blown off my mid yearz..i feel like crap and a big failure now so sumbody pls do me a favour and shoot me! wait..nvm its ok coz the results itself had ruined me quite enough-not entirely! anyway.. life goes on.. still..its a disaster! a nightmare! so i guessed the reward for this its gonna be lots of study and a huge cut down on the computer! i seriously gotta study like a nerd! im choiceless..

i just got back frm school due to some dedicated training as the preparations for the upcomin inter-class match which will be happening..soon..nxt week..? i dunno..anyway.. guess what?! im just told that i'll be representing my class for the basketball as well..great..netball and later comes the basketball.. and im totally off and skillless but the only advantage i found in myself is gonna be my height..lol.. the only advantage! the rest r junks and craps..lol..

so the practice went ok..we had fun and our dedicated and tough captain just announced that if we won the netball she's gonna treat us pizza to act as a motivation to us..lol.. she is really putting her heart and soul in this.. so i hope we wont disappoint her and ourselves of course but our opponents r all "wakil sekolah".. so we can hardly promise anything.. its gonna be a tough game so wish us the best of luck.. obviously need that! cheers*

my day in school was not too long and not too short? lol.. i've no idea..and minhui was bz looking around and spying at every corner for her unknown and in my opinion-non existence bf entirely?..lol..sry..i've gotta say that coz im completely blur about her ???? bf..???? lots of question marks going on there.. she kept it tight like the belt around "sumbody" waist..(shake head) so tight for what..we wont bite ok!

also, gd news for kooon..the freak is finally getting his hands off her..a huge relief for her.."she said he freaks her out" lol..btw my class is competing against the browser-koon,jbee, amelia.. and so "a BIG OMG!" for that one! i've been sneezing alot today..bet sum1 is gossipping and criticising bout me me me me! after all, i major in antisocial..lol..

k..gtg..got sum serious work to be polished up..=)

2006-06-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

i'll just make this short since time is running out..my weekend had been both busy and hectic..my day was packed with lots of stuff going on.. i had my dance exam yesterday..n im just glad that its over..i really hope i can make it through..bsides that, my partner had been a pain in the eye! if i failed my exam the blame will straight away direct to him..! he is such an asshole..i dun care and im gonna spill everything out here..first of all, he was just too busy flirting with those pretty ones n left me rejected as usual and didnt wanna practice with me! till wy had to practically direct or more like order him to practise with me!! what could be worst! he is such a pathetic loser and failure..however there's no doubt that he is a gd dancer and its possible that he will passed with great marks too and all but in my heart and soul..he will always b the pathetic fucking jerk and worst freak ive ever met! i dun care if he's reading this i couldnt care less..he sucks! i dun give a single damn! hell. he makes me lose my appetite! so i guess its enough about him..

on the brighter note..i had so much fun shopping with my mum and aunt..managed to get sum really satisfying tops.. mum said she's gonna buy me a bag..hehe.a nice bag..ive no idea where to choose..roxy? mcky? well..any suggestions or recommendations do feel free to contact me..lol..i really need a proper bag..

of course not forgetting..today is father's day! so a "Happy father's day!!" to all the great father out there.. and i love you daddy!! you are the best!! with lots of love i managed to made a handmade card by me..specially and only for him..he is the best man ever! it took me 3 hrs tho..lol.. and i had a great dinner!! yumyum..met clement there and its weird..lol..then later pass by yong tau foo caught a glimpse of wooi keong..lol.. had dinner at the korean bbq restaurant in taipan again.. the feast costed RM200 sumting but i guess its worth it.. the place inspired us to renovate our new hse.. and best part of all.. we had fun!

lastly..treasure ur parents as much as they treasured u!!! =)

2006-06-16T18:33:00.000+08:00

school was boring but fun..lol..i've no idea what does that mean.. anyway fri is the best! shorter hour of school and also my nice lil satisfying timetable..but take note: only fri..the rest of the weeek are just a bunch of shitzz..firstly, 2 periods of PE!! we do practically nothing..just listen to teacher about the inter-class competition that wil b going on soon..later, nilam..no idea where is the teacher.. so we just enjoy while we can and then comes the recess!! ate tomyam and it sucked! never gonna buy that again..after that, apparently i've 3 periods of kh-living skills..but 2 periods of it were more like relief..so free got nothing to do so i wanted to put my mind back to my reading..but there were these two bloody annoying assholes that simply cant stop irritating me by kicking my legs and feet and dirty my white shoes! i reminded them a couple of times not to mess with me but they juz wont listen so i have no choice but to use MY WAY! i was so pissed that ive no idea how i did it but i twisted their foot and the nxt thing i noe they were screaming pain..LOL..i had warned them frm the very beginning but humans-guys just dun listen so i have no guilty or anything to feel but great..and they were told by me personally that.."i repeat; dun ever mess with me again! or you'll definately b sorry" and "rememmber the name: chong chin fong"! lol.. n yeap..i can b..heartless..? lol.. ok..better prepare for the last practice..feel the heart beat? its beating 100X faster!! hope im not gonna pass out..arrgh..feel like bashing up sum butts!

2006-06-14T18:40:00.000+08:00

ok..so i just got back frm my english tuition and managed to write this before i continue doing what i am supposed to do-not to mention piles of h/w waiting on the line..i do enjoy teacher anne's class..especially when she is doing some serious talking about some really interesting topics and issues..im not been sarcastic ya..in case anybody got the wrong msg..i am saying bcoz..she is real good! in fact no matter what it is..she can just pulls it off by sounding perfectly interesting and entertaining like always..well..thats wat i called a teacher..she totally gained my respect and salution..i feel real comfortable in this particular class like no other tuition..but it can b pretty demanding due to the high expectations and requirements and makes me go all depressed again..unfortunately..but i still like it very much..i wanna achieve all the skills she offers..i bet i wont have a tough time in australia..lol..(in future, if possible, further my studies there) if i complete this perfect program..it'll all just b a bar of chocolate..=)

she was talking about human rights..women's right to b exact..lol..guys shld reli show some respect to the ladies man! and also about rape..?lol..i noe..sound weird rite..firstly..she got so emo when the publicity n almost everyone else thinks that is our-girl's fault and she went like "hello" ?? we?? typical humans.. everything she said is just so real n true! based on some research and observations too..such a wise lady..lol..thumbs up!

in the meantime, i really hope nothing turns ugly at this particular moment..with my dance exam coming around the corner!! n its confirmed that its this sat!! omg..i cant feel myself breathing..did i just passed out??? aikz..i can feel my heart beating real fast tho.. i really hope to pull it off..i mean..i really havent been pulling anything off all year long..its time to shine! or at least make it through..

o/20-blame u noe who!

2006-06-13T16:32:00.000+08:00

ok..so yesterday was the "1st" day of school..guess what's the first thing that came out frm my mouth when i reached there at the usual spot..** "i hate school!"** and ditched my bag at the side feeling down down down..i just hate it when it comes to the doing work part where there r all the scary n pushy teachers' faces around period by period.. n also a mind full of work to do!! as in homework!! i dun mind to do all the work in school with teacher around giving us some spare time-sitting on the desk but i seriously hate it when i've gotta bring it home to do it..so frustrating.. anyway..i dun not feel anything..at least not like what i though it would..its just two weeks of hols..so what can i feel..nothing..no sense of missing school or anything else..seems like just yesterday..just a blink of eye and here i am..back to the boring old sickenin school..

conclusion-->2 weeks is fast! just a blink..

better complete my h/w..i dun wanna b screwed.. homework sucks!!
need to do some clever research about environment and wildlife..(sighed)

2006-06-11T18:43:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is school!! so its back to the boring and hectic school life again..also..end of the semester and i now declare the war of PMR is eventually starting in no time! so grab ur gadgets and whatever needed and b well- prepared for the battle!

and i just realised how near my dance test is! next week! n im still clueless about the date!blurrrrr me! i really hope i can pull this off!! i havent been pulling anything off recently and i feel like a huge failure.. so hope this will work out..IT BETTER BE!! cost me quite alot just to take this latine american test all though i noe frm the very beginning that im not a very gd dancer..in fact im the worst in the class-i mean all the girls r highly experienced,they learn ballet and stuff..i mean they got the base! so..that explains y..

im gonna practice later again..n im gonna wear the outfit i bought specially for this event..really hope it pays off..with all the perseverance and practices i attented! and lots of sour faces i got! im such an anti-social when im in my dance class..lol.. i've no idea why and where did it went wrong..but i bet they think im lame and such an anti social which i dun really care..as long as ppl who noe me and as well as myself noe the real me! which is of course love makin new frens like everybody else..and have a good laugh together..

back to the dance..its latino~.. so we'll try and look as latine as possible..by wearing short skirt..(latine=sexy) and etc..lol..
unfortunately im just not the sexy one..therefore..i'll just close my eyes and hope it wont look funny or anything like that when its on me! not talking about stunning and outreageous here..

really need some luck! i havent got any lately..so can u spare me some for this time pls?

2006-06-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

feeling so depressed right now due to the breakouts im currently facing.. i hate to admit and say this.but im one the unfortunate teenager that is suffering from all this miserable problems..but why me?? sickening shit! i once heard "they" said that once u r in bad luck condition..everything will eventually turn worse and worse and nothing goes right! well..this is what is applying to me right now! bad things r falling right on my face! so i guess this philosophy can b real and true enough for the helpless me to believe!

ok..here comes the most embarassed and worst day of my year! i hope it is actually so that i wont have to face anymore embarrassment in this year bcoz i really had enough! well..about the embarrassing moment of my life..its extremely embarrassed that it had come to a point where i have no courage to tell it in my very own blog itself! so i just hope anybody who is reading this can imagine how bad it was.. i'll help u out by giving u a clue..just imagine sumting truly embarrassing..and u feel like screaming ur head off..so u do the imagination!

therefore, this makes my mind wonders whether if this ever occurred to anyone before?? if yes, i'll be definately feel way better ..i mean having some one to accompany and share the same the same kind of moment is a valuable gift! it proves that u r not the only retarded 1!-well that makes me feel a whole lot better! but i bet nobody would wanna experience such thing not if like is concerned..terrible and awful it was! you feel lilke hiding frm everyone else or better just wear a mask for the rest of ur life..and why is it me again?? why picked me?-this is a question i've been asking since forever when sumting turns ugly..all this is reli putting me on the edge! im miserable enough so no worries!

all i am asking for its a good life and im not talking about perfect here..just enough for me to feel glad n grateful will do..why cant things just turn out the ideal way or at least nothing awful or pain! seems like nothing in my life pulled off! im totally in a horrible, feel like crap and sickenin situation where i dun find life interesting and where is the hapinness??

the only solution to make me feel any better is to take it not seriously? but..its about me here!! so how on earth can i take it easily! i just hope it wont spread out! thats all im asking for now! and please dun ask me wat it was bcoz im falling apart badly enough! advises and words of wisedom of course will be likely! im in a need of an iPod!! music do keeps me alive!! and dad practically promised me to get me one and i sure hope he holds on to it! "looking at the pitiful and helpless child!"-directing to myself..

2006-06-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

I'm tryin n writing this using my fone.. I discovered how to use the internet on my fone after so long.. Will continue later.. The nxt post will b about the true bad n most embarrassing day ever..

2006-06-10T01:26:00.001+08:00

this is interesting..

The rules:
1. The tagged victim have to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time.There is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING

gender wanted: a male pls

1.) physical look-doesnt have to b extremely gd looking like leehom or edison..not too bad,ok ok..gives me appetite
2.) physical body-gd built up body..muscular but not over-muscular(look gross) must have a nice chest for me to lean..
3.) ONLY loves me more than anything else in this universe-more than himself(willing to die for me)
4.) accept my everything-my weakness n so on
5.) rich..?.. will b perfect but average will do..(as long as he can afford a condo at least, car,nice diamong ring etc.) in another word..as long as he doesnt faces financial prob..bcoz ill ended up as the victim eventually..well this is reality ok..
6.) easy to communicate with
7.) must have at least a talent to amaze me-piano,drum,guitar, art anything will do..
8.) must be awesomely romantic and sweet

can i write more points?? lol..yes..i m pretty greedy..ok..nvm..fair enough..

ok..ill tag everybody in my list plus one more person.. perhaps..yumi-chan ? since my list has 7 persons only..ok..that makes it 8 den.. cheers*

***mission accomplished**

2006-06-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

ok..so back to the bbq..it was fine..ok..maybe more than fine..it was actually fun! yeah..i had a great meal..and sum games..its not as bad as i expected..honestly..hope they'll organise more of this then..im looking forward for it..lol..it'll definately b better if.........anyway..still good..

im craving for sum soft drinks rite now..lol..mayb bcoz the thirst after having sum teebits-not sure how to spell tho..chips la..makes me feel dry..while watching the world cup..germany vs costa rica it was..its 4 yrs once..so cant afford to miss it..i cant wait for the finale all though this is just the beginning..1st match..n im already talking about the final..lol..im fast and impatient..

and i bet tomorrow its just another one of those boring day..i'm promising myself to complete all my h/w and juz remind there is the dance rehearsal at night..better not forget about it like last week..i've enough prob with him..dun wanna create more hate between us..n i juz realised how gd sum ppl can b..seriously esp the sporeans..they r extraordinary gd..here i go again getting all excited over singaporeans??lol..i juz cant help but to admire and salute them..! they r just so divine and no doubt they all have great minds-perfect educations..

i wish to study there b4 i further my studies anywhere else..australia is my main pick for the future! speaking about future im completely clueless over it..i have no idea what i want..again, i just hope sum1 can come up to me n guide me properly in the best way possible so that i wont make the slightest mistake in my future, my life. i want things to work out! i hate to admit this, but things do not seems to worked out the way i wanted it! its almost like nothing worked out in my life..sad case..

2006-06-09T14:03:00.000+08:00

well..i guess its an obvious that i made sum changes to my blog..lol..yeah..i've notice something familiar and its juz so me..all my blog skins i chose have butterflies in it! yes..i love butterflies..goes with the theme~ metamorphosis..and this time around..purple is the colour! while pink is the colour for my previous one..still i love this two colours equally much!

ok..no yes..i've make up mind n decided to go for the bbq thingy..so wish me luck..(rmb the annoyin freak i was saying-he is going!) anyway..yeah..i had a tough time convincing n pursueing sm to go..n its tiring bcoz she is so studborn at times..its quite an achievement/accomplishment to be able to get her into it..koon..u better thank me! ok..read tiff'blog about her confessions.. n realised i haf so many confessions to make too..(i experieced sum of it too) well..she is gd..anyway but the laziness in me juz put me on the edge..i havent finsh my h/w n all the other stuff..how am i gonna survive living in this hectic n boring world!

i'll try n continue with this later about the bbq..it better b nice..(yeah..i can b very demanding!)
n no longer can wait anymore for THE WORLD CUP!! ive waited for 4 damn yrs n its more than enough!! yes..havin the world cup fever like everyone else.. =)

2006-06-08T20:28:00.000+08:00

it seems like a long time i last updated..so much had been happening...so many changes occurred lately and im just trying to get used of all this..its tough..i must be persevere..anyway..many ppl had been reminding me about school..i have no idea whether i shld b thanking them for reminding or the other way around..no doubt i hate school..n everything in there..(nice complaining it to cherie-share the same interest,lol..) well.had my bm tuition today..had been sucky as usual..never anjoy any bit of it..mayb only the part where cc was crappin casually..ppl juz love camwhoring but unfortunately i never enjoyed it..lol..i was thinking mayb bcoz i looked ugly all da time..lol..well..gurls r gurls..never get enough of complaining about everything.. i hate my days.its so boring n miserable..why???and 2mrw.. koon's youth group is havin a bbq..im still considering whether shld i attend..i hate to see 1 particular person in there!! aikz..this will b much much much easier if sm can confirm it now! i cant make up my mind! i hate it when i actually haf to crack my head deciding! choices and decisions make me feel sick! pls send sum1 over to choose for me..tq! n if possible pls change everything in ma life..coz im sick of this hell life n i juz wanna start it all over again..perhaps like a game..? n that all im wishing for rite now..so may i know where is the best wishing well u can find on earth??

2006-06-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

i noe its kinda late..but i juz feel the urge to blog..its been a long n tiring day..im worned out..anyway..im planning to go straight to bed after this..what a day~ my legs r sore! resulted of the dance lesson n aso rehearsal later at night..this is driving me..tired? but its still nice..i am starting to love it and not dislike it or anything like that..the main reason i dont enjoy is not the dance and definately not my instructor..she is a sweet n capable lady i adores..she is sumbody i look up to..my role model! its just that.the ppl there and aso i feel kinda left out..why cant ppl just b frenly and considerable all the time..ok maybe not all the time..what about sometimes?? instead of having a great time while ignoring sum other ppl y cant they just b more socialize?? wait im not sure who to blame on the not sociable bcoz i dont think im but i tried..haihz..nvm..n i have been doing some thinking and wondering..n there is this thng that can came across my mind..why sum ppl juzt simply haf a wonderful, luxurious and close to the perfect life..there is this girl i noe..she is hot..such a babe that is love by everyone..n she is rich-omg u cant imagine how rich she is! she has what a girl wants! i mean she has everything it takes n frankly..im jealous..lol..i mean she really has it all-the look,money,fame,friends,talents and etc..the list goes on...a few hundred pages is possible..aikz..so i have make up my mind..im not gonna sit there n look at how drop dead gorgeous and perfect her life is.. i m gonna wok hard to earn it myself-its gd to think positively n make urself feel gd rite..lol.i mean its gd to dream! dream BIG! oh yeah..after the dance..at 9pm! me and my family managed to pay a visit at bukit jalil, the stadium to admire some really good suff-lightings..its the ASIAN LANTERN FESTIVAL..RM5 per entry..im not sure if its worth it..but i haf a great time with my family..a family day out.. we were amzed by the dragon that is made up of plates and bowls..seriously..u gotta see it urself..such an eye-opening experience..most of te stuff there are created n made in china..china ppl rocks~! that was wat i concluded..n yes..i was half way dead? i mean i juz had my dancing n now walking around like? i dunno..i was witing for my hair to dry n it is dried so..i guess its time for a good nite sleep..ZzzzZZz..i havin piano 2mrw..better complete my h/w n practice..before my teacher murders me..im afraid im getting on her nerves..she is way out of control dealing with me and my dilemmas..lol..i am not an easy going student esp when it comes to things like..piano? n etc.. =)

2006-06-03T22:54:00.000+08:00

I had learnt my lesson.. never intake 4 cups of coke in a day..it makes you feel so miserable n such torture!! U can hardly feel urself breathing..its like as if everything its stuck/jammed..n u r short of oxygen but is simply filled with carbon dioxide and u never wanna experience it..bcoz as far as im concerned it sucks! Haihz..only stupid n insensible ppl like me will b drag to this kinda situation unconsciously..i hate to admit this but sometimes I I just lost my direction n go my way..my stupid dumb way..har..well..thats juz so me! Bleh..i feel like crap now..>.< the stupid streamyx still cant work!! Almost the whole day except morning coz im pretty sure my bro had a great time playin maple..n now I seriously cant feel any oxygen inhaling into me lung..n its so suffocating! So hard to breath!! Im weak myself n plus this..my life MIGHT b shorten..life sure is difficult..so many problems to face but worst of all now im currently facing sum health problem here..so can u imagine wat its like in future..oh no..im really running out of oxygen!!! Help!! Im drowning!!! Geez..i better haf sum rest n lay down..im breaking down!! Wait..i still wanna meet shawn n express my love to him…(guai..guai..guai..) boy, im really out of my mind but cant blame me coz im basically unconscious.

2006-06-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

I hate streamyx!! stupid streamyx!I pay the same amount as everybody else but just can’t use the facility provided well!! This is so frustrating!! Lousy service!! Wat the hell!! And according to them..This only occur at klang valley area!! Crap! I guess I shld juz move them!- I wrote this using the Microsoft n I shall cut n paste later to upload my entry in no time..Arrgh..perfect! awesome! Wonderful! its the holiday n I cant go online!! Worst thing..i hate sam!! She’s ruining my life and not to mention my appetite!! She makes me sick!! I hate her frm the very bottom of my heart!! I hate her!! I hate her!! I hate her!! She is the worst person I’ve ever met in my 15yrs of life!! Bitch and slut r the perf3ct words to describe her!! I hate her!! I never like her but now I finally realized how much I hated her!! Nothing can cure this!! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!i hate her n I will continue to hate her!! She has the worst characteristic and personality..she is definitely not someone u shld look upon..she is the worst arsh **** ****** ****** ***** ***** **** ****** beeyatch!! she is such a pain in the butt!! Full of crap n bullshit!! Horrible, hideous, miserable n pathetic she is!! Good gracious..she only brings embarrassment n humiliation to us and the whole nation..no..i shld say the entire universe!!!! So ashamed of her..i bet the aliens will b laughing at us of such bloody human! This completely hopeless creature brings pain to my eyes..n i never wish to lay my eyes on her!! Not at all..no thank you!

2006-06-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

today was a tough day for me! i quarrelled with practically everybody in da hse! well..they just cant live with the fact that im not very patient and hot tempered!! i can b very "hardgoing" person.so stop messing with me! n lucky enough the whole usj 11/3 blackout..=tuition is off..yippee..but we still have to replace anyway..still..i feel good since im not in the mood for any tuiton at this moment-holidays..well..before that..we had 1 hr or so of tuition before we decided to call it off..so at that time..its getting darker u see..so..we had no choice but to continue on da ringkasan b4 we end this..cc was using wy's cell to erm..make gd use of the backlight? yeah..according to him..he cant see..so..later on O cant stand anymore but to pass him a real torchligh..a big one..that can zoom..obvioulsy he had fun using it..lol..i mean he is chii chang ok! lol..so i bet those who knows him will noe la..we are so dedicated till we decided to end the tuition when its so dark n HAWT!! sweatzz r drippin!! anyway..i juz realised how much i love blogging n how it gives me a sense of belonging..also, noticing how much i love reading others' blogs..i've been visitin many blogs but sry to say..i did not tag coz im da stranger..lol..(never speak to a stranger) so...at least sumbody is reading rite..lol..i always bare that in mind just to feel appreaciated n etc.. all though i noe frm the very beginning that my blog is dull n that there are so many other blogs out there that r way better than mine..im missing some of my frens adi..but luckily i juz met up with jess yesterday..it was a pleasure to c her..i mean she is the closest one with me in class..hmm..bout class..im kinda left out in class sometimes..due to the fact that everybody actually haf their own gang n dun wish to haf any1 other their own lovely gang members..its kinda sad and pathetic to think about it..where is the unity?? we are suppose to get along TOGETHER!! not in separate ways..well..this is humans we are talking about..but i cant blame them for everything..i guess im just not good enough..(sigh)-btw if u realised..that line was frm tom(inst)teeheehee..

2006-05-31T21:07:00.000+08:00

I permed my hair again..its much curlier compared to the previous one..bcoz I requested for a curlier one so that the curl wont go off easily like wat happened! We learn frm lessons..Dad brought mum’s car for service n therefore, no transport for us..n since we were so desperate n no longer can wait..we called up 1 of my mum’s n aunt’s fren, buddy to pick us up n drop us at the saloon for sum serious treatment!! Im quite satisfy but I dun think my aunt is..she was grumbling about the hair is too curly n so on…….(goes on and on but no ending!) hope its not over curly though..im afraid ill look like sum aunty..reli old ones..hideous n awful it is! Anyway..my bro invited his best fren..tat shing for sleepover.. I heard he is super rich n only son! Woot~ he bought sum reli nice n expensive chocolates n I guess that really proves it all.. he is an ahlete too..very dark n tall one! My bro is a head shorter n I cant do anything but laugh bcoz he looks like a dwarf walking wit him..no offense but he shld eat more rice la..he is a guy y’know!! For me, its oni “qualify” if a guy is -more like must at least 175cm tall n muscular..but not too muscular..can see the body shape not too bad then can consider pass..n i hate those skinny skinny ones with no muscle o whatsoever at all..n tall!! Like a bamboo..i mean u r much better off a bamboo stick!! What is the diff anyway?? I really cant stand and hope to tell him u r so geli n not macho wei!!

2006-05-31T20:42:00.000+08:00

I almost miss out the best part on that day..this should come under “malaysia” funniest video. This is really hilarious..me n koon was laughing our heads off while bouncing up and down like sum maniac..this was also the most embarrassing part of all..but I guess this happens all the time..n occur to most ppl b4..but still its so hilarious..my mum is a good bowler and there is no doubt about it..her scores r amazing..u couldn’t believe..an aunty like her scores 100 points each time! I gotta admit how proud I was n koon was like going “so cool”, “ur mum rawkzzz man” n kept screaming “u go auntie!!” n guess wat came nxt.. mum was acting like a pro(of coz)..with all the gestures..wait..she is one..anyway..thats no the point! Everybody was so curious n waited patiently to see what the mama’s got..n was expecting sumting really huge to happen.. strike o sumting..u noe that sort of thing in a bowling..wow..all the jaws were opened widely..n there she goes..n OOOPS! Sumting came to us..what was it..erm..ITS THE BOWL-the ball!! N what issit doing here.. wait..it s frm..MY MUM!! She was grinning at us..with her stunning posture..POINTING!...and when we finally realize that she bowled erm..backwards? we were..laughing like sum mad cows..n the lame boy juz ran away..im suppose to b hiddin myself as well coz most of them were WATCHIN but I juz couldn’t help it but laugh! This is sumting I sure wont forget..n i cant wait to tell every1!!! Ouch..my stomach hurts!! Teehee..

2006-05-29T19:07:00.000+08:00

today was a waste of time..i seriously regretted for going out with that geek..he thinks he is so cool n mighty..XP.. but the rest r fine..wk n jus r steady n nice..juz the way i like it esp wk..but that fellow..sucks..i hate him.. so far he is the worst guy i have ever met..n he thinks ss is lame n noob..well..look who's talking now! pathetic ungentleman loser..n bcoz of this boring event..i skipped my piano class!!! dumb me! i will never allow this to repeat..luckily there is koon to back me up..she so sweet n adorable..u can spot ppl looking at her everywhere she goes..very proud to haf her as my best fren..hehe..n aso she is tall..n best part was when we met a cute~ guy..i bet that guy was obessed n stunned by her beauty..lol..coz she kept smiling at him..lol..sumhow we managed to dumped them a few times to haf sum personal time of our own..its nice to go shopping wit the best girlfren ever u noe.. n i realised my blog is seriously loong..but u juz cant stop once u start..get wat i mean? its hard to make it short..i mean..its a looong day y'know.. anyway..its my blog..so its up to me..=) watched da X-men..again, no comment..i dun wish to offend anybody..fantasy it is.. wat can i say?? mutants rox?..n thats all i can say..ZZzzZ..n i cant wait to reperm my hair again.. i seriously must go 2 da saloon wit my aunt 2mrw..i reli cant stand my hair anymore! i have no idea wat it is..its not straight nor curl anymore..its so WEIRD! anyway..im so glad my aunty will b perming as well..the duo..im still waiting endlessly for him to blog..n hopefully he will post up sum pics for my desires..oh yeah..i had two slices of da scrumptious brownies with ice-cream n chocolate indulgence frm secret recipe..since im not in the mood of havin sumting heavy but fattenin..lol..n now my bro r rewatching da inst again..he memorised the whole thing perfectly! lol..its kinda funny..but im very used too it anyway.. there was this line.."many monks n lil nun.."lol..n so on..n if i wanna tell..i can never finish it..not today at least..we juz couldnt get enough of the movie n im still going gaga over shawn..i noe its kinda stupid..well..oh no..i juz rmb there is only 2 more days to go b4 sm's b'day..n i still havent get her sumting nice..more like completely clueless to get her sumting..she has everything..i mean wat can u expect.. rich n oni child..hehe..juz hope she'll like watever i pick for her..haihz..y cant ppl juz b satisfy wit whatever they haf..wait..im not satisfy..ok..guess its enough for today..im so exhausted n cant wait to get a hot n steamy shower n continue reading the bk i bought..love & peace!!

2006-05-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

words to describe my day..tiring,boring,same, n etc.. haihz..i had been having bad feelings evrytime before i attend my tuitions..its like sumting bad its about to happen..n this occur every single time before my tuitions..n that makes me feel like skipping all the tuitions which i cant afford to do..just like today..i had my ballroom n latine dance class..im still not sure whether is this what i want..we'll c n i'll determine it myself after the test..if the result comes out not bad..i might consider continuing coz i reli dun wanna waste everybody's time n money..so 1stly was class as usual..wy n amelia couldnt make it bcoz they r out on holidays..everybody's going on a holiday anyway..later, at night was something like erm..rehearsal? i cant remember what its call..short term memory again..anyway its sumting like practicing to prepare for the upcoming test...ong is driving himself insane by tensing up like anythin else..juz hope he wont tense up n did terribly..lol..n now he is officially my "partner" wonder whether who could b worse..chhehh..its not dat bad afterall la..he can lead..n thats the most essential item in dancing..guys must reli noe how to lead n dance well..n help the partner -gurl out..if the guy sucks..everything will b ruined! how pathetic..anyway..i haf confident in him..i am suppose to b so..wish us luck! reli need 1! i shld call him up an make an "appointment" with him so that we can practice..not aiming for perfection..enough to pass will do..well..this holidays..i guess i'll juz spent my precious time practicing the dance n my piano..what a wonderful holiday..suprisingly..i cant find the holiday mood in me! reallly dunno wats got into me lately..im getting weirder n no sense of direction in everything..SENSES PLS COME BACK! i might "redo" my hair again..lol..=_=" n pamper myself with a nice skirt to go wit the dance..

2006-05-27T01:53:00.000+08:00

first of all..i would like to explain myself about the www.youarelame.com website!! its suppose to b a prank..or whatsoever..i dun mean to create those things..ive no time for that..n i repeat..im completely hopeless in all this..so how can i haf da ability to create 1-website..even this blog had brought me so much trouble n till i gotta seek help! n tiff..pls dun misunderstood le..u r kinda harsh..T_T u can just easily get 1 buy typing...www.(type somebody's name-as in anybody).youarelame.com.. as simple as that..so what's the fuss?? anybody can do it..
p/s:i dun mean to offend anyone in any case at all..n if i did..im reli sry..i dun mind to apologise if i have to.. so chill..n compared wit wateve dat fellow did to me..this is nothing! the scars stay..the pain is unforgettable..n da humiliation remains..i hate to say this..but..this is too much! i had enough n all i wish to do is to stay away frm all this-"dangerous zone"! its all over..ill never wanna repeat about this anymore..n im not gonna allow all this to repeat..all i wanna do is to enjoy the remaining of my life..life is short! unwanted ppl is out of my way! nothing will stop me frm having my own sweet time..(i might sound lame n etc but guess what i dun giv a damn!)
again this is not directing to anyone at any sense..

+**say whatever u want..i am still wat i am+**

2006-05-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

i am suppose to b sleeping now but i sneaked out..who cares? its not like i've to wake up early in da morn to go to school anyway..yes..im skipping school again..no spirit for school..its a waste of time to celebrate the teacher's day n my least fav.."gotong-royong"-clean up the mess resulted of the canteen day..however,i bought sumthing for my fav teacher dee..i've no idea y sum ppl actually love the school so much..thats something weird that i'll never understand..but i hope to explore and understand..mayb im just too passive n pessimist all the time..that is the prob with me..i juz cant find a way to enjoy life-school life..schooling in m'sia sucks anyway..so boring n sickening..y cant v b a bit la da sporean or how perfect it will be if i was born n study there..they have so much space n freedom..unlike us..always stuck doing sumting completely useless..n all this rules r driving me nuts..y cant v hav remedial classes instead of tuitions..y cant my school haf sumting called the Leo club etc..i have so much to complain but so lil time n space..i dun think ive the strengh to change it anyway..so wats the point! im extremely not satisfy with all tis..im gonna do sumting to make sure i wont feel so unlikely in future..or at least come up with sum ideas to make myself feel good..im mentally n physically disturbed n the weird thing is..i dun even noe y?? sumbody pls gime sum guidance..proper ones..i feel like screaming my head off!! this is so frustrating!@$^!&* n where is my dad?? he is suppose to b home sleeping by now..still out clubbing..(shake head) i wanna do sumting extreme n fun..sumting out of the box..any ideas? looking forward for everybody's feed backs..=)

2006-05-25T20:28:00.000+08:00

its been an exhausting day..im afraid that my day on this canteen day is juz ok..nothing spectacular happened-as i expected..at least not like min's..i bet she had a blast with her crew..good thing to haf her n da wild gang with their superb ideas as our classmates..i heard we did pretty well..more like the best!! good job u guys!!we r tremendously proud of u guys!! we earned alot! despite that,the best part for me..ill have to say is when i finished selling the currypuff...100pieces in less that 3 hrs..its a valuable achievement..lol..i noe it might sound kinda lame though..lol..min doing table talk while im selling currypuff..but its still good..its for the class-us! i gotta admit i had fun forcing them u buy the currypuff..lol..but jess shld hav all da credit..well done again!! our class organised "the table talk"-main, currypuff, spaghetthi-extra cheese =).. n another game..came back home dead tired.. took 2hrs of nap..n rushed to tuition..manage to got there on time..but no biggie..sumbody is late again anyway..i hate dat tuition..worst in ma life..anyway..got to talked to koon but just a quick one..poor gal..everybody has their own troublesome prob..cant run away frm it..its juz simply a part of life..! but y????

2006-05-24T18:42:00.000+08:00

today was boring..nothing much about school..everybody was busy doing last minute preparations..typical students of m'sia..runs in our blood ..no doubt i had a great time watching n its so funny..seeing them running around blindly..sum busy "pursueing" more like forcing to get ppl to put on orders for their products..one of them-no longer can stand my class..practically **** us all..he said"**** this class"(pss..u noe who u r) tuition at teacher anne's was ok..v had to do sum posing..like a statue..i did weirdly..as usual..n managed to get only an A-..its fine coz many of them got the same grade too..n i was so glad that teacher mentioned about the beneficial n cant-live-without internet..its a necessity in this century?? she said she'll help us to convince our parents..who doesnt agree with us stuck up with this tempting thing here..seriously..i did learn alot frm this..such an eye-opening experience..i'll get my dad to talk to her if i have to.. no problem..b my guest..btw..watched da vinci code in pyramid yesterday..using my aunt's fren's student card..lol..smartie idea frm me aunt..she always has the brightest n most brilliant idea..no comment on da movie..not in a position to comment..after all, its a tough piece that costed millions of dollars..

2006-05-23T17:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday was amazing! of course..it was my" aunt"-she is only 6yrs older than me.. 21st b'day!! here..i repeat..read my lips: 21st..which means..she's finally old enough to practically do everything! well..at least she is old enough to get in to a club or pub without having to show any ids ..get married without the need of her parents approving it n so on..she can register right away without any parents approvement, signature o whatsoever..how "cool" is that!! cant deny..my lil aunt is older liao..wait..but..yet..no sign of her knight..i wonder what had gone wrong?? we are worried for her..lol..anywhere she had an awesome n blasting time..it was her most unforgettable 21st b'day ever!! she told me that..im not making it up..she was so touched that i can see tears rolling down frm her cheeks..she was on vacation with her frens-since young to sum island-but erm im not sure which island..n blew her candles in da middle of nite bside da beautiful beach..later, when she was back..had another round of party with another gang of her frens..altogether she had 3 cakes..2 frm secret recipes n 1 more frm berry's..so watelse can u ask for?eat all u want.. not to mention all her presents..i was shocked n was muttering NOT FAIR all the time..seeing all this somehow reminded me of how my frens r..(forgetful-dun bother to wish-not dat i can count on them for anythin) how can she has such a great life that is invisible in my life..mainly bcoz she has a bunch of trustworthy n crazy frens..went in to Uni..n so on..

however..i had a great time too..1stly..my lunch was with da japan..sushis-king..later..at dinner..i was havin a meal with korea..n personally..im happy to do a gd deed..that is advertising for the benefits of others.. n so its highly recommended to everyone to haf a try at the korean restaurant at taipan! opposite McD..(2nd floor) i must admit the mouth-watering food..overwhelmed service..comfortable setting..its priceless-its really worth the price..such an honour to have them as near as Taipan! u must definately neet to give a try or you'll definately regret..lol..m i overdoing it? ok..guess its enough bout the food..n i really cant stand da annoyin DESPERATE jerk who has no self-conscious at all.. its so obvious he's extremely desperate for sum love..juz too bad he aint gonna haf even a tiny bit..n yes im cursing him..all the worst to him..n i dun give a damn! freaky jerk..get a life! -im not tryin to sound cool o wat..(pls dun get me wrong) its just i really cant bare with his "lame" attitude..(hehe..im good at picking sum lines frm my all time fav movie i discovered this yr..) currently feeling so stressed out..watelse-exam results..

2006-05-21T17:32:00.000+08:00

mum is seriously getting on my nerves!! i cant believe it!! she lied n guess what! this is not the 1st time!! always never hold on to her promise! wat a role model!! dumped us n went out to dunno where! get ur ass back here! im so pissed!! i waiting endlessly..worst part is im starving..i can hear my stomach roaring! where is everyone!! i still need to grab something for ahmin and yee le..im so gonna bash them up when they return..torture my stomach more la..

2006-05-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

i am suppose to be sleeping now..but..cant help it..im just too disobedient..i pity my dad lo..watching tv alone in the middle of nite..hm..mayb i shld accompany him later..after all..im still daddy's gal..=) well..before this..my brother practically attacked me n ended up hurt..fatal ending..the both of us..he got bruises everywhere while i cut my elbow..my mummy was screaming at us like the end of the world.."ok, i got it, u may stop now"-reacted me..oops..n there she goes again..even louder n more powerful..so..me n my bro..mainly im da victim la..juz haf to listen lilke "tom n jerry" in da inst lo..ok..dad's here..he finished he show..meaning..its time for me to get to bed!!..ill just haf to continue with this 2mrw..nitez..ZZZzzz

part2
ill just make it short..so v fought..n my bro was to b said guilty..so he treated me like a princess..of course..i have to make good use of it..anyway..i woke up at 1pm! n had an awful brunch..frankly, i spent my whole sat either sleeping o watchin tv and stay here..kinda wasted..

2006-05-19T18:11:00.000+08:00

2006-05-19T15:46:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since my last post..ive been longing to blog forever..n now i finally did.. (sigh of relief) im back! feel the energy??..lol..n now may i have the honour.. to declare that the mid-year examination is finally over!! its all over..wait thats not the end..more to come..*(bare in mind)*-the results.. i really hope i could turn back time..that way..i might reduce my mistakes(which is quite a no. of it)so for now..all i can afford to do is to pray hard n wait 4 a miracle to happen..hopefully i wont flunk my science..geo..n etc..well..let's face it..im not reli a happy-go-lucky gal..no luck sia..haihz..this is so sickenin..n very exhausting..feel so tensed..i feel like a failure rite now..i was wanting to blog like anything else..but suddenly im totally moodless n dun feel like doing anything at all..except hiding myself under my loveliest, most soft n comforting blanket ever..hide frm everybody forever..lol..not so terrible la.. sounded as if its the end of my life..i still wanna marry shawn lee le..lol..bleh..neway im so glad he blogged..=) i must admit he is 1 lucky man..no doubt he rocks in his studies-EM1..aiming for the top scores in his O levels..n now.. a promising career n brighter than the shining sun future.. awaits him..! wonder whatelse to ask for?? if only i have sum luck..bleh..crapping again..never in my entire life i can b like him nor marry him..but sumtimes its not bad to fantasize a little..living in the lala-land..ok..there i go again..back to reality..hehe..neway..da bottom line is im havin a bad feeling bout da exam..so stressful..i wanna go jogging later..a gd way to release my pressure n everything else that hurts my mind..im so mentallly disturbed by this freaky exam..gosh..wat had got into me..what is wrong wit me..issh..i wanna( more like desperately) need to talk to koon!! she makes me feel good..lol..my most..best..true..nice..sweet fren.lol..divine koon~lets do sumting fun..after all exam is over!!! ;)

2006-05-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

wesak day..a boring and raing day..i shall start mugging again later...mug mug mug mug n more mugging..but lets haf a break n a mug of scrumptious hot chocolate 1st lor..well..today was sick! 1stly..its suppose to be a "holiday" but..my schedule was simply filled with TWO tuitions..wat can b worse..its maths n science!! i love this two subjects..it makes me feel good and energetic~yeah~so y issit worse..?? guess i was influenced by sum ppl again..anyway later..went to temple with jo due to wesak day..im a true buddhist..duh..n thank buddha she was there with me..or else..i shall b bored to death! oh..n mum was pampering me by showering me n da car with her meaningful n priceless nagging again..frm summit to my hse..plus traffic jam..erm..so i guess its about half an hour or so..~sweet~ just the way i like it! "hot n steamy"..

ok..frankly.. today definately wasnt my day..i embarrassed myself!! again.. believe it onot..i feel like crap n wanting to commit suicide n get far way frm everybody forever!! or like wat my mum always say..-let's juz dig a hole n hide ur face in there..ha-ha-ha.. n guess wat..my mummy n da "loveliest" aunt ever was talking about da past again..our past-me n my bros to b exact..u shld take a look at them..how happy n goofy they looked..well..let me give u a short brief of mainly what they were talking..1stly they were saying how beautiful n gorgeous i looked when i was small n young..~wowh~BUT..more to come..nxt they were saying "how come you had changed so much".. added aunt-"two completely different faces".."geez..u reli haf grown up" =S so to make me feel any better..i guess i'll just take it as a compliment..n live with it by comforting myself with phrases like "everybody is beautiful in their own way" or "past is past..?" never noe..lol..

2006-05-08T02:12:00.000+08:00

here r sum pics i tot might cheer up the atmosphere around in a bit..~pink~

2006-05-07T23:02:00.000+08:00

i guess its time for me to get all mug up..im determine that frm today onwards..my life will be three quater occupied by mugging..mug..mug mug mug..no end..great..after all..i seriously needa b well-prepared 4 da battle of PMR!!-koon is a perfectly gd example..im gonna take her as my role model..my inspiration..lol..im gonna start off for my mid-year exam 1st..n kick off with a perfect end in my PMR results..lol..(talk big) but im serious about mugging everyday..to complete my h/w n do sum serious revisions without any interuption frm anybody..im not gonna allow anybody to disturb my mind..! i've learned how to meditate n master my own mind..nothing can stop me..if im determine!!I AM determine!! no doubt about it!!(i sure hope so) i must stay away frm all this temptations..this thing here..handphone..gossips..
TELEVISIONS!yeap..thats rite..no more entertainment till this battle ends..-im still hoping hard i can resist all this desires..im gonna b like shawn lee-my another role model..study hard like shit(oops.. but its the truth)he is reli good!! therefore, i cant go online everyday..to chat or even blog-im gonna miss this..knowledge is an asset ritez..so i beg to differ..pls get me out of all this crap n my laziness n my draggy attitude..i reli wanna score n this is gonna be a step closer to A PROMISING successful and bright life that i always dream of!! life sure is difficult..

2006-05-07T15:53:00.000+08:00

i cant wait to come home and scream out here(da oni place i can think of to haf a gd n contenting scream!!)
AAAARRGGGHHHHHHHHHH
AAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGG
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Hmm..feel MUCH BETTER!!
i hate my class-not my class in school ya(dun misunderstand)..everybody in there is so not nice!
especially O the lame freak is so mean! i was planning to buy him a present actually..but too bad..he spoilt my mood..no present for u..bleh..Xp..i was trying to forget wat mean n bad stuff many of them did to me bfore n forgive them wit all i hav..but they're obnoxious actions juz stop me frm being nice..ive my limitations too ok! anyhow since its one of the item stated in my Life changes mission..i'll try my best to pursue it..its not nice to be not nice..get me? guess im crapping again..oh ya..n thanks to all...who visited my blog..highly appreaciated..im reli looking 4ward to hear frm u guys again..=) aikz..gotta stop now..my bro keeps bugging me for da com! how i wish i haf my own lil com~everybody juz cant stop irritating me..(sighed hard) hmm..one day ill destroy them..LOL

2006-05-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

woke up at 11.30 today! was planning to wake up early n help out at the charity sales but couldnt wake up so mum n da rest went without me(they dun even bother) n reached home the minute i got up.. my whole body is seriously aching! seems like my body is responding pretty well due to yesterday-sum pj thingy that made me run 1500 km!! plus situps n pushups!! im never gd at sports when i reached secondary..i used to love running..but not anymore..hardly exercise nowadays..therefore im adding this to my Life Changes mission! no.31-exercise more and stay healthy! =_= im planning to jog every weekend morn..well..will c if it works..but my parents n my aunt haf no confident in me at all! they said it will never happen..not if my name is Chong Chin FOng!! im reli well known as the lazy bum after all.. anyway im determine to convince n prove it to them that there's nothing i cant do! ;) im tough..lol..(im actually very fragile-u can push me n i can straight away fall flat on da face!) any how..i went to subang parade today..its on renovation..finally they realised how lame n lousy the place looked..went to visit dentist n do a lil shopping..n yamcha at secret recipe before going home..cakes..milkshakes..(my fav part-all chocolates) oh yeah..if im not wrong..i met O..but both of us have no intention to say hi nor smile at all..its kinda sad to think about it..i mean at one time v were such gd fren n den..soon..da nxt thing i noe.. v became complete strangers to each other..things r sure to fall apart! haihz...hope it wont b the end of our frenship..i cant eat 4 da nxt 6 hrs..im starving!! stupid braces! reli cant wait to get rid of this hideous thing a.s.a.p!!

2006-05-06T18:59:00.000+08:00

da lil apply boy.. recommended me to display sum pics..
here it goes...

variety of choices...

yummy yummy.....

watcha think??

tempting...

irresistable??

p/s:i told ya i love chocolates!!

2006-05-05T16:40:00.000+08:00

at first i was dying to edit the profile n then comes the dropdead gorgeous tiffany to save my life!!im so grateful n thankful to noe her-u dunno how much it means to me..(gonna cry soon..t00 touched) tiffany! if u r reading this..unlimited thank you only for you! i really own u 1! let me noe wat shld i do to repay back ur kindness ya..=) n im so sry if i troubled u..juz to let u noe..there's gonna b more to come..b well prepared..im very mah fang 1 lo..lol..i guess one day u must really teach me ya..cant possibly depend on u all da time rite..oh yeah..n thanks to tiffany again! for advertising my blog..although im not quite sure about it.. its kinda weird..neway she's juz too nice..lol..ok.n now that i noe someone is actually reading my blog..i shld start off with a warm welcome.."welcome all, esp to eujin..lol..(he told me he read my blog) im new in this..so if there's any mistake..pls let me noe..n i shall try my very best to improve it..but try not to make fun of me la..(i can b very blur at times) instead feel free to gimme advice n suggestion oh..emmm..my blog can b very crappy n boring..so..hope u'll still support n support tiffany always! =)

2006-05-04T15:24:00.000+08:00

i rewatched "i not stupid too" again! i m seriously in love with this show..( im still going gaga over shawn lee!!) no one can haf an excuse to miss it! im saying it because this movie really is very real.it totally reflects the life of children in this society.all stressed up and parents who dont care about them.to put it in another way, it reflects my life too.my life is just like the life of the characters played by joshua and shawn.only differences i see between me and them are that i dont smoke, dont resort to joining gangs, stealing or robbing.and that my mum is always home most of the time-not my dearest dad though..i mean like so what if my parents dont understand or care about me? i wont go do stuff that'll get me in trouble or whatsoever.and seriously, i truly hope they wouldnt be home at all.then, i wouldnt have to see them and i wouldnt have to feel like shit everyday.i've learnt to stand on my own and not care what they want from me or how they treat me.to me whether i have parents like mine and those in the movie or no parents at all, it makes no difference.but anyhow, im really touched by the whole thing.because, FINALLY there's someone out there in the world who understands how we children feel.even though that someone is one who i dont exactly like.haah, the irony of the world.

lonely girl

2006-05-04T14:35:00.001+08:00

good grief! i noe there r many gals sfter shawn lee but i din noe they were SO FREAKING MANY of them..reli creeps me off knowing how many gals r after him n actually got a chance to met him accidentally!(i read alot of blogs sayin they met shawn n how cute he looked n all) haihzz..how i wish im a singaporean..that way the chances of me meeting him will definately increase..unlike now..im super sure im not gonna get him la..T_T but still im must admit he is really incredible..he is everywhere!!-blogs n all..n i still cant haf enough of him! ok..enough about him for today..its time to fly back to reality! been busy..i cant blieve i can pay fully attntion when teacher is teaching-maths..miracle! well this is a gd start 4 my life changes plan..but not all r working out as i wished to..do i look like a simple n normal looking gal that seems easy to bullies?? well..! get the hell off !-i wish to say to HER..n fuck u! what so nice about making stupid rumours n fooling around-splashing water everywhere TO ME!how dare u?! can u imagine when u r peeing n sum nutcase silly gal splashed water frm outside to u! like..ermm..rain? so annoyed! not funny! no wonder mh hates her! n im so not suprised if all the guys in this universe r running far away frm dis slutty bitch! all the worst to her..i cant want for her to move out of this school!! SHE'S SO UNWANTED-gone for gd! n so is my lil nerdy-n-sickenin-looked brother! i can tell he really doesnt wanna live anymore! try messing with me again n i can assure u ur life will b ruined! no one messes wit me!-(unfortunately,everyone loves to) things arent working out lately..esp among humans..seems like i cant really socialise anymore! really dunno wats got into me! i somehow prefer to stay alone rather then join da gang of ppl n hav a gd laugh! im weird..i really m! i dun even noe wat was i thinking..i guess ill juz wait for things to work out by itself.. hopefully some "weird" things will pop up n brighten up my day..(cute guys.?) im currently tryin to improve myself in many ways..(regarding my Life Changes thingy..) right now..my theory for life is gonna b---->> life is so hectic n boring!(agree?) i still cant n dunno how to edit the profile..so sickening! im hunting for sum professional help..anyone?? mind to give a hand? desperately need that!

different

2006-05-02T17:48:00.000+08:00

notice any different..? yes..i do..(syok sendiri-to myself) im really wondering if anyone actually read my blogs right now..ill b thrown with juz 1 reader..loyal reader who reads my blogs..that's all i asked for..nothing more..only one will do..i dun wanna b unappreaciated..get me? anyway..there happened to be a few changes occured lately..(bsides this brand new skin) i realised that im no longer me! i mean da old me..obviously im happier-i guess..more cheerful looking too..well..thats my opinion la..im determine to make some big changes in my life..-life changes..which i'll proceed in no time! in order to achieve my no.1 goal in life-get a life! im gonna make myself clear about all that soon..ok..cut that out..i talked to koon today..on da phone..she's so sweet as always..im so glad n grateful she comes to me every now and then n shares all her problems and happiness too with me..i must say..its such an honour-divine koon..n im so glad she's the place i can afford to go for a complain too...she gives the best advices..i love her! my true n best fren..lol..hmm..im still on about shawn..keep thinking about him like forever..i guess ill just let the time determine all..im exhausted! no sign of him 2 b heard at all..he aint updating his blog still! i noe..its his tough time-exams...but its been weeks..poor us! oh yeah..my funny lil bro..he's insane..juz like today..when i was eating sum mouth-watering pineapples n he said.."r u tryin 2 drop ur foetus?"-i not stupid too..lol..i can only say.."i not stupid rocks to the max!"

sad cases

2006-05-01T12:17:00.000+08:00

have been wondering whether have anyone actually read my blog?? im really curious..since i didnt expose nor advertise my blog to anybody anywhere-secret..i feel its kinda embarrassing letting sum1 u noe n always meet up with reading ur blog-feelings n all..its so WEIRD! i cant afford to let that happen..im gonna b myself-the real me..all this while..in reality..i've been hiding alot n im so tired of it! im not gonna write something that is not myself to hide things out just like what many ppl r currently doing..after all, what is a blog for??!-express ur self n share wit sum1-obviously sum readers i have no clue..(perhaps,shawn lee) im dreaming again! lol.. bout him..as usual been thinking about him day n night-nonstop..he is not blogging!! =( feel so frustrated-waiting n big disappointment! everyday i on9 aso 4 da shake of him..wondering if he had blogged..haihz..the only way to describe my condition for now will b..sadness in my eyes n pain in my broken heart..that is how im feeling now.. plus, mum nagging about everything, everytime..cant take it no more..im seriously sick of my mum n her big fat mouth! she is so unrasional..wondered what so divine about her..! she is such a pain in da ass..her frustrating n annoying attitude made me hate her even more!! uncilivilised mum!! n everybody is abandoning me! including my loveliest aunt who i love most..i guess i cant blame her..she deserves to have a wonderful life-unlike mine..everybody is just simply selfish..sad case...

i really do love him!!

2006-04-29T19:08:00.000+08:00

i can feel my heart breaking like da glass.. im falling apart!i miss him everyday, every minute, every second!! i just cant take my mind off him every single time! i can feel his existence..which is sumting to do physcologically..haihz..y do i feel this way!! y do i haf to feel this way! i cant suffer anymore!! i cant take it!! i can feel my stomach aching!! oush!! IT HURTS!! its so hard to love sum1!! esp sum1 u cant really keep in touch with-not at all..as far as im concerned..i am so desperate n depressed!! get me out of this!! i feel so sick!! if only sum miracle ought to happen!! ive always been day n night-dreaming about him..plus da lil fantasy i haf in my mind-me n him! how perfect n sensational if he could appears infront of me! well.. again..im not making any sense..i tried my best 2 erase him out of my memory..but how can i! he's too..lovable..?

heres a song-lyric i wanna dedicate 2 him..

look into my eyes-you'll see
what u mean to me
search ur heart, search ur soul
and when u find me there, u'll search no more
dont tell me its not worth tryin for
you know its true
everything i do-i do for you

look into my heart-you will find
there's nothing there to hide
take me as i am-take my life
i would give it all i would sacrifice
dont tell me its not worth fighthing for
i cant help it there's nothing i want more
ya know its true
everything i do-i do for you

there is no love-like ur love
n no other-could give more love
there's nowhere-unless u r there
all the time-all the way

dont tell me its not worth tryin for
i cant help it there's nothing i want more
i would fight for you..i'd lie for you
walk the wire for you, ya i'll die for you

annoyed

2006-04-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

some ppl juz cant live with their own life n had to interrupt n even ruin others life.. WHY?? too free..? or mayb their just jealous..?? im so annoyed by ppl with this kind of atittude! its not pleasant at all..seeing ur face n ur unsensible act..i feel like throwing out..mind u..pls think properly and sensibly b4 u talk or tryin 2 attempt sum funny act o joke that u think its so cool n hialrious..ha-ha..L-A-M-E! obviously u haf a big D displayed on ur face..Desperate! do u noe da word shame?? pls la..i pity u man! irritating bastards n bitches.. well..suddenly..sumting..how shld i put it..erm..strange..n impossible..crossed my mind..wat if all the annoyin ppl suddenly disappeared?? i assure u this world will definately b a better place to live.. MUCH BETTER! how sweet~

also..i realised they r so many fake-2 faces ppl in this world! bcareful!!! u never noe their been real n true o sarcastic n is bhind sumting evilish..(juz a reminder) u wouldnt wanna b corn by their dirty little tricks..ppl around u even da closest-harmless(dun judge a book by its cover!) of all can b simply dangerous...this world is filled with lies..

never had a dream come true-love that song

2006-04-27T16:28:00.000+08:00

i've been busy recently..doing some reading..(novel) and also bz resting since im still sick! this time along with serious flu but mild cough.. dont feel like blogging these days..mainly bcoz of my weakness..im energyless and tired.. anyway..boys r such weird creatures..i really dont understand them,..they say girls r hard 2 understand but i find da same theory about guys..unpreditable minds..never know what r they thinking..sensible..? lol.. i miss HIM! cant get my mind off him..keep thinking about him..what he might b doing..n so on..i noe frm da very beginning its wrong! im not suppose 2 feel n act this way..its ..unacceptable..? but like i say..really cant help it la! he is so presentable n capable!-agree wit me..(yes,everyone does) feel so uneasy lately..esp in school..aikz.dunno wats got into me..juz hope things will get better as time passes by..hoping 4 a miracle!

miserable parents

2006-04-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

i have to admit my family as in my mum n dad r not very much a planner..they simply sucks in planning..esp with my future! but thats not all..its oni a minor part of it..there r so much more..uncountable!! so can u imagine how terrible it is! i guess u can sort of picture it..but unfortunately they cant! what the hell rite! im 15 n i c it but they JUST cant! ridiculous..? yup, thats SO my family..! (sigh in a big disappointment) sad? no..i find it..PATHETIC! when i wanna "discuss" it with them, they juz wouldnt listen n here it goes again..based on the reason i-gave-birth-to you-so-i-know-BETTER theory! n start giving sum worst then physics lecture..so dry..! now i realised y i love da "i not stupid movie" so much..really related to my life.. but im pretty sure mine is worst..no only lack of communication n love(esp my mum)..aso sum other stuff that i shldnt b tellin..so..i wont b telling! im positive my parents absolutely dun fit in the category of role models.. they r another way around..i hope ill never b like them! NEVER! Lets juz pray hard! how i wish i can tell them wat a big failure they r..FAILURES!! wake up mama n papa(yucks..gross..feel like puking) XP u haf my sympathy! ;P

sucks

2006-04-25T17:22:00.000+08:00

no big deal.. but y must they make it till such a big deal..n call themselves the proper..the correct one.. for me lets juz say..sum bitches who have nothing better to do..makin **** noises.. really getting annoyed as days grow by..so obnoxious n hatred.. feel like throwing out! on da bitch's face! mess wit me! u reli dunno wats da word DIE huh!? ill show u! better watch out! say whatever u 1..yes..im threatening u n so yes im gonna make ur life miserable..who started it 1st! ;P well.. i can b very nice n also very very mean! no mercy! n whoever who's tryin 2 hack my acc o wat so ever..u better b careful! y cant u **** ppl juz stop annoyin n makin my life miserable n ruin it! i had enough!! shut da **** up!!! damn..u ppl reli pisses me off! for once..i really feel like makin u ppl disappear n out of my sight.. pain in the ass! if u think u r so incredible then stop actin uncivilise..hopeless n meaningless,suckers! **** off!

content + sick

2006-04-24T19:12:00.000+08:00

im not feeling well esp in school! hardly talk nor smile.. im sick..cough+ sorethroat.. wat could b worst..lovesick! i realised that shawn lee is such a genius! he masters everything n for sure he is pretty strong in his english! (perfect english wei) speak like american! how brilliant..lol.. ok..enough about him..sry..bare wit me.. i noe i can b too much n b all crappy n annoyin! im juz been content..been able to get into his life..watelse can i ask for! well..nothin much about 2day.. happy 2 skip my piano n replace it with a nice nap.. oh..health check up..in school..gd eyesight..n i found out that i oni grew 2 cm since last yr which mde me 167cm now! n my weight..ahem* 48.5 kg..defeated many gals le..lol..hopefully i can remain in dis weight..n grow another 3 cm! my target is 170 le..lol..but many of them told me "dont b crazy la" =( aikz..IPOD..im comin 2 u soon..b patient..

boring!

2006-04-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

i realise how boring n colourless my life is after reading a few of my so called frens blogs..they have the life that is fill with excitement, suprises and most importantly..fun!! for once..i really wish im like..1 of them..? never noe.. how sad n pathetic can my life b??? nothing goes rite! i really need sum luck! i had enough of dis kind of sickenin life..*cough* god!! buddha!! anybody!!help me!! gimme guardiance..let me go.. out of this.. i seriously need 2 do sumting!! mind..anybody give me a hand..help pls?! haihz.. ouch..i really hope 2 get an ipod!! 2 cheer things up..

(sentimental)

thank you so much =)

2006-04-23T15:42:00.000+08:00

thanks to the anonymous who gave me shawn's personal blog..if u r reading dis..i juz wanna say a million thanks..u dunno how much it means to me..im so grateful n gladful!! u made my day..brightened up my life! its my biggest hope n dream 2 get 2 noe him indirectly coz i knew frm da very beginning i wont getta noe him in person.. how cool!!! i getta noe wats up with his life..although he din reli post recently.. im still very happy and satisfy with it! get 2 noe him silently INVISIBLY.. i found out a few things bout him..basketball freak..lol..very hardworking..study n finish his h/w..really a role model! he has everything it takes..a dream guy he is..he's juz so...perfect..?? lol..mayb..(geez..reallyquite a no. of them r after him =( ) so competitive!! lolz..

body without a soul

2006-04-20T18:01:00.000+08:00

i was helping out in school today..due to my school is the organiser of the MSSD basketball competition/tournament.. among few schools in subang jaya area..n wat could b worst?? all girls!! =_=" no leng chai 2 c lo! what a waste! since..i mean..normally thats wat guy basketballers r sppose 2 b ritez.. i skip all my classes and spent the entire day in the court doing the registration part..checking ICs and i love it! no maths..science..geo n everythin..lol.. lazy bum! well..this is bcoz i personally figured out that is gd to skip school once in awhile with a reasonable reason..helping the school.. =)(crappy me)but i seriously need to b active n participate in school activities otherwise im so gonna b blacklisted o at least..b unrecognisable as a gd student.. which is a nightmare for me..i dun want that to happen!! no one does!! i wanna b recognised as a helpful, active n smart student.. A star student! anyway..back to the basketball..its under 18..all so feminine..oh.. erm..actually unfortunately not really! i cant really tell whether they r guys o gals.. some r superb tomboyish..sry..no offense..but..seriously..they really look like guys..man! i cant really identify it unless i look at da...b**bs..lol.. anyway..they are so cool and yeng le..im so jealous but in the meantime salute! i c another world today..i learn alot n experience new stuff..really "open my eyes"..i can obviously c dat they haf a life! which i dun reli haf..mine is juz boring..meaningless and hopeless..i met so many new ppl..n realise sum stuff.. sadly to say i realised im just a body without a soul..i have no life! mainly bcoz everybody juz simply love ruining my life! esp my mum! n sum horrible frens! even teachers..='( haihzz neway enough bout dat..can never get enough..(complains).. n i went for my maths tuition class(replacement) sucks..didnt go any better..i cant wait 4 2mrw..im gonna help again..thanks to my dearest and kindest teacher! im really enjoyin myself ..hehe..

Anti M!!